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Please Don't Report Me ♡ Just Block Me 5'2"; UGW: 105lbs; CW: 137lbs

[drownmeincoffee]

Somehow i lost 5 pounds?? I have....no idea??? Ive literally just been in recovery????

[bleedingbones-deactivated202111]

being hungry feels so fucking great.

[caffeinated-me]

the amount of regret i have after every single bite of food. i’m so fucking tired.

the way i know i’m going to feel this regret, guilt, shame, but i still eat. what’s wrong with me? why do i continuously do this to myself?

[o0ps-stuff-deactivated20240229]

😩😳June 2021😳😩

Any active ed blogs interact with this and I'll followwww

[drownmeincoffee]

@anyone wanna keep me company on a fast? Ive been eating so much the past few months im actually nearing my SW....

[drownmeincoffee]

I will now be living exclusively off of skinny sauces xx

[drownmeincoffee]

Im not saying that im doing keto for the weight loss but...

I'm saying i will continue to be cutting out major food groups until nothings left ♡

Next thing is Nuts (my clutch food)

[scrvped-bones]

Tmi but.... ANA PSA

Y'all seriously don't take laxatives to lose weight

I am only 21 (about to turn 22) and my bowels are more than likely permanently fucked up because I abused laxatives for LESS THAN TWO YEARS

LESS THAN TWO YEARS OF LAXATIVE abuse and I can't take a normal shit to save my life

I either don't shit for days, or I'm stuck on the toilet for an hour with.... Well... I won't put that into words but I think you know what I'm talking about

FIND NATURAL WAYS TO GET FIBER

BE BROCCOLIS BITCH, THAT VEGGIE IS A LIFE SAVER

Don't use laxatives unless you're actually using them as directed

It's not worth it y'all seriously

[drownmeincoffee]

Me: Yay im recovering!!!

Also me: Oh SHIT im gaining WEIGHT

[drownmeincoffee]

Day One of eating 1900 calories a day.

Lets see how it goes???

[drownmeincoffee]

I want to fucking d*e

[drownmeincoffee]

Remembered im a cranky depressed bitch when i dont eat, so fuck everything i guess im eating.

My thighs TOUCH and thats SCARY but im bulking. Im bulking im bulking im bulking im in control im bulking and im okay

[drownmeincoffee]

I will henceforth be on a secret calorie deficit which will be hidden from my parents and all others. I will be losing fat and i will be lying about it. Merry fucking christmas.

[drownmeincoffee]

When you start to recover you will binge. This is normal.

There will be days all you eat is sugar and this is normal.

Let your head tell you what to eat, and if your head says chocolate, eat it.

People are so scared of the beginning and it is scary, but it ends.

It might take days, weeks, or months, but there will be a day where you reach for the processed, "bad for you food" and you hesitate. Your body will speak in a rasping voice that its had Enough, and it will tell you what it wants.

When your body finally speaks up, listen.

It will get easier.

When the voice in your head and the voice in your body start talking, you really start recovering.

[drownmeincoffee]

Me, feeling weak, dizzy, and nauseous: At least I'm finally Skinnie

My ED: okay you fat bitch

Me: °.°;

[drownmeincoffee]

Me, dipping my 8th kitkat into a tub of cream, after demolishing half a pack of cookies: Its called self care; I'm nourishing my body <3

[unapologetically-rotting]

Brain full of maggots and a heart full of pain.