idek anymore

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was at one of my lowest weights in the past 4 years but then i was stuck at home… now i’m scared to see how much weight i gained at home.

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3 years together and you’re still hiding ur phone from me while on it.

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pointer finger was tonight’s victim

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been really hard to find myself happy for long periods of time

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any effort i make is spun into an argument

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hate myself

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i don’t know how to stop thinking of you thinking of her, of them

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not even sure what to do anymore, never felt so insecure before.

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feel like a used piece of shit

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wish i would just die in a car crash, thought about the bathtub too.

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i need the recommended tweets to go away cause i just saw a picture of someone and it triggered me so badly.

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haven’t bruised in a while, but started thinking about old things and it just kinda happened

also got blue hair dye on my leg tonight so i thought it looked kinda c0ol

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the only thing keeping me from doing it is my parents

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i love him so much.

but every time i bring up a change, i feel like i’m losing him.

i’m going to have to move soon, whether he moves with me or not.

and honestly, i don’t know if i can trust him long distance.

that scares the absolute shit out of me.

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double standards are not. fun to deal with in a relationship.

you vocalize any time i mention a guys name yet half ur snapchat history is messages from girls ??

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finally unfollowed one of my biggest triggers, i know my bf likes the way she looks, but when i was at work and couldn’t stop looking at pictures of her, i knew i needed to change something

i hope this is a positive change but i still want to look like her.

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why’s it so hard for you to spend time with me