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Well, I basically got friend-dumped. It was the guy I previously ranted about but uh he basically said it hurts too much to just be friends. But then also said he doesn't want to stop being friends. Which basically leads to him needing space, so whatever level of contact we have is apparently up to me cause he needs to step back. The part I hated though is us arguing back and forth about the fact that he is so in love with me, and was sure I had to have developed feelings for him since the last time he asked me out apparently. I've known him for maybe 4 1/2 months. It took me 4 years to fall in love with my best friend in high school. And I haven't had any feelings like that since then. And yet he was sure that I had to have some feelings for him after knowing him for 4 1/2 months. He was also sure I hadn't moved on from said friend. Despite me saying I have cause I know how it feels to have my heart hurt just thinking about them, and seeing them interact with others, and it doesn't anymore. And to him, it's insane that I would continue to be friends with someone who broke my heart. But they didn't do it on purpose. I told them how I felt and they didn't reciprocate, it happens, and I moved on. But apparently, that's stupid. Oh and don't even get me started on how a couple days prior he was upset at me for saying I was busy this week when he wanted to hang out. He took that to mean I don't want to hang out with him ever and am making excuses not to. He also admitted that he was holding onto the expectations that we should be hanging out every day because that is definitely what friends do. And proceeded to make me feel like a shitty friend for not wanting to because; I dont have the social battery for that, I work 5 days a week 40 hours, and sometimes I have stuff after work so I can be busy, sometimes I just lose all motivation to want to do anything let alone hang out, and sometimes I'm just in a lot of pain with my joints. But god forbid I have free time that I'm not spending with him. So overall he doesn't want to be friends but wants to be friends so it's low contact I guess. We'll see if this goes like the first 'I need space' time where he literally did nothing to change his actions and proceeded to be mildly affectionate and wanting to hang out all the time.

#parkerrants

brakken

skeletons

alinahazy

THIS IS WHAT I WANT ON NY HALOWEEN DASH OMG

alinahazy

I’ll never stop reblogging this

chiaroart

I told myself I’d wait until October to start putting halloween stuff on my blog. I’m a dirty liar.

rawrda

This is your daily reminder to not be ashamed of making your life easy for yourself.

Cut your food into small pieces, make the font size 30 on your e book, use straws to drink, get a pen that’s comfortable to hold, take more naps, walk slowly, eat another cookie, buy velcro shoes, re-watch the part you couldn’t understand the first time, write things on your hands so you don’t forget it… whatever you want and/or need

Don’t let anyone tell you how you should be doing things. We don’t need to prove each other anything

tothechaos

they should invent a type of sleeping where you wake up and feel rested

dumbspiderboy

Haven't been on Tumblr in 3 nearly 4 years but here I am cause I got a long fucking rant I need to let out.

So this motherfucker that I work with, if he wasn't an actual person I enjoyed hanging out with most of the time I would have dropped him so fast cause of all the red flags. Like I honestly should drop him at this point. So I met him cause he started working at the same place I did back in May. Now we got along great, but I started to notice the way he acted might imply that he had a crush on me cause he was heavily asking about me being asexual, which is not something I hide. But he thought being ace was the same as being aro until I finally explained the difference to him which made me think he was gonna ask me out. And I was not fucking wrong. He asked me out, and at the time I was under the impression he was 39, while I'm 22 so I immediately was like nah dude the age gap makes me hella uncomfortable and he understood. He continue to act the same though which was a little eh. I should also preface that the way he asked me out was a bit weird. It was a series of questions the first being if I was dating my roommate at the time, if I was polyamorous, which yikes at the implications, and if I wanted to go out with him. So fast forward maybe like a little less than a month and come to find out he was not 39, but either 28 or 29. He tries asking me out again when he realizes. I cite that I still am not interested for a multitude reasons, the biggest being I don't have those kinds of feelings for him because I also lean heavily on the demiromantic spectrum quite possibly aromantic because in my lifetime I have been in love/had a crush on someone once. It was in high school, it took me nearly 4 years to actually fall in love with them, but I knew I was. And while I identify as pan, I don't find myself attracted to people who identify as male often, mostly I am into women. And I gave him these reasons. Continued to act the same. Now about another almost month later, tries once again to ask me a date, citing "so what if we said screw responsibilities and see where it goes?" Now at this point, I'm more than mildly uncomfortable and I make a point of stating it was never about responsibilities, reciting the reasons I gave before. He is a little woe is me, that he's in love with me and he won't be able to move on easily. So you know I'm trying to be nice and offer some distance which he accepts. We later talk in person about this whole thing and set a few boundaries because we are both feeling weird. Me over him being overly touchy and affectionate, leaning against me when we sit by each other when hanging out, spontaneous hugs (which I hate), and trying to buy me things I don't want and have stated such, he tried to get me a new phone cause mine kind of sucks at times and I very actively was uncomfortable with. All of which I set and he promptly ignores less than a week later. I try to pull back on my behavior cause according to him it was more than friendly and seemingly flirty to him and leading him on, but it's how I act with all my friends, not one ever told me it was like that. Now we are at a point where he gets incredibly jealous over everyone and slightly pissy about it. For example, a coworker, let's call W, has been attempting to get me to go out to a bar with him because I said I've never been to one, all in a friendly way that doesn't make me uncomfortable. My friend, who let's now call E, suddenly gets pissy and sad when I tell him, and goes "well I hope you have fun." I had never stated I was going to go just that W was asking. And at least once a week E gets upset over having feelings for me and depresses himself with me not liking him. He also gets upset when I don't always want to hang out with him, he asks almost every day to hang out. I work 5 days a week 6am-2pm usually. Within those, I had DnD twice a week Monday and Tuesday, and every other week had game night Wednesday (which he is a part of). Now he has mainly closing shifts between Thursday to Sunday. This means he is not available to hang out often when I get out of work. And days off I like to relax but also do chores and things that need to be done.

dumbspiderboy

Anyways, I also have an issue with motivation, some days after work I just don't have any energy to want to do anything, I can be moody or just tired. Other times it's cause I'm in pain because I have bone/joint issues mostly in my knees. My kneecap doesn't work properly so sometimes I feel like I can't walk. And this all annoys him when he tries to ask to hang and I'm just not feeling it or busy. It also really fucking annoys me because of my pain issues, he treats me like I'm made of glass a lot, I hate it, it makes me feel like a child when he treats me like that, even after I said he needs to stop. The days he doesn't though he goes too far, a really good example is I walk with forearm crutches outside of work and we were walking together and he thinks it a good fucking idea to tackle/hug me while walking which makes me nearly fall over, with him profusely apologizing saying he didn't think I'd be that easy to topple. Because yes the person with crutches to support their legs would be incredibly stable. And he because angry at himself the rest of the night and was in a bad mood about it. Man, I could really go on. He smokes, which is a big hell no for me in dating. When he doesn't, he vapes which I'm still not highkey a fan of but he's addicted to nicotine basically. He has attempted to quit cigarettes at least 5 times since I met him in May, and went back because he says he needs it to get through work a lot. And I'm not judging, he's got an addiction, and that can be hard to quit. Another nice red flag is how much he mentions his exes, and while it's almost never in a negative way, it is very frequent. And overall I'm not sure if he really likes me for who I am because biologically yes I am female, and I still possess feminine features for now, but I identify as genderqueer and use he/they pronouns and I don't want a relationship based off them thinking I am something I'm not.

So yeah, lots of red flags, and he just generally makes me uncomfortable a lot. But I really enjoy the times he doesn't, but honestly, that shouldn't make up for it.

#parkerrants

Haven't been on Tumblr in 3 nearly 4 years but here I am cause I got a long fucking rant I need to let out.

So this motherfucker that I work with, if he wasn't an actual person I enjoyed hanging out with most of the time I would have dropped him so fast cause of all the red flags. Like I honestly should drop him at this point. So I met him cause he started working at the same place I did back in May. Now we got along great, but I started to notice the way he acted might imply that he had a crush on me cause he was heavily asking about me being asexual, which is not something I hide. But he thought being ace was the same as being aro until I finally explained the difference to him which made me think he was gonna ask me out. And I was not fucking wrong. He asked me out, and at the time I was under the impression he was 39, while I'm 22 so I immediately was like nah dude the age gap makes me hella uncomfortable and he understood. He continue to act the same though which was a little eh. I should also preface that the way he asked me out was a bit weird. It was a series of questions the first being if I was dating my roommate at the time, if I was polyamorous, which yikes at the implications, and if I wanted to go out with him. So fast forward maybe like a little less than a month and come to find out he was not 39, but either 28 or 29. He tries asking me out again when he realizes. I cite that I still am not interested for a multitude reasons, the biggest being I don't have those kinds of feelings for him because I also lean heavily on the demiromantic spectrum quite possibly aromantic because in my lifetime I have been in love/had a crush on someone once. It was in high school, it took me nearly 4 years to actually fall in love with them, but I knew I was. And while I identify as pan, I don't find myself attracted to people who identify as male often, mostly I am into women. And I gave him these reasons. Continued to act the same. Now about another almost month later, tries once again to ask me a date, citing "so what if we said screw responsibilities and see where it goes?" Now at this point, I'm more than mildly uncomfortable and I make a point of stating it was never about responsibilities, reciting the reasons I gave before. He is a little woe is me, that he's in love with me and he won't be able to move on easily. So you know I'm trying to be nice and offer some distance which he accepts. We later talk in person about this whole thing and set a few boundaries because we are both feeling weird. Me over him being overly touchy and affectionate, leaning against me when we sit by each other when hanging out, spontaneous hugs (which I hate), and trying to buy me things I don't want and have stated such, he tried to get me a new phone cause mine kind of sucks at times and I very actively was uncomfortable with. All of which I set and he promptly ignores less than a week later. I try to pull back on my behavior cause according to him it was more than friendly and seemingly flirty to him and leading him on, but it's how I act with all my friends, not one ever told me it was like that. Now we are at a point where he gets incredibly jealous over everyone and slightly pissy about it. For example, a coworker, let's call W, has been attempting to get me to go out to a bar with him because I said I've never been to one, all in a friendly way that doesn't make me uncomfortable. My friend, who let's now call E, suddenly gets pissy and sad when I tell him, and goes "well I hope you have fun." I had never stated I was going to go just that W was asking. And at least once a week E gets upset over having feelings for me and depresses himself with me not liking him. He also gets upset when I don't always want to hang out with him, he asks almost every day to hang out. I work 5 days a week 6am-2pm usually. Within those, I had DnD twice a week Monday and Tuesday, and every other week had game night Wednesday (which he is a part of). Now he has mainly closing shifts between Thursday to Sunday. This means he is not available to hang out often when I get out of work. And days off I like to relax but also do chores and things that need to be done.

#parkerrants

finalgrlfriendarchive-deactivat

if my bones are gonna crack like glow sticks every time i move i think i deserve bioluminescence. both to complete the aesthetic and as a consolation prize

a-chilleus

pumpkinylink

loveruns

Team “I can hear the near silent hum of electrical appliances and the bubbles fizzing in the can of soda on the coffee table, but can’t watch tv without subtitles and processes conversation at ¼ speed”

totorox

[Edit] What I’ve learned from DnD

geekydemigodinthevoid

I love that the internet saw people comparing women and other alienated groups of people and went, “they’re dating,” and, “they support each other.” We’re improving as a society.

geekydemigodinthevoid

Does anyone know who these artists are?? They’re brilliant and I’d like to credit them!!

geekydemigodinthevoid

cell113

THIS IS HOW TO TAKE A TRASH OPINION COMIC AND MAKE IT BETTER. THANK YOU.

ophidahlia

The best genre to ever have existed

bowie-boy

These improved my day

surprisebitch

GAY RIGHTS

darwinquark

Is anyone else just instantly endeared by people chillin’ on surfaces that aren’t made for sitting? Like hopped up on a counter with a cup of coffee, cross-legged on the floor eating cereal, drinking wine fully clothed in a bath tub, sprawled out on the hood of a car with snacks for a meteor shower, etc? I don’t know why I love it so much, but I do.