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Stories of life from Diny's eyes.

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It is Love

Here is the thing about love:

You cannot plan it. It comes naturally and with a surprising warmth.

You can feel it as a blessing from God for you and yours only. You can be mindful of what comes in the present time.

You have the agency to choose what do you want to do with it, using the information that you have and the sensations that you feel in your mind and body.

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what?!

It was past midnight and I was begging a man to want me.

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to infinity and beyond

Will I stop hating my self when I have what I wanted? Or is it a default? Is it my default? If it is, how do I cope?

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proven

Plotting my self to experience deep sadness and proving my self no matter how hard i tried, it just won't be good enough.

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just be it

Most people don't really care, so you can just be whatever you want and do what makes you happier

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ghost

i always want to see you whenever i want to hate myself

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a little journey

all those fears are not belongs to me.

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priorities

care too much for things beyond control and care too little for things under control

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the worst person in the world

hurt people hurt people. there's no amount of therapy could fix this.

(it's me)

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morning news

so..... you know, the world is kinda messy.... every other morning is another disasterous - historical - momental day..... don't you want just be a mess mess baddie together forever?

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surreal

am I dreaming? is it only my imagination? am I making things up on my brain? is it a safe container? am I projecting? am I pushing things? again, is this real?

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a lil conversation in the corner

d: how are you feeling? do you feel sad because of what happened? m: well, yeah of course I'm a sad. But, I know in this life, people comes and goes. Some people stays, some people left, some new people comes. That's how life is. d: does it get easier? because you've known and have experienced it. m: haha no.. I may be more mindful to accept what I can and cannot control, but it still feels the same. It is what it is.

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"I knew you're a happy person, but back then it wasn't like this. There was always a bit of sadness on your smiles, it showed especially when you didn't put it up. Now you look happy happy, from the heart. I'm happy that you're."

a comment from a good friend.

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you're not allowed to be too protective

Low key sad that my friends aren't happy that I'm happy (facts) in disguise to protect me from being sad (possibility). Life will break you anyway, why not enjoying while it last.

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Runner's High

Aku ngga tau kenapa tapi musim lari tahun ini aku bisa jauh lebih menikmati. Mungkin karena sekarang lari jauh nya bareng teman-teman. Mungkin karena aku lebih baik ke diri ku sendiri. Mungkin juga karena banyak hal-hal menyenangkan belakangan ini. Aku ngga tau deh.

Belakangan ini kalau habis lari jauh dan santai, aku sumringah sekali. Kayak, what is this?? I'm smiling a lot! Kemudian lihat foto-foto di Fotoyu aku pun heran, you look good with that smiles babe! Ini tahun lalu dan dua tahun lalu aku kayak gini ngga sih? kayaknya ngga terlalu deh. Wahhhh!

Aku mau menikmati aja deh, ngga usah analisis ini itu. Yaampun. Senang juga ya rasanya kayak gini.

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calling my therapist

a shortcut to a broken heart is having a really good date and understand it won't be going anywhere.

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Rain Dance

All we need during raining season is romance, like adoration and poems of all the things I like about you.