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solauctor replied to your post: solauctor replied to your post: ☁ &nbs...
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☁ Ok, so this is so hard for me, but I've finally just came to the decision to just change this into an archive aaaaand... moving on. I keep logging on now and again, staring at this blog and wishing I just had the motivation to be here. I've never had such a long, fulfilling run with a muse before and I miss roleplaying Cloud like I used to, but I've come to the conclusion that it's just not possible for me, not on a blog filled with so many old memories-- particularly of an old muse, long gone now but never forgotten. I don't think I really need to mention which muse I'm talking about, anyone who's followed me for any significant length of time can probably figure out who.
I've never let the loss of an rp partner affect me like that before, so it's a startling feeling and one I just wasn't equipped to recover from. So weird, really. I mean, it's not even a real, actual loss, considering we still talk, still rp-- just with different muses (and god, I love her so much). But yes.
Such is life.
I'm going to make one last attempt to roleplay Cloud again, on a new blog-- wiping the slate clean and starting up from the bottom. Keeping the url, though. I guess, for all my self-conscious feelings about the url "doublexcut," I can't think of a more suitable url for myself or my Cloud.
So, follow the new blog if you wish. Just be warned, I don't know if I'll be near as active as I was in my "prime," let alone rp with too many people. I work some weird hours now and it drains me of a lot of energy. All the same, there will be an effort.
This blog will always be here, though, since I really can't completely let it go.
☁
"I suppose I shouldn’t be the one to complain." I folded my arms. The look of arrogance quickly adorning my newly returned companion elicited from beneath maroon fold a soft snerk. "Still alive and strifling. Tuesti had not been working you too hard, had he?"
Amused, Cloud shook his head ever-so-slightly, cerulean gaze falling briefly behind pale lids. "...Yes, I'm well," he confirmed with a casual ease. "Reeve's... heh, he's actually been on my case about taking a break sometime." He shrugged a shoulder, eyes reopening. He just didn't have the luxury to cut back on his schedule, not now.
denzelstrife replied to your post: …Oh god.I haven’t—I hav...
Wow hey Cloud missed seeing you around.
Hey, man. Good to see you're still kicking. Heh uwu;;; YEAH, I mean, in case you couldn't gather from all my freaking out with the ooc;; crap on the dash (sry not sry), I just really miss being on this blog [pets it, dusts it off]
ablackwing replied to your post: ablackwing replied to you...
[ WOOF WOOF LET ME LOVE YOU I AM GLAD YOU ARE BACK WOOF HI I WANT YOU TO STAY I HAVE MISSED SEEING YOU AROUND WOOF WOOF BARK BARK BARK BARK— ]
SDLKFAJWEFOIAJWEOFIASDF //LOVES ON THO AND I REALLY MISSED BEING AROUND gosh, I just I miss being here and I'm [stays, sleeps on this dash, never leaves again]
sanguinesaint replied to your post “¦Oh god. I haven’t— I haven’t been on this blog since April. I feel...”
( "Someone is back..." ||- Brow quirked -|| ( By the way, that is equivalent to a hug and a 'Dammit! I do miss you, man!!!" ;w; ) )
"...Heh. Hello to you, too, Vincent." A smirk twitched at the corners of his lips, head cant slightly to one side.
ooc: //HOLDS CLOSELY AND GENTLY WIPES AWAY ALL YOUR TEARS, STROKING YOUR BACK. SHH SHH IT’S OKAY BBY~ I gotchu. And hehe I shall accept all the nicknames you’ve come up for me without hesitation. <3 [/Also pesters your other muse. You know which one. HEHE. LOVE ME YOU TACITURN DUCK.]
I know exactly what you mean. You’ve had this account for so long and created so many wonderful memories with it. I can tell— see how much you love your Cloud muse very much.
But you know, no matter how long you may go away, we’ll always be here to welcome you back time and time again. Me included, of course! Try re-reading some of your previous roleplays as boost of inspiration while you do some of those ideas that I suggested. Or perhaps even listen to some songs that reminds you of Cloud. Read some fanfictions.
Just try not to push yourself too much, okay? & Also, I believe in you.
ooc;; omfg nO //LAUGHING AS OTHER MUSE ATTEMPTS TO OLLIE THE FUCK OUT you had to call him a duck you just had to didn't you
[leans against tho] u.u Yeah, I mean. Man, I've always loved the VII compilation just in general and Cloud's obviously my favorite character to write behind. |: I don't think that could be made more obvious?? haha
And, yeah, maybe. I just. It's hard to explain my feelings and I don't want to blatantly put them on the table, either, because I really don't wanna guilt anyone or make anyone feel less important. Hah;;;;; But, no, it's alright. Perhaps I can slip back into things by taking your suggestions. uwu;;; Heh~
falsamilitis replied to your post: falsamilitis replied to y...
GRATS ON THINGS OK GHJKFH i’m glad to see you’re doing okay though ;v ; even with stress! i’m curRENTLY SURROUNDED BY DRUNK PEOPLE SO… /OLLIES OUT OF HERE TBH.
omfg //LAUGHS AT U it's always something. :l but yes, go take care of those drunk people. AND BE CAREFUL, ALL THAT JAZZ. [waves]
ablackwing replied to your post: ablackwing replied to you...
[ /RUBS ALL OVER LIKE A NEEDY PUPPY AND LOVES ON AND WAGS AND OH MY GOD YOU”RE BACK HI I HAVE MISSED YOU— ]
SDLKFJAWEFAWFALSDF TAKE ALL MY FLUSTERED KEYSMASHES OOAIEWJASLDKFWAEF [PETS, DOTES ON, CUTIE PUPPY!SEPH] YES, I'M HERE, I'M. SPAMMING THE DASH WITH OOC THINGS BUT I'M ALIVE AND HERE ADN. How are youuuu
falsamilitis replied to your post: falsamilitis replied to y...
HOW ARE YOU ARE YOU DOING OK??? other than being busy i guess ghjkhkghsgjfdsk IT’S NICE TO SEE YOU AROUND AGAIN THO even if it’s just for a little while ;V ;
i'm ok. I HONESTLY SHOULD BE SLEEPING BECAUSE I HAVE TO BE AWAKE IN LESS THAN SEVEN HOURS BUT fuckthepolice.gif
i've done worse. also insomnia. and laundry.
But yeah, in my absence, I've gained a lot more hours at my new job, moved, and found myself in a pit full of many stresses. Life continues on, though, and I'm stable. I'm also really happy because I managed to get my easel up finally-- only to find myself crying over the shattered corpse of my palette. I'll be buying a new one soon, though, and then I can actually paint again. This excitement is what keeps me going in life.
how are you tho, hOW ARE YOUUU.
ablackwing replied to your post: …Oh god.I haven’t—I hav...
[ /SHRIEKS AND HTROWS SELF AT YOUR FACE- ]
ASLDKFJAWOEIFJALSDKFA [ATTEMPTS TO CATCH, FALLS OVER OMFG] OH MAN OWAIJEFAFAOSIDF I. I. Hi. I missed you. //cries forever
wingsofheartilly replied to your post: …Oh god. I haven’t— I haven’t been on this blog...
SCREECH I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU EVEN THO I SEE YOU ON OTHER DASH IDC HI I LOVE YOU AHHHH //TACKLE HUGS and i know the feelings. //pets pets Perhaps watch a playthrough? Or replay the game? :c
[SOBS ON] LFAKSJDFAW I LOVE YOU, TOO, RINTIN. and yes, shhh, accept all my silly nicknames. |: [HUGS TIGHTLY]
Idk. I mean, I guess I could try those things, but man, I think it's the memories more than anything. Trying to let go of a certain attachment, it's difficult. I've never had this problem with another character, so this is a new and depressing feeling. Heavy and burdensome. u.u; I tried continuing on and I was managing off and on for awhile, but it was hard.
Seeing as it's been so long, though, I don't know. Maybe I can... Give it another go. Nostalgia's hitting me right in the face right now, though, man. Oh god.
falsamilitis replied to your post: …Oh god.I haven’t—I hav...
SCREECHES I MISSED YOU HHHHHHH
hOLY SHIT HI. LKAJOWEIJFASLKDFJAWEF I MISSED YOU, TOO. HHHH.
...Oh god. I haven't-- I haven't been on this blog since April.
I feel all my insides knotting up with grief and guilt, yet man. It's been a rough time for this muse. I. Hhhh.
I.
I miss writing Cloud. But I wonder if I'll be able to keep up this muse? I don't know, and this really saddens me.
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