an open letter to got7: the group i hate the most
i have thought a lot before laying out my thoughts here and i guess, there is no other place to put what has been inside my mind for quite some time now. i am a person who is very passionate with music. i love it in a way that i put a lot of dedication to support the people behind it. i never knew why but maybe music has been really vital to me that every artist has a significant story and impact in my life.
i have been into a wide range of music but i never really took kpop seriously. i am a casual listener of what is really trendy -- and that includes my knowledge of got7's just right when it was released. never really got into them but i just knew that there are people named bambam, mark, and jackson wang from the group and i have always heard that they are a nice group -- well, i admit that since i find 'just right' really nice. i never really gave in to the kpop madness and i see everyone in kpop the same. at times, i would see the trends about them. i even saw got7's keep spinning tour trending but just shrugged them off.
comes this pandemic, i suddenly wondered how the "just right boys" are doing. few things came into mind: "so that was years ago? do they still look like those kids? do they have bigger bodies now?! are they still active? what happened to them after just right?!" it hit me so hard that i never really knew anything about them right after that.
funny enough, my love for just right took me on another level of being a curious and clueless person at the same time. the first thing i searched was: "got7 just right 2020" but there is no such thing... i still tried to find the latest and i found the clips from the concerts, which was kinda sad because it seems like at that time, "just right" is not really a regular song on the setlist. i was amazed -- for so many things, if i am being honest, but mainly because of their appearance. how they are the same person singing just right? they don't look like those people singing on the wall clock and cereal?!
at first, i was just curious how did their glow up happened (please i can't be making this up lol) i am just very nosey with that and later on, i was watching interviews already and memorizing their names. as someone not really into kpop, i did not know there were such things as variety shows -- which are highly addictive if it is got7 you are watching. in a positive way, they just happen to be a different group and breed of people. i have never been so immersed into a group ever since i had it last with one direction. after being a directioner, it was hard for me to stan groups due to the anxiety and fear of them breaking up. i couldn't take more heartbreaks.
good news: new group to stan YAY
bad news: they just came back a month before i decided to stan them and now i don't know how long i have to wait since there's no pretty much updates from them after their promotions
but i was not really bothered. i spent all the months of waiting getting to know them and they served as company and a breather to me as it was hard entering college. they would make me feel things mostly. got7 is never boring. it was just always fun, pure of laugh and happiness, and at times, there were tears too. during the times when i feel like i don't know what got7 content to watch anymore, i would try out other groups especially when they are actively promoting. and this is where my hate for got7 started.
i would try to watch variety shows of other groups, but i would be easily distracted. seems like my attention span is suddenly short. these shows aim to be entertaining enough but i would rather watch bambam's hours long of vlives. how is this fair?! i would ask myself sometimes what did got7 do to me?!??! personally, i am never a fan of radio shows. i would love to read some of what was talked about though. but when it comes to got7, i will find myself asking: how is it finished already?! whenever i watch got7, time is always fast. why is everything done so already?! people say, time flies so fast when you are at your happy state. i hate got7 for making me happy in a blink. i wish it would last more than just a blink -- a lifetime is not a bad idea, right?
it was hard being a new fan as well but i was thankful to even experience breath of love: last piece. i would joke around during those times that maybe it was called last piece because they really meant it as their last, the ending of a story. jokes on me, it happened to be true. 2021 started really rough for us. i have never been that sad and devastated. still, i never stopped trusting got7. time will come.
[at this point i cannot type because i am feeling emotional]
after that, it was so hard to keep up with the activities of the individual members and i was most likely updated with bambam. but i would watch out the music releases, acting projects, and the like, of the members whenever i see and hear of them. it's great to see the growth of each members while they are also supporting each other in their own artistry. i am proud.
2022 came and my life has been changed forever. i know got7 would hold on to their words but the feeling of seeing it all come together just feels surreal. it is hard to put trust on people that do not even know me. many groups out there would go in their own ways and up until now, they have not even came back yet. it might be a simple thing for others, but for me to see, feel, and experience got7 fulfilling their own words is something so magical to me. i have been into different groups in between, but no matter how many times i invest on each of them, i hate to admit the reality that no one is like got7.
i hate got7 because they are the only group ever.
got7 is a home, a safe space, a breath of love.
there are so many things to thank each member for. but i would love to mention jaebeom's hard work for the group. sure, each of them had their own fair share but something about jb's leadership is just something so fascinating for me. right from the start, he never ever held back and has always been standing in front of got7 and ahgases, fighting for what we all truly deserve. you are one of a kind, jaebeom.
and to each of the members who have endured so far just like us, i admire you all. we all have a different kind of relationship and an incomparable patience towards each other. it is something i will always find amazing and aspire to have in my relationships. always.
one thing is for sure: i will never die without even seeing you in person. i will make sure of that. thank you for being a reason to look forward what tomorrow may give me. you make life bearable.
2087
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annaxmalina
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