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âď¸ mean!ellie williams x fem!reader âď¸ themes: grumpy x sunshine trope, reader chasing after ellie âď¸ summary: in which jackson's sweetest girl crushes on the town's grumpy asshole. âď¸ a/n: loosely inspired by the cartoon 'puca puca' lmao, hope yall luv this one ⥠âď¸ word count: 6,883
spring was coming in swiftly, and you couldnât be more excited. the snow was beginning to melt, and the town was experiencing small spouts of rain, kickstarting the bloom of some of the most beautiful flowers in the surrounding forest.Â
it finally gave you a reason to take out your spring-wear and put your thick and heavy winter coats away in the back of your closet. fashion and clothing was a hobby you found yourself engrossed in, taking the time to carefully curate bright outfits and sew together your own unique pieces, utilizing whatever scraps of fabric you could get your hands on. it certainly took your mind off the reality of what went on behind these walls, a responsibility you could never imagine partaking in. everyone in town held those who went on patrol on high pedestals, thanking them for their brave service of facing those monstrosities and protecting us every day.Â
thankfully, maria assigned you the responsibility of the townâs animal caretaker. tenderly providing the animals with food, care, and love. it was a job you absolutely dreamed of, always having a deep fondness for animals, even since you were a small child.Â
âoh, jeez, minnie, i think youâre about ready to almost pop,â you mutter, feeding straws of hay to minnie, the beautiful, big, brown cow. she was one of two cows you had on the farm and was currently pregnant, ready to give birth to a cute, little calf.Â
minnie doesnât say anything, and chews on the grain instead. but you like to think that minnie understands your shared conversations, and often expresses her opinions in little âmoosâ. it was either that, or you were actually going insane.
âi think weâll name your babyâŚ.buttercup,â you suggest, rubbing minnieâs ears, âdoesnât that sound lovely, minnie?â and she lets out a little snort, inciting a small smile from you.
checking your wristwatch, your eyes widen. âoops, almost time for patrol. iâll be back later, sweet lady,â you say as you give minnieâs nose a gentle rub. getting up on your feet, you go to the sink and wash your hands, drying them and using another rag to wipe off any dirt or debris from your light blue overalls.Â
this was your usual routine. waking up bright and early, heading to the barn to feed the animals, and making sure they have enough water and are groomed. then, you head over to the stables and help the other stableboys get the horses ready for patrol. yeah, the horses were absolute cuties, but a huge part of the reason you volunteered to go to the stables was so you could see ellie williams before patrol.Â
ellie williams was a dream. a dream youâve been wishing for since you were 13 years old. you were enamored with how fearless she was. she was famous in town for her journey with joel, and what the duo survived out in the open world â causing everyone to heavily praise the two, and think of them in high regard. but you could see there was more to her than meets the eye. yeah, sure, she was a little rough around the edges, but who wasnât after seeing what she experienced? ellie was usually quiet, and reserved, mostly keeping to herself and her close friends and family.Â
the younger folks in jackson think ellie was an ass and a big oleâ grouch. always having a grimace gracing her face or a âresting bitch faceâ thatâd intimidate even the most dangerous of bloaters. but those accusations never startled you.
over the years youâve tried to get closer to ellie, going out of your way to give her gifts and cooking foods you know she likes. it was your way of helping ellie feel better and relax after a stressful day of patrol, and it was the least you could do. sometimes ellie would get a teensy bit annoyed with you, and would occasionally tell you to tone it down, but you just blamed it on her exhaustion due to patrol.
as you brushed shimmerâs mane, you picked up some babyâs breath that bloomed in your mother's garden and began to tuck it into the creases of the braid you were creating.
âdo you feel beautiful, shim?â you ask her, ââcause you look beautiful.â you giggle, rubbing her nose.
putting down the small pail you used to hold the flowers in, your eyes shift to the exit, raking them over the brunette a few feet away from you. your heart flips in your chest, and you let out a small sigh, fawning over her â ellie williams.Â
everything moved in a slow, fluid motion as she turned and headed in your direction. it was like a spotlight was shining right at her, following her every movement. you could only imagine how itâd be to have the privilege of being ellieâs girlfriend, to hold her hand, to kiss her goodbye, to nuzzle into her body during those cold winters. it was a fantasy only your diary had the pleasure of holding.Â
there was only one girl in this entire town who held the reputation of being ellieâs girlfriend, well, ex-girlfriend. it was dina woodward. they dated for a brief six months, before splitting up and continuing a civil friendship. you werenât sure what the real reason was for their breakup, but rumors say they ended things because ellie was a terrible partner, never doing anything âromanticâ for her or showing any real affection towards her. others say they only got together because they were fooling around when they were out during patrol, and when word of it got out, they thought theyâd might as well be together to save face.
but rumors were just rumors and you were never the type of person to believe such things unless they came from the actual source.
your body reacted before your mind could, and before you knew it, you were jogging over towards ellie, throwing your arms around her neck, âgood morning, ellie!!â
ellie rolled her eyes, annoyed by the sudden physical contact and loud voice booming so early in the morning. she took hold of your hips, attempting to pry you off her, âalright, alright, thatâs enough.â
pulling away and facing her, you smile sheepishly, âsorry, sorryâ forgot you hated it when i got a little loud, especially before patrol.â
she huffed, crossing her arms in frustration. ellie knew you as the girl who had this puppy-sick crush on her the moment she arrived at jackson. as young tweens, you chased her around the school grounds, craving any bit of her attention and bothering her whenever the moment arose, like taking every open opportunity to be her partner during class or science experiments. you were the gum on the bottom of her boot, stuck and stubborn, never budging.Â
but as the years progressed, sheâs learned to tolerate you, thinking youâd eventually get tired of her somehow. giving up after the unreciprocated feelings and chasing after another unlucky fool.
âwhat happened to shimmerâs mane?â ellie questioned, poking at the flowers adorning the horseâs hair.Â
âi braided some flowers in it,â you smile proudly, âsheâs cute, huh?â
she nodded mindlessly, and leaned into shimmerâs ear, âiâll take those off when we get outta here.âÂ
you made sure to grab the paper bag and held it out to ellie, âi made you lunch again. i left a little note in there, so make sure you read it, mâkay?â you smiled, nodding towards the bagged lunch.Â
ellie apprehensively took the bag from your hands, and gave you a curt nod, âyea,â she murmured, âthanks.â
shoving the bag in her backpack, she took ahold of shimmerâs leads, guiding her out of the stables. but you gently touched her arm, âum, ellie.â
she turns slightly, âhm?â
âbe safe out there, okay? iâll be here, waiting for you,â you bite your lip, âand if something happens to you, iâllâ uhâ come lookinâ for ya! and iâll beat those uglies up!â
you smile widely, feeling a bit embarrassed by your word choice, but she got your message. with an awkward smile, she mutters âthanks.â
before she turns again, you move quickly and wrap your arms around her again, giving her a tight squeeze before pecking her on the cheek. a warm, rush of crimson fanned across her cheeks, turning her a bright, cherry red.Â
âokay, okay! thatâs enough,â ellie groans.
âsorry, sorry,â you pull off and quickly smooth out her clothes, but she just turns away and walks off with shimmer at full tilt.Â
as ellie approaches beside jesse, he does a double-take and gawks at her, his curious eyes scanning the face of the girl next to him.
âwow, dude, you look like a tomato-â ellie cut him off.
âshut the fuck up, jess. just shut up.â
as much as you aggravated ellie, sheâd be a liar if she didnât admit to herself that you made her feel something. something she desperately wanted to despise.Â
and if there was one thing that was true about her, it was that ellie williams was no liar.Â
-Â
after arriving at one of the checkpoints along the route, jesse and ellie tied their horses and settled at the abandoned fire lookout tower, taking a much-needed break.
ellie picked off the white florets from shimmerâs hair, letting the small flowers fall to the ground.Â
âgod, she put so many in here,â ellie muttered, irritated by how many little flowers tangled in the horseâs mane. jesse peered over at her, amusedly watching her peel off the petals and toss them over her shoulder.Â
âshe âdo that?â jesse questioned, referring to you as he rummaged through the saddle bag of his horse.
ellie sighed, âyea.âÂ
âshe did a pretty good job,â jesse smiled, âsheâs nice for doinâ that.â
she huffed, rolling her eyes for the hundredth time today, âwhatever,â she mutters, âshimmer is a brave and strong woman. this shit just makes her lookâ like a joke.â
the raven-haired boy shook his head in disagreement, âi just think you try to make yourself hate whatever she does.âÂ
ellie stopped to glare at him, ânot true.âÂ
she didnât care what you did. she just didnât want you to involve your perky, bubbly nonsense in her business. ellie thought of you as the complete opposite of her, and being opposites, she couldnât manage to be around you. you were sunshine, rainbows, puppies, bubbles, and an optimist. ellie was the moon, darkness, crows, horror movies, and a pessimist. two different things. two things that didnât mix.Â
âlies. you try to find every little thing wrong with her, but you canât admit the truth. sheâs the sweetest.â ellie tried her best to ignore the words coming from jesseâs mouth, but she couldnât. it frustrated her how much he thought you affected her. it was simply false.Â
sure, ellie tries to shake off the feeling of pride she gets when you look up at her with adoring eyes and call her âbraveâ after a day out on patrol, and yeah, she tries to brush away the heat that rises to her face when she sees your face light up every morning when you first see her, but thatâs because it doesnât mean anything. the way ellie blushed rose red after you kissed her cheek this morning meant absolutely nothing.Â
âsheâs the nicest girl in town,â jesse goes on as the pair take a seat on the wooden steps of the tower, âand youâre being an asshole.â
âyeah, whatever. letâs eat.â ellie attempts to shift the conversation, feeling uneased about all this discussion of you. jesse shrugged, opening his pack and taking out a wrapped-up pack of bison jerky and an apple and took a crispy, juicy bite from the fruit.
ellie took out the paper bag, taking a minute to stare at the âfor ellie :)â written in black marker. unfolding the bag, she takes out a tupperware and opens the lid revealing a roasted turkey sandwich on a homemade french roll, freshly made potato chips, a small salad, and a little fruit tart on the side. she takes the small paper in her hand, reading the note you wrote for her:
let me know how you like the food! everything was made this morning and packed with love. be safe and have a great day ellie!
p.s you look pretty today :)Â
xoxoxo
ellie suppressed the tiny flutters of butterflies floating in her stomach, blaming it on her evergrowing hunger, and crumpled the note, tossing it back in the paper bag.Â
âwoah, whereâd you get that?â jesse said with a mouth full of jerky, âcouldnât bother to get me one?â
she rolled her eyes, âshe always gives me lunch before patrol. you wanna share?âÂ
jesse shook his head at her offer, ânah, iâm good. donât think your little housewife would be happy to hear you didnât finish your food, maâam,â jesse teased, letting out a chuckle.Â
dragging out a groan, ellie closed her eyes before opening them again, âsheâs not myâ oh, fuck off.â
she chucked a chip at him, the crispy snack hitting him on the shoulder as he laughed again.Â
there were a lot of things ellieâs didnât like about you, but she had to admit, you were a damn good cook.Â
-
the sunshine was something youâve grown to appreciate during your time in jackson. as the winters can drag out for months, you took every opportunity to bask in the sun outside when the weather deemed it possible to do so. during the hotter months in town, you loved getting dressed in flowy dresses and letting the sun kiss your skin tan. it was a treat you and the rest of the people in town enjoyed, especially when everyone took their loved ones to the lake nearby and waded in the cool, fresh water.
after ellie left for patrol in the morning, the weather decided to look up and the sun beamed brighter in the clear, blue skies today, giving you the perfect chance to change out of your overalls and into a cute blouse with puffy sleeves and a pair of blue denim jean shorts.Â
sitting on a bench perched outside the fence of the cowâs pen, you let yourself relax, soaking up the warmth radiating from the sunshine and occasionally taking sips from the ice, cold lemonade mrs. meyers made for the workers.Â
your ears perked up at the bustling clanks of the main gates opening. sitting up and shielding your eyes from the sun, you take a look and see that ellie and jesse are back from patrol. jumping up in excitement, you set your drink down and sprint over to the stables, excited to see ellie again.
âellie!â you yell out as she hops off her horse. with wide eyes, she hurriedly hides behind jesse, taking advantage of his taller height and wider build.
âcover for me.â ellie mutters to jesse.Â
winded and breathing heavily from the run, you clutch your abdomen and catch your breath, âwhereâd ellie go? i just saw her.âÂ
jesse smirks, and ellie looks up at him. donât you dare. donât you dare. donât you fucking dare.Â
he steps aside, revealing ellie, hunched forward in a pathetic attempt to hide from you.Â
âsheâs right here.â jesse smiles, and walks away, staring at ellie as he leaves the both of you alone.Â
ellie throws a quick glare his away, before standing up straight and clearing her throat, âheyâ uhâ i was just fixing myâ uh..jacket.â
it was a wretched sight to see. ellieâs lame excuse for avoiding you. if it were anyone else, sheâd have no problem telling them to âfuck offâ and to leave her alone. but with you, she didnât have the guts to tell you she was avoiding you. why? she didnât know. maybe she didnât want to see your feelings hurt.Â
but you were oblivious to this. it was a regular occurrence for you to miss things and let them go right over your head, but it was because you saw the good in everyone, even ellie.Â
âhow was patrol? see anything interesting?â you pondered to ellie, walking alongside her as she begin her trek back to her house.Â
ânah, just the same old shit,â ellie speeds up her pace, and you struggle to keep up with her long legs, nearly stumbling over your own.
âso, uh, ellie,â you stammered, âi wanted to ask if you were doing anything tonight?âÂ
this was your corny way of asking her on a date, something youâve been wanting to do for ages.Â
âuh, yeahââ ellie scratched the back of her neck, âiâm real busy tonight.â
false. ellieâs evening consisted of smoking a joint and immersing herself in volume 14 of her favorite comic book. but she already knew, there was no telling whatâd happen if she were to be alone with you.Â
ellie strictly kept her distance from you and always made sure there were other people around you two while talking. it was her way of being in control. she was terrified of what would happen if her feelings were to rise to the surface and reign sovereignty over her.Â
âoh okay,â you thought for a moment, âhow about tomorrow night?â
âuhh, not available tomorrow either. sorry.â ellie avoided your gaze, instead letting her eyes fall to the ground, but to her inconvenience, her eyes gravitated to the sight of your bare legs underneath those shorts, only imagining what sheâd do if she could feel the smooth skin under her fingertips.Â
ellie pushed her thoughts to the side. this is what she didnât want. she couldnât let herself think these vile thoughts. she couldnât let her guard down. she couldnât allow herself to trust and be vulnerable. ellie had to control herself, doing whatever means necessary to keep you far, far away.
âhmph, okay. itâs fine,â you frown for a moment before forcing a smile on your face, âmaybe another time.âÂ
âmhm, sure.âÂ
as you turn away and head in a different direction, ellie let her eyes watch you walk away, ignoring the tight squeeze in her heart that occurs every time you leave. she knew whatever she did, her feelings for you only grew, scaring her more than any clicker could.Â
that evening, you prepared the farm animal's last meal for tonight and filled up their water basins. but you couldnât focus, your mind distracted by that certain green-eyed girl. it was almost wearisome having these many feelings for one person, your mind consumed by her very existence, to the point where you couldnât even focus on work.Â
startling yourself, you feel the pointy straws of hay poking your legs as you overfilled minnieâs feeder.Â
âugh, minnie,â you groan, â what the heck am i gonna do with ellie?âÂ
you grabbed the broom, and began sweeping the stray hay that fell onto the floor, letting yourself vent to the cow.Â
âi know, i know, everyone might think sheâs a big oleâ grump,â you begin, âbut i donât see her that way. sheâs so brave and sheâs so smart! i see her reading her astronomy books all the time.â
you smile at yourself, the image of ellie sitting on the brown wicker chair on the porch pops in your brain. âwhen it gets late at night, i see her doodling the stars and planets,â you fawn, âshh, donât tell her i told you that.âÂ
you sigh, leaning your cheek against the top of the broomâs handle, âsheâs just soâ amazing. a real special person. she deserves everything in the world for all she does.âÂ
as silence fills the barn, you gasp, minnieâs eyes widening in surprise. âmaybe iâll do something big for her. to show her how much she means to me.âÂ
you lean the broom against the wall, âthank you, minnie. for always listening to me.â you rub her head before you scurry out of the barn, heading home to lay out your plans. leaving minnie to chew on the straws of grain.Â
-Â
february 14th
âfucking shit!â ellie yelled, throwing her backpack off her back, creating a loud thud as it landed on the floor of the weaponâs armory shed. todayâs patrol was particularly grueling today as she and jesse were confronted with two bloaters and four raiders. after a gruesome fistfight with the raiders, all the men did was loot their weapons and supplies and left them alive with their horses. they were considered extremely lucky, as in most cases, the raiders wouldâve left them dead.Â
âcâmon, we did good out there,â jesse remarked attempting to lighten the mood, but he shouldâve known there was no worth in trying to cheer up an already pissed-off ellie.Â
âyea, talking as if we didnât almost fucking died today,â ellie snapped, âtwo separate times.â
âyou know what you need?â
âwhat?â
âto blow off some steam. get cleaned up and head over to the bar,â jesse smirked at her, but she rolled her eyes, not wanting to do anymore socializing after the dreadful day she had.Â
ânot today, jess. i jusâ wanna go home, get this shit off me, and sleep for ten hours.â
âcâmon, you buzzkill. itâs valentines day after all,â he sighed, âyou gonna spend it cooped up alone in your room?â
âyup.â
âplease, ellie. just come with me. letâs celebrate our win today.âÂ
ellie thought for a moment, and knowing jesse would never take no for an answer for things like these, she reluctantly agreed, âfine.â
-Â
unlike ellie, you were beaming, reeling in the ecstatic mood your favorite holiday has brought. valentineâs day was a day for love and celebration in the town of jackson. the local kids would decorate the buildings with red and pink heart streamers and maria always hosted a lovely get-together filled with delicious food, good music, and slow dances.
your heart skipped a beat at the thought of slow dancing with ellie â her hands on your waist, your arms slung around her neck, your bodies swaying ever so slowly along the rhythm of the song.
your hands fixed the pink ribbon in the back of your hair and adjusted some strands of hair to frame your face. you swiped some oil across your lips to give them a sheen gloss and adjusted the long sleeves of your red dress. you felt pretty.Â
scrambling towards the kitchen, you flip open the white box, doubling checking the cake and making sure it didnât need any last-minute toppings. satisfied with your baked creation, you closed the box and secured it in your hands, preparing to head out the door and make your way toward the tipsy bison.
during the walk there, you quietly rehearsed the speech you had prepared in your head. you were a bundle of nerves as you anxiously ran through the words over and over again, hoping by the time you made it to the bar, you got it down and wouldnât make yourself look like a complete fool in front of ellie and her friends.
one of your hands pushed against the doors of the bar, the bell tinkling as you entered the establishment. you greeted a few familiar faces and smiled at barry, the regular bartender. but your mind was set on finding ellie, nothing less, so your eyes scanned the area and settled on a certain brunette who was sitting at a booth, amongst her chattering friends as she sipped on a glass of bourbon.Â
you couldnât help the smile that curled on your lips, âellie!â
the brunette snapped her head at the sound of her name, but she let out a despondent groan after realizing it was you. she wasnât in the mood nor did she have the patience to deal with you tonight, but nothing could stop you from heading in her direction.Â
âah, shit. sheâs coming.â ellie takes a long swig of her drink, hoping the alcohol would make this entire ordeal more tolerable.
âbe nice, ellie.â dina snapped as you approached their table.Â
you smiled at everyone â jesse, dina, kelly, evan, ellie â and greeted them with a âhappy valentines day everyone!â
everyone smiled and held up their drinks in acknowledgment as your eyes flickered on the girl in front of you. âcan i talk to you, ellie? alone?â
a mixture of excitement and nerves flooded your body as you were getting ready to execute your plan.
ellie, however, was growing more worried and worried by each passing second. your little red dress was the first thing that caught her eye. the way that it hugged your figure and sat right above your knees to reveal the bare flesh of your legs made her want to protect you from the staring eyes of all the men in here and beat them into a pulp for thinking whatever perverted thoughts that clouded their head. the second thing that got her attention was the shine of your lips and how it managed to make them look pouty and tempting to kiss, an urge ellie had fought so hard to restrain.Â
she cleared her throat, and laid back nonchalantly, trying to exude this false sense of confidence, âyou can say it here.â
you swallowed thickly, âhere? i-in front of everyone?â
âyup.â
looking around nervously, you hesitantly agreed as her friends had their eyes on you, completely immersed in your interaction.Â
âalright, i guess iâll justâ come out with it.â
you took a deep breath to soothe your nerves. âellie, weâve known each other for years now, and in that time, iâveâ uhâ grown to really, really like you. i think youâre so pretty and one of the bravest people in townâ andâ and youâre so intelligent, the way you know so much about space and stuff.â
if someone were to put a tomato next to ellieâs face, the resemblance would be uncanny.Â
âwhat iâm trying to say isâ is that i really hope you could give me a chanceâ give us a chanceâ and let me take you out on a date and show you how happy i can make you,â your voice shook, âi swear, ellie. iâd make you the happiest girl in the world.â
you opened the box to reveal a heart-shaped cake covered in pink frosting with the words âbe mineâ in red buttercream and held it out to her.Â
ellie was aghast, and she didnât know what to say. her mind was going a mile a minute, and numerous emotions were shooting through her body. ellie felt so special and loved, a feeling she rarely ever experienced. she was frozen, yet the next words that would utter in her mouth would leave her regretting ever coming to the bar.
âiâm sorry. iâ i donât think i can do this.â
your brows furrowed, âwh-what do you mean?
âyou. youâre too much. youâre always hovering, always around, always calling out my name when you see me. you follow me around and iâm sick of it,â ellie couldnât stop the words from leaving her mouth, âplease, justâ leave me alone.â
the moment the words fell from her lips, she immediately felt regret. guilt washed over her the minute she saw your face fall and eyes fill up with tears. fuck. she didnât know what made her lash out at you like thatâ perhaps it was the alcohol or the fucked up day this was, but she knew there was no excuse to say any of those things to you.
your lips wobbled, and a tear rolled down your cheek, âellie williams,â you squeaked, âi never wanna see you again.âÂ
you dropped the boxed cake onto the wooden floor, the frosting flinging everywhere, and ran out of the bar. ellie wanted to run after you so badly, to take you in her arms and kiss your tears away, but she couldnât. she was a coward.Â
âcongratulations, you just got 1st place for being the biggest, fucking asshole.â jesse snapped, but ellie didnât bother responding, knowing what he said was true.
-Â
ellie didnât see you for a week after valentines day, and that transition from hearing your voice call her name every morning, feeling your arms wrap around her neck to hug her before she leaves, and enjoying your home-cooked meals to nothing at all was like night and day. it was quiet and silent, and all the color that filled her days was suddenly drained to a mere gray without you.Â
ellie thought that maybe you were just purposely avoiding her, so she started showing up early at the stables before she left for patrol, but you were never there. then, she started walking around the barns, to see if you were occupying your time by tending to the animals, but no, you werenât there either.Â
unbeknownst to ellie, you spent the entire week at home, sulking in your pajamas and shoveling your favorite junk foods in your mouth while watching your favorite 90âs romantic comedy as an effort to mend your broken heart. you couldnât bear the embarrassment of leaving the four walls of your home after being humiliated by ellie.Â
after spending your days cooped up at home, you finally felt ready to come back to work at the barn. it was currently early in the morning, and you just opened the gates to the fence, letting minnie, the chickens, and a couple of the sheep graze on the grass.
as ellie walked towards the stables for patrol, she caught a glimpse of you from her peripheral vision and nearly broke her neck doing a double take. she knew it was you because you were the only one in this town who owned a pair of bright, yellow overalls.Â
there you were, leaning against the wooden fence watching the animals as the sun sat on the edge of the horizon, painting hues of violet and saffron across the sky. ellie appeared next to you, leaning her arms against the wood surface.Â
âuh, hey.â
you ignored her.
âhowâre things?
silence.
âthe animals doinâ okay?â
quiet.
âare you just gonna keep ignoring me?â yes.Â
you sighed and turned to head back into the barns, not bothering to look at her.Â
âi guess i deserved that.â ellie mutters, watching you walk away. she knew needed to apologize to you and she knew just the way to do it.Â
-Â
the day after ellieâs failed plan of getting you to talk to her, she conjured up a way to apologize to you.
as ellie was coming back from patrol, she carefully held the bouquet of vibrant, golden sunflowers in her hands. she remembered to bring her switchblade to cut them off of their long stems and tie them together into a beautiful bunch.
she knew how much you loved sunflowers, and remembered how you always used to beg her to take you outside of the gates so you could go collect some so you can plant your own.Â
with a little pep in her step, ellie was confident that you would love the gift she got for you and youâd surely talk to her again in no time. everything would go back to how it was before.Â
ellie approached the entrance of the barn, seeing you tend to minnie and rubbing the side of her belly. a ghost of a smile made its way onto her lips, and she walked towards you, tapping you on the shoulder.Â
your head snapped around and looked at her, a neutral expression on your face. no more bright smile.
ellie coughed nervously, and she handed the bouquet of sunflowers to you, âhere, these are for you,â you took them from her hands, âtheyâre pretty, just like you.â
you cautiously looked down at the posy of marigold sunflowers.Â
she fucking loves them. i could tell already, ellie thought to herself. she had to suppress the proud smirk that was about to appear on her face.Â
but you did something even ellie couldnât predict.Â
you picked one flower from the bunch, and you began feeding it to minnie. minnie took the floret in her mouth, and smacked on it contentedly, clearly enjoying her mid-afternoon snack.
as minnie chomped on the rest of the bouquet, you turned your heel and left ellie alone to her thoughts.Â
âgod, iâm so dumb,â ellie groans, and she peers at the small brown mammal, âat least someone likes them,â she comments as minnie looks at her with big, brown eyes.
-Â
the next morning, ellie came to the stables early, hoping youâd be there, and to her surprise, you were.
ellie had came up with a new game plan to apologize to you. her first mistake with the bouquet was that she was trying to âwooâ you with gifts, but maybe what you needed was for her to just be honest with you and to open up. that was what ellie spent the rest of her night doing, writing a deep letter about her feelings for you and how sorry she is for telling you all those horrible things.Â
as usual, you were with shimmer, brushing her coat and making sure she was groomed. from the corner of your eye, you could see ellie coming towards you, and you braced yourself.
she stopped in front of you and handed you a red envelope with your name on it. taking it from her hands, she smiles at you and takes shimmerâs leads from you, gently guiding her away.Â
ellie took the time to put on shimmerâs saddle and to pack her bag with some extra treats for her during patrol, but she couldnât help but think of your reaction to her letter. she imagined the smile that graced your face as you opened the letter and saw the little stickers adorning the border of the paper and reading over the black ink.Â
but ellie was wrong. very, very wrong.Â
as ellie turned her head to sneak a peek at you, she was startled to see you already looking straight at her. maintaining eye contact, you ripped up the letter and tossed it in the pile of horseshit. you brushed off your hands and walked away, feeling accomplished by your petty deed.
ellie turned to shimmer, âi guess i shouldâve seen that one coming.â
-Â
after a couple of days contemplating what to do with you, ellie decided enough was enough and that she was going to confront you, no matter what.Â
the sun had already set, and the moon had overshadowed the dark, night sky. ellie climbed up the stairs of your house, and pressed three loud knocks against your door, adjusting the straps of the guitar gig bag on her shoulders.Â
at first, she thought you werenât going to answer the door, but after a momentary silence followed by a couple of sounds of shuffling, the door swung open.Â
ellie assumed you were about to go to bed, as evidenced by your oversized sweatshirt and pajama pants hugging your hips.Â
âhi,â you greeted, the sound of your voice surprising ellie after not having heard it for a while.
âhey,â ellie replied, âcan i come in?â
you move aside, giving her room to step inside your home.
âwhere are your parents?â ellie queries, knowing theyâd usually be home around this time.
âupstairs, asleep,â you nudged your head towards the hallway, âweâll talk in my room.â
ellie follows behind you as you lead the way to your bedroom, opening the door and plopping down on your bed. she closes your bedroom door and slowly walks around, almost as if sheâs scared to make any sudden movements.
she finally sits on your desk chair in front of you, taking off her guitar bag and setting it down on the floor next to her.
you werenât sure what compelled you to finally talk to ellie and let her in your home, but you couldnât shake off the feeling of unease and anxiety. there was no telling what she was really here for.
âi came here because i wanted to apologize,â ellie murmured, âiâve been trying to apologize for a couple of days now and iâm gonna keep on trying because what i did was really, really shitty.â
you were silent for a brief moment, â...yeah. it was shitty.â
ellie sighed, âiâll apologize a million times if you want me to.â
âellieâ you donât get it. you humiliated me in front of the whole town,â your voice cracked, âi donât think i could forgive you that easily.â
her heart squeezed in your chest seeing the tears well up in your eyes and hearing the little sniffles coming from your nose. it was her fault you were hurt. she did this.
ellie got up and sat on your bed next to you, letting her feelings overcome her and allowing herself to wrap her arms around your frame, holding you close as you cried into her hoodie.
you pulled away from her chest, looking up at her with glossy eyes, âi was nothing but nice to you, els. you couldâve told me something if i was bothering you,â you wiped a tear, âi wouldâve left you alone.â
ellie sighed and brushed your hair out of your face, her entire demeanor softening as she was consumed by your presence, âi didnât want you to leave me alone.â
âhuh?â you gave her a confused look.
âlook, iâm not really good at showing my feelings. whenever i try to express how i feel or whatever, it goes sideways and i end up fucking up,â ellie explained, âi really do like you, a whole shit ton. i love everything you do for me and i love how youâre always there and how you wear these crazy bright colors and how you talk to the animals in that one baby voice.â
heat rose to your cheeks and it was impossible to hide the blush that spread across your nose.
âi want to be with you,â she confessed, âi just get terrified of being vulnerable and opening up. love makes you do crazy shit and i donât knowâ i hate not being in control.â
you were silent, thinking carefully of what to say next. ellie was internally begging for you to say something, anything.
âlove means taking risks and being out of your comfort zone, els,â you whispered quietly, âtake the leap.â
ellie soaked in your words. take the leap. take the leap. take. the. leap.Â
her hand cupped your cheek and she leaned in, pressing her lips against yours, tasting the salt of your tears. ellieâs lips moved gently against yours, not wanting to show any urgency toward you.
she felt your hand creep up to the side of her neck, rubbing against her soft skin as you deepen the kiss.Â
ellie pulls away, leaning her forehead against yours, âiâm sorry, baby. please, i canât bear being without you,â she whispers, âiâm so, so sorry. iâll never be an asshole to you again.âÂ
âiâll forgive you this one time, williams,â you murmur, âbut donât take my kindness for weakness.â
ellie pulled away, taking her acoustic guitar out of her bag and placing it in her lap.
âhere, let me sing you a song i know youâll love.â
ellieâs fingers strummed the strings, playing a chord.
iâve never known someone like you
tangled in love, stuck by you
from the glue
her voice sang the lyrics to your favorite song, eliciting that beaming smile sheâd missed so badly.
donât forget to kiss meÂ
or else youâll have to miss me
i guess iâm stuck forever by the glue
a tear rolled down your cheek, as you were overwhelmed with joy at the site of her singing. something not too many had the privilege of experiencing.Â
finding the right words to use for this song
i have you in mind
so it wonât take so long
never thought iâd find you
but youâre here and so i love you
as the lyrics left ellieâs lips, she knew sheâd chosen the right song to sing for you. as this song described everything you both have gone through, being attached to each other like glue.
iâm not wrong when i say iâve been stuck
by the glue onto you
iâve been stuck by glue
right onto you
iâve been stuck by glue
the song came to an end, and ellie placed the guitar down, feeling unnerved from you watching her sing for the first time. you sniffle and smiled, throwing your arms around her and hugging her tightly.
âi loved it! you were amazing, els!â you quipped, inciting a small laugh from ellie.
âglad you liked it, babe.â
you pull away slightly to face her, âgosh, how i missed you,â you exasperate, âit was torture having to ignore you for days.â
ellie lets out a laugh, âoh yeah? if anything, i think out of the both of us, youâre the meaner one.â
you smile and shrug your shoulders, âwhat can i say, williams? you bring out that side to me.â
ellie smiles and pecks your cheek, âand you bring out the softer side to me, baby,â she points out, âisnât it ironic? weâre total opposites yet we bring these sides out of each other.âÂ
âyeah, it is a bit funny,â you giggle, âbut i wouldnât have it any other way.â
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