Eddy

Where most great things come to be. I give the full coverage on what's been missing from other media sites. Apart from needing to know that my name is Joseph. I'm a nowhere man with a desire to show things that others who've come to the conclusion that...

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I hope i didn't come off like a dick today at one of my jobs I have to just write this out cause im still a bit offended but my little offended ass should just stfu and let it go. I know I will sound mad but I like to explain to be why I'm being the way I am at times. Gives me clarity maybe. Anyways I had tried to take the invitative in trying to be a good employee and I think it came off bad somehow. Like a bad bad not even a good..bad?? Haha I hope it makes sense. I felt so fucking bad having a bro stretch his neck out for me so I did the same and it came off as me ruining the image of the company and making myself look bad and even worse the situation was a technical error there wasn't even anything wrong haha fuck me right?

I'm a good person I try not to start drama either so I tried to settle the next issue which seemed to be they thought I didn't understand something as simple as dont ever do this specific thing again. Ugh ill add more later

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Lol stfu I'm special enough for myself.

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Lololol if you didn't know!!

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Welcome

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I get paid to make maps of the ocean.  This post is going to haunt me like that “mothers and fuckers of the jury” post haunts that trial attorney

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Miss these days

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If you think you need to take it slow your whole life and take in the moments and blah blah I hate to break it to you but it can't be an easier life (in america) if you hustle and take advantage that our economy is the stronghold of the world and you thinking hustling culture is lame is a bit sad because hustler culture is mainly founded on the principle that human beings have a goal or a dream not to continue going up and up and up and up....work while you can bust your butt some night. Some night you gonna cry, you gonna feel lonely for a couple hours, you gona be broke a ton. If you want happiness first above all (I hope everyone does) you will struggle for it. This is part of the hustle and I tell you what Elon Musk is right if you want to be successful and your own boss at that you need to chew glass and stare into the abyss. Keep happiness close as you can the way through and I promise you love is the second step, patience is my third..learn to realize everyone has their moments. Someone you know very well will be doing amazing in life and if you can help it you can empower them one day you will have your time.

I want to work hard because I want my family to live on and the future is truly in our hands...we need to be responsible for some of it. If you can play it right the journey and destination will be amazing...it'll be hard...but it'll be ana amazing life 💯

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Being Alone Is okay.

As I go on to be more distant from people and hopefully...aspire soon to be closer  than the year before I want to express my thoughts on what it’s like being alone for almost five years. Yes I mean more of the alone where you actually go to work and talk to people and stores and whatever. I still talk to strangers. Its the familiar faces that I have grown to not recognize anymore. Vice versa. Heck most people don’t recognize me at first anymore even if its been two years. I change a lot. But lately the alone-ness I get is making me think of how bad it really was, and how amazing it really was too. Dont get me wrong im still pretty distant. I got over 40 numbers in my messages right now without a name assigned and its a bit much for me I have to say. Gives you that wake up call that maybe you’ve been a bit too distant. There’s nothing wrong with it though....so why change...why not improve it?

Well to answer that we have to find out why it would be bad to improve on becoming distant. Or in my case improve for the third time. I have been getting better at it and honestly it comes with bad characteristics I didnt have before like impulsiveness and short tempered and quickly distracted from anything social.

See the reason it’s not a bad thing is because when you are alone or at least like being alone versus being around........fakes.....lets go with that for the sake of conversation....the fakes....you get a real sense at finding more of them, and finding more of the professionals. It’s not hard to fake, I can do it very well in fact. But the fake level is at peak level for some and there is good fake and bad fake for me. But when you alone you dont get that ovbiously, you get your thoughts and while that may be even worse over periods of solitude itll weigh out the longer term effects of any heartbreak...see when you alone you dont need validation from others on your thoughts, if you pure at heart still from, there is a chance you damn near could become a saint. While I am not one and I admit to my faults like stealing.....i dont want to be bad and never want to lie....i never want to be a burden on someone who gave me their trust. I dont want someone to think if i broke the trust it was with malliuois intentions. I love my brothers and sisters of this planet and I only want us to be closer and more connected. Heck i want to be social, but it wont help doing it the way everyone is doing it. Not for me. For me, I orgniaze my thoughts, store the energy i need to survive socially for over two hours in a public event and meet epople and be social that way. I love being alone. but its getting to that point ladies and gents where I will be changing it...improving it...for lack of words and for the good of showing others that improiving being alone....doesnt mean being more alone....

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Executives at Ecuador's state oil companies resign ahead of merger

The chief executives of Ecuador's two state-owned oil companies resigned over the weekend ahead of a planned merger of the two firms, the country's energy ministry said in a statement on Monday.

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I research for purposes

While i dont disclose everything on here I do want to make one thing clear. I didnt give up on journalism. I moved on to observing and implementation. I want people to know more about the world in my community. Know that there is power outside of the voice facebook or twitter or even ehre would allow. you are not alone. we are here.

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Pick Up

So I’ve been thinking about buying a pick up trunk something cheap nothing too expensive. Maybe even talk to dad about paying for the one he got in mexico cause I like that one. but mainly a pleasure slash for future investment as of right now. I don't want to do anything fancy to it I just want to be able to maintain it and use it with my friends for things as I’m sure its extremely beneficial to have one friend with a truck that can use it as an extra whenever. I’m a bit too giving aren't I? I barely get to do favors for my friends and they never want to listen to me anymore talk about getting better with our future and investing into brighter future. I think you should never let go of your friends even if they are going through things I don't know about. I really hope i meet new people along the way though like i usually do.

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september 25th 8:06pm

Oh man do i got a story for you today. just kidding my idiot self didnt sleep till 4am this time and didnt get out of bed till 3pm what a wonderful waste of time I totally dont regret... hhaha it was actually pretty nice fell asleep to some new anime. Food Wars is a new favorite for comedy I would recommend to anyone who has seen basically everything on Netflix except the Cuties bs.

Today I did the normal, took the dog out, got food, worked out a little, smoked a bit, and waited impatiently for my employer to give me the green light to go back to work. Man this really sucks its been about 14 days since the incident where they sent me home because they thougth i was exposed to the virus happened. I really am not happy but I really hope they find a medium on how they want to pay me as I would like to be paid of course for the sick days I had from the corona. It is by law they have to do that by the way so dont think they can fire you or anything like that if you were ordered to stay in quarantine. I played. A little mexican music today which I have been doing as a way to teach myself about my cultlure. See for me I never was cultured or interested in it when I was younger. I suppose as I got older that changed I find myself loving the old music that my grandparents or yours probably would have listened to. It’s a huge blessing to be in this generation where streaming services have the power of showing us such different music genres all in one. I find myself liking music and discovering and liking the 1920′s to 1990s music the most of all. Maybe its because I deprived myself of that music before but its really an amazing blessing to have access to these archives of music. 

Today I really didn’t do much I have been for the past five hours as such. I got my first cocktail set up (Old fashioned of course) and had two of those things. Wow what a kicker, I’m not even a drinker one bit so they really hitting me in the good spot right now. I am starting to feel a headache so there’s that. I took the time to discover more music by the legends of music during its golden age like Pedro Infante, Javier Solis, Negrete, Carlos Afonso, Roberto Carlos, 

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So I ended up just staying on my phone. weird adventure of chatting with friends about different things. Debating on moving to new york from a job offer I just got but also debating on some stuff I wanna do already here like rent a garage with my friend Luke and do some fun projects. I got a message back from my teacher too and discovered that Apple is making a mask to sell......Apple.......why.

About to smoke a bit of the banana strain and get gaming. Been watching videos on random shit on youtube too long now.

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6:18pm

Oh man today i wasted more money guys but the tacos were so gosh darn good....im sorry.

Besides that I slept most of the morning which was odd. Got in contact with my employer for once in 2435235 years and they said we gotta check back with you but it wont be today sorry I was like 

but hey they still gotta pay me because I got the coronavirus or might....its a long story okay, ill keep you updated. I just realized I never mentioned that earlier or maybe I did XDDDDDDDDD

Lately been in love with my J- Rock and Luis Miguel guys why am I so odd- lowkey love it. 

This is pretty good right now, check it out :D

Drank some energy drink called Reign today flavor peachhh? Was kinda good honestly, the gas stations around here hace lousy choices they got only the ones that are actually really bad for you (cough cough red bull and monster and full throttle crap). As for productivity of the day I believe I barely did much haha but I do wanna open up for an hour or two league of legends, get the stress off. Lord knows im addicted but good if you don’t stay there the whole time. Will probably be documenting and updating you guys on things all through the night so make sure to stick around if you following along in secret SINCE NO ONE HAS LIKED MY POSTS (sorta dont want you guys to even read it if you friends with me cause I feel like ill get criticism XD guess its not a bad thing but I get enough of that trust me, I’m good). On to finish my first giant cup of water today so hopefully another two will be another goal I can start getting into habit guys. Small metas haha small goals people small goals XD. I will also be sharing music as I feel I have deprived my bloggers are great content. Ill stick with just sharing the music and maybe a little about the artist but nothing about the actually quality of it as you should know all the music I be is very eclectic and isn’t just one genre ever because I love everything. Right now I am listening to Javier Solis - Cien Anos and this very good too haha I had this teach in middle school called Mr. Williams and he was the coolest person ever I think he the reason I love music so much now and not just one language or culture. He used to have this completely filled 256gb ipod classic and made me think wow this is a real fan of music he knows. Haha I actually just found him on Facebook holy cow I had to messaged him this is so cool. HAHA life too short to not reminisce with old friends everyone.

oh I was gonna show pictures of my little area haha maybe a video next time I’m going to try to download the app on my phone since I dont got any social media. This a documentation website to me though XP HAHAHAHA whatever helps you sleep right? okay well I’m gonna get moving. Guess we did a bit more than nothing today after all. Dont forget to catch up with old friends please theres only so much time left. love and be loved. night guys. ^6:39

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September 24th 2020

OH YEAHHHHHHH here we gooooo. 

haha anyways im sitting in my parents extra room in lindenhurst right now at 3:54am listening to jap cafe music. I can hear the crickets outside very clearly and its the perfect setting to get lost in my work. Im working on my iMac mid 2012 I got handed down. Put the laptop away for now until I got time to give it some love and upgrade it a little. Battery on it failing again sighhhhh. 

my screen is pretty blank right now but I have been mainly typing for a bit. Haha I can see this becoming a diary which wouldnt be bad but thats not why I’m here.....idek now damn late night stoner thoughts??? 

this is the music i’m listening to right now, honestly very soothing making time fly already. Im smoking some banana strain i got from my friend not too bad actaully the last stuff I had was god awful. You smoking anything? Helps me stay focused on other things than League of Legends (league of crack its so addicting and incredibly hard to win in at times).

Ooooo just for fun ill also take pictures of the room haha its already looking dirty but its only temporary. That’s another story for another time XD 

Ill edit post later, getting tired have to convert images and phone isnt on to make it easier. But like I said before if you made it this far now you know more about me haha. Check out some japanese cafe music playlists from Spotify whenever you got time they are amazing for keeping the flowing. I’m just getting tired now.

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Nice To Think I’m Still On Here

Woah has life changed since this. Tumblr is my first place I ever published anything and posted anything before Facebook and Twitter were even a thing for me. I cant tell you how excited I am to know that from here on out I can log in and continue something special to my heart. My posts are a little here and there so I hope I dont scare you away or weird you out or make it boring. From this moment I’ll try to continue my content through here where I know only one person will actually know to find me and no one else haha. To those that may not know me so well I used to be a music blog where I would talk about so much stuff until I realized I wanted to make a website. This was more of a private thing and actually more public than it is now with Tumblr’s popularity back in 2010ish when everyone I thought was cool owned a Tumblr. I guess I can’t blame them I left for a long time this and fell off hard even though I probably could have done something pretty cool with it by now or used it to help me on my other things. 

Little update: I left high school in 2013 so not much after the music posts I remember stopping this and maybe continuing it here and there, After there I went to community college where I ended up making lost of memories which im sure I’ll have plenty of time reminiscing with you guys, I then moved to Chicago to follow my dreams as a designer and stayed out there for about four years. Was amazing and could have been better if I planned better and actually could get a job out there that was laidback as I was a pretty tardy asshole to my employers. I wasnt late by hours but I was late often and if that didnt get me fired I would simply quit and never show my face there again. It was a mess, I was a mess, everything was fucked up but everything was also new and fascinating. I dont regret any of it. Now its been years since college and sadly I never finished with a semester remaining. That was a terrible day for my mother I could see she wanted to yell and cry because I told her I got expelled basically from art school for flunking. Man that was a terrible situation I tried to tell people I really tried my best was just a reckless kid who could never get any sleep and was always thinking of what to do and not doing the stuff. Ugh I get upset just thinking about it. So much time wasted. But I suppose I at least realize it now....also that I still dont regret it, it shapes us these failures. im 25 now and soon to be 26 and honestly I’m scared shitless. I feel like i never saved anything, never built credit, havent gone on a date in years, havent gone to eat with friends more than five times in six years, have broken almost everything I own in some sort of way. i dont eat correctly all the time, i dont exercise to keep the figure i used to have less than two years ago. I started college senior year of high school and somehow still screwed up the process and fell behind over and over again and even got screwed by the education system and now have tons of debt which im barely getting out of because of my amazing mom who is also the most toxic person in my life. Man........i know I look bad i know i suck.....im not perfect in any way.....I lost my way..........I know my way back and what I gotta do but........that time ill never get back. Ive never had a stable job in my life for god sake. Ugh I hope I dont come off as a failure I feel it completely but I dont want to be one. I have done so much in my life and met amazing people that honestly makes it all worth something but damn my heart........I don’t want to blame anyone but myself. My parents werent the best educated and still scares me to think I was so alone when I was younger that even my parents only talked to me to put me down and still kinda do but now we can carry a conversation and bond a smidge...im 25......

This quickly turned into something more than just a update I got caught up. But I want to take this extra step in my life to document on here most of my thoughts and things as I used to back before high school culture was no more for me. To Christina.....if you read this at all...just know the only thing over the past couple years on my mind has been you if not my purpose in this life..my life....has been nothing short of terrible since we last talked and yeah I had a ton of good luck too and am blessed to say the least but the man I said I wanted to become just hasnt happened yet. I let myself go for a bit...but now I want to show the world and you...that the past couple years didnt just happen for nothing....there is so much, so fucking much I got planned and been planning for that I just hope you see why it took so long. My time will come..and maybe one day we can talk and laugh about all this because you were one of the most memorable people ever to cross paths with and even though we barely text each other anymore I hope one day we can be good friends again. Im sure we all been so busy surviving. 

To those who got this far I really didnt expect anyone to finish this. It was a huge ramble. But I hope you can see I came a bit moody into the post but also with hope and excitement that Tumblr will be my home again for getting away from social media. Its been almost two years since I posted on Facebook and I dont use instagram as much anymore so ill be on here :D message me if anyone wants to be friends or anyone who may relate heck anyone who thinks they wanna be friends haha penpals that maybe have art side to them too??? hahah okay thats all bye everyone <3

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