idk

seriously, i don't know.

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Welp

Kicked out of rehab for attempting suicide lmao i can't even fucking kill myself right

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Rehab today. I'll be gone for 60 days or so. Later.

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Just had a dream that ended with my older brother whom i haven't seen in years emptying the water of a bath tub. The familiar sound of the water draining also carried a little tune, like a lo-fi synthy piano tone. It was just a few notes, but for some reason it caused me to break down into tears, because i had heard it ten, maybe fifteen years ago, back when things were okay, back when my life wasn't unmanageable and my family was still all together, it was the sound of nostalgia, like some sort of little melody or sound that was specific to my childhood.

"it sounds just like it always did, all those years ago, it sounds just the same way!" i said to my brother through choking sobs. By then he had come over to comfort me. But once he held me, it's like he was choking me, cutting off my breath, i couldn't breathe in. I tried to breathe and scream the words "let go" but i couldn't open my mouth, it felt like it was sealed shut and he was oblivious to me dying, or perhaps even doing it on purpose.

I woke up right after i died from running out of air.

Good dreams with very personal tinges that turn into nightmares sure are fuckin great eh

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People have told me that I look better already. And yo check it, I'm wearing colors other than black whaaaaat

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Welp rehab doesn't have any beds available today, so i gotta try tomorrow or Tuesday -_-

It's all good tho since I've detoxed and am currently not physically dependent on any chemicals. So I'll be good to wait in the meantime. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Me and the homie, and me.

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Out of detox, on my way to rehab.

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Off to detox and rehab yet again. I'll be gone indefinitely. I need to kick this shit for good. Later y'all.

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Just picked up some Suboxone with my friend's mother being the driver. This is fucking absurd.

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I'm a liar and an addict

Thought I had lost everything

But truth is I never even had it

I'm just here to satisfy my habit.

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Holy shit i am seriously depressed today

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Saturday, May 12th 2018, 7:00am

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My eating habits are seriously piss awful lol ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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Yo I'm fucking crazy LoL!

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Truth be told, I'm not a stupid person. I know this. I know I'm intelligent and thoughtful and all that nice jazz. That being said, however, I am certainly capable of being shit-for-brains fucking stupid as hell from time to time.

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I seem to be at an impasse here. This is truly something fucking awful.

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I wonder who's noticed my arm lately...

Edit: arm(s) actually lulz holy shit