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[efnnayr]

Why would I tell you I've been falling apart? Why would I share my pain when I can keep it all in my heart?

[efnnayr]

Drained

Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go. Life is hard enough without being around people who bring you down, and as much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your wellbeing a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone you care about, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful — you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself.

[efnnayr]

Just tired of that bullshit. Tired of waiting. I’m working hard and you stuck with lazy. If I stayed, I’d just go crazy. People change. People come and go. Its’s not worth it no more. I’m not giving up. I’m letting go and moving on.

[efnnayr]

Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody? You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You feel the way you do just because. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.

[efnnayr]

I think that possibly, maybe..I'm falling for you.. hmmm yes, there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you..

[efnnayr]

Fatai - Chandelier by Sia

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Voice so amazing... 

[efnnayr]

90s techno. oh yeaahhh

Dj Mystik- Moonlight Shadow 

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Ambitious Girl | Wale

[efnnayr]

I still feel this way...

After experiencing intense intellectual, emotional, and physical strain, I am finally comforted by the stillness of a silent, dimly-lit room...left alone to indulge in unspoken thoughts. I feel unbroken, nearly whole, yet I still try to gather tattered fragments of what once represented the man I wished to be. I try to think...but Bonnie Raitt's "I can't make you love me" painfully haunts my thoughts. I will lay down my heart, and i'll feel the power...but you won't.

I traveled thousands of miles not to search for some supposed name or farfetched dream; I merely hoped to unravel the mystery of me. Yet, after months of walking on a frail foundation without the comfort of a guiding hand, I am left alone in this dark room...accompanied only by a flickering light and Ms Raitt's haunting voice ... "just hold me close and don't patronize...don't patronize". Beliefs I once held strongly have been shaken...questioned...proven to be not quite enough. I stare at my cloudy mirror only to question my purpose.

Although consumed by uncertainty, I still smile. There is something comical and hopeful in that unknowing, confused reflection. I don't know who I am, where i'm going, what i'm doing...but I know I cry...I bleed...I love. and regardless of what happens, I will be ok.

[efnnayr]

Markus Schulz Feat. Dauby - Perfect (Agnelli & Nelson Remix)

Markus Schulz Feat. Dauby - Perfect (Agnelli & Nelson Remix) 

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Above & Beyond - You Got To Go (MS54 Intro Re-edit) Myon & Shane 54 - International Departures

Myon & Shane 54 - International Departures

Pure bliss.

[efnnayr]

When You Loved Me Empty Streets (MS54 Intro Edit Mix)

Boom Jinx, Maor Levi Ft. Ashley Tomberlin vs. Late Night Alumni - When You Loved Me Empty Streets (MS54 Intro Edit Mix) 

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Mr.Probz - Waves

[efnnayr]

Slowly drifting away.

[affluence-de-la-vie]

[efnnayr]

I gave my everything. For all the wrong things. "It's natural to try to hide the sinister facets of ourselves from the people we care about, but to ever truly share a life with another person, that dark side needs to make its way out into the open."

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Deadmau5 & Kaskade - I Remember 

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EDC 2010 throwback @kaskade deadmau5