・ 。 ◟ there’s a strict ‘ no phone ’ rule that they’ve applied to sessions , something he had argued against at first but eventually grew to understand . between lectures , holding a ( rapidly fading ) social life & athletics , he struggles to keep his focus on one thing for too long . often his gaze drifts & even now , mind wandering as he’s explained the formula to a problem he won’t ever use after graduation ; he doesn’t mean to brush them off , he’s simply a busy man with a busy schedule . when his phone buzzes for the fifteenth time that session ( only twenty minutes in ) , he lifts it once again to read the message , responding with a scoff & a shake of his head & despite the rule , he quickly sends a reply to a bickering girlfriend who’s convinced he’s choosing swimming over her . which , of course HE WOULD - if given a choice . he knows she’s affluent , that they’re supposed to get married & he’s supposed to win the olympics while she drinks mimosas ; a dream life , she’s tried to convinced him , but the relationship’s loveless . he’s only still on her arm because he looks good for appearances , her family only lets him stay because he’s the best swimmer at the university - he knows otherwise , they’d call him a creative insult for poor & kick him to the curb . the silent thought forces him to slam down an already cracked phone onto the table , & IMMEDIATELY , an apology falls from his lips . he rearranges the table stiffly , wondering whether or not to spill all his information to the student tutor that volunteers for the swim team . do they deserve to hear about his life ? poor dumbass , can’t do math & can’t do love . ❝ i’m sorry , ❞ he says again , sheepishly this time before he sighs & unloads . ❝ just , my girlfriend - i don’t know if she’s gonna be girlfriend for much longer - but my girlfriend thinks i’m abandoning her for , my sport & doesn’t understand that five a.m. practices aren’t optional - you’re smart , tell me if she’s being reasonable or not , am i an asshole for not paying enough attention to her when she only needs me to take photos for her instagram story ? ❞
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