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[eh-ze]

It's kicking in.

[catarinehancock]

“and i’d like to think

that if we never speak again,

one day you’ll look back on me fondly

as somebody who didn’t fear the future

when they pictured you by their side.

i’d like to think

you’ll remember me

as somebody who loved you

the best they could,

even if it wasn’t always what

you wanted or needed.

i’d like to think

you’ll remember me

as somebody you could

have spent your life with,

if only the timing had been right.

if only we’d worked for it

just a little bit

harder.”

- catarine hancock, author of shades of lovers and sometimes i fall asleep thinking about you

[eh-ze]

Again. But this time with a calm heart full of gratitude.

الحمد لله.

[eh-ze]

25/11/2023

غريبة ومضحكة مآلات الأمور.

[eh-ze]

٢٥ يناير ~ يناير ٢٥

وعملت إيه فينا السنين...

[eh-ze]

تبدو فكرة التعثر في عبور محور يوليو في يوم عمل عادي -التي تراودني دايما- مغرية أكثر من أي وقت سابق.

[eh-ze]

25/11/2023

غريبة ومضحكة مآلات الأمور.

[eh-ze]

هو دا بقى اللي بيقولوا عليه الليلة لم تسع غرفتي أجنحتي؟

[prehistoricmancunt]

“Maybe the desire to make something beautiful/is the piece of God that is inside each of us.”

From ‘Franz Marc’s blue horses’ by Mary Oliver

[eh-ze]

صباح جميل 🧡

[eh-ze]

‏تبقى قاعد لا بيك ولا عليك تخبطك موجة من هوان المجهود والبذل -ويمكن الحياة- كدة زي السلام عليكم

[eh-ze]

‏يا رب أبدا مكونش سبب إن حد يشعر بنفس السوء لا بقصد ولا من غير

[eh-ze]

Will I ever be free?

[eh-ze]

I was in the ER, alone, senseless, my temperature 39.7 and going up, having in the near chair total strangers who felt sorry for me that made them stay till 1am and the only thing I dreamed about was the blame I will get as I didn't make the pull request before going unconscious.

This will stop.

[eh-ze]

04/08/2022

I'm not both.. Not the outing I missed nor the distinction I reached. I'm even not what made me late. I don't need to fit in any though. I'm who I am and that's enough for me.

[eh-ze]

الحمد لله.

زمان ودلوقتي وبعدين الحمد لله.

[queerlove]

me: *catches myself being judgmental* me to me: i did not raise u this way

[eh-ze]

يا رب