Pup Hudson

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Will you also move to twitter since there will be a mass purge soon?

I have been meaning to do a post about something towards this for a long time. No, I don't plan to move to Twitter.

People may have noticed my blog isn't very active here on tumblr anymore. I actually have moved mostly onto Instagram. I welcome followers to find me on there as HudsonByte.

https://www.instagram.com/hudsonbyte/

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Pup went for a walk today. First time taking outdoor photos. I love seeing pups outside

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Trying on my singlets, each is a different size from the largest (black) to the smallest (red).  Red is so tight I didn’t think i could get it on!

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How tall and heavy are you?

At the moment sitting at 345 pounds, which is 15lbs below my highest. I stand at 5'11".

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You have an amazing belly! So you're not working out anymore, just getting fatter? How big do you want to get?

Nope, no longer working out. I am happy to not have to worry about getting to the gym and everything that comes with that. I have extra time to do stuff for me now and take care of myself.In regards to size, all I know is I really need to get to 400. Once there will see where things are. If I could, I would never stop growing.

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Tummy Tuesday! It’s great to have a belly

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and im free!

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But could we get some photos of you in a speedo or singlet?

haha those are very likely, and already there are lots of me in them on both my blogs ....at least singlet and jockstrap.  I have never owned a speedo and finding ones that would fit my fat ass get’s difficult when I need 3xl/4xl underwear :P

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Can you show us you penis?

Nope.  Certain things I don’t plan to ever show just cause I like to leave a certain amount of mystery :) Underwear and the like is more sexy to me than full nudity, though i appreciate both. 

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Tummy Tuesday, with special guest @bigbadbroseidon! Bellies make great pillows 

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This tummy Tuesday is a collection of belly pics from the last couple of weeks. All of these shakes are doing a belly good :P 

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Exploration, Anxiety, and Identity.

The exploration into being a pup always begins with a first step. For years I always knew I was more submissive but never knowing what I wanted out of that.  Where do I belong? How do I fit in? Who am I?  It was daunting, but was something I took a good look at who I was and how I viewed who I am.   Being a gainer is huge for me (pun partially intended). It drives a majority of my personality and what I want to get out of life. Having heart surgery over 11 years ago made me realize I need to live a life I am going to be happy with, and that included a body I dreamed of having; queue my efforts at the gym and the table. Since being a gainer is important to me, it actually played a huge part in discovering my sub/pup side.  My initial attempts at finding a sir/owner involved just gainer aspects and their encouragement to go bigger.  My issue with this is as much as I enjoyed the encouragement, I did so without a sense of service. It didn’t fill my desires to please someone in a way beyond body goals, beyond a good workout or eating a big meal.  I still had fun, and was a good first step for me in exploring myself, but was not enough.

Like many I was exposed to blogs on Tumblr of more “famous” couples or dynamics in the BDSM scene.  I took most of my queues from them, seeing what they did, their lives and reactions. It is thanks to that exposure I decided to explore pup life.  I don’t hold most of those ideals or practices as my own any more, but it gave me my starting point. I decided that ‘pup’ was the descriptor that worked best for me, and about 1.5 years ago was the first time I was called pup by someone. This felt more right, gave me more purpose for myself, but I was not done. Never will you see me air my troubles or “dirty laundry” in a public forum like this, but there have been some rocky moments that have gotten me to where I am. Like many people I suffer from anxiety to the point of needing medical prescriptions to help me cope with some situations. And to be honest, is one of the main reasons I discovered i am not just a pup by title, but a human-pup in behaviour and look. A few posts ago I wrote my story on how I discovered my pup name.  In that post I mentioned how I first saw a human pup at IML and didn’t know what to make of them.  Even when first calling myself pup i never identified as that type of pup, I didn’t think I required a hood to identify as one, that my obedience was just in my actions. I met Master @walkingtheline 1 year ago this month (April 2016). To be honest so much has changed in my life, my personality, and how I identify that it feels so much longer than that (he agrees). He is the first one to introduce me into my subspace, led me through some challenges in my life, and fostered my growth as a pet. It was his suggestion that a pup hood would help me gain a deeper connection to my pupspace, and in that process a deeper understanding of myself. I love Master so much! The journey of putting my hood on for the first time is a major event in my pup life, and one I was privileged to share with Master in person.  I was feeling a bit down back then, like my pup-self was weakening; was I wrong who i was? Was this the route for me? My anxiety was building up cause I had thought i found who I was but it was slipping away. Master treated this as no small matter, that we should make sure we did it in person, and do so in a way that was proper for who I am as his pet.   The hood, a symbolic representation of who Hudson is, helped complete me. The experience of putting it on is one I never want to forget. The guidance Master gave me, encouraged me, and played with me; it awakened me  further than I ever dreamed. So much so, that at the end of our session and when I was released I cried. Tears of joy, of satisfaction, and general happiness. I mention my anxiety because the hood has become one of those things that helps me with that.  Hudson is who I am, but putting on the hood is when he comes out to play. My worries are left behind and the social responsibilities of life can be forgotten for an instant. Being pup is strongly connected to my mood and life stimuli, and the hood just helps put me in the right mindset.  It isn’t a required piece for anyone to be pup, but in my closet it has become something more than I ever dreamed.

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Shared from my pup blog cause it talks so much about my personal journey that could apply to others.

I am no longer with my prior master, but the information is still relevant to those it speaks to. 

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As a fellow gainer and lifter (let's just call it "grower") I gotta ask: What is a typical day of food intake for you? What does it take to achieve your size in particular?

Hmm, tough one to answer sometimes, especially since I have stopped going to the gym and made other changes recently. 

When i was working out heavy dairy has been a huge part of my life. Used it to be an easy way to get some calories and protein in through the day. Primarily it was big lunch and supper, small breakfast, and a gainer shake in the evening. 

Now a days with not working out I have actually reduced how much milk i drink by at least half.  This has allowed me to eat bigger meals, but i still keep the gainer shakes in every evening.  This has really been helping me fatten up I find LOL.

Otherwise, i have not been one to calorie count and such, so couldn’t answer in more detail.  But I am sadly not a huge eater, like I wish i was.

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Do you have a YouTube channel?

I actually do.  None of the videos i post are ever private, just unlisted. I don’t upload them very often at all, but if I do I try to remember to add them to the playlist that links them all.  Can find the playlist here:

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL93FE9y1ickvJopmuX0ttXnGlxsSPQa-B

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Nerdy question, is half of you called a nibble?

Hmm, anyway I look at it I don’t feel a nibble describes me even as half ;) What do you think? :)

(love the nerdy question, thank you!)

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This weekend i had 2 friends show me 2 different profiles that are of people impersonating me.  This is a PSA that I only use my handle eightByte on Growlr or any other site (sometimes eightbit1byte), any other name is not me.  Do the world a favour and report catfishers.  

Hugs to all!

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Just a friendly reminding I only go as either eightByte or hudsonPup, but at this time I am not using any mobile apps.  Thank you to all my friends that notified me of this, and those who continue to report anyone that tries to catfish people.

This is also not me:

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Jersey day at work. Some day I plan to stretch this thing to the max!