A M O R

Another one who is just trying to get attention 🌹

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Entre mi amor y yo han de levantarse 

trescientas noches como trescientas paredes 

y el mar será una magia entre nosotros. 

No habrá sino recuerdos. 

Oh tardes merecidas por la pena, 

noches esperanzadas de mirarte, 

campos de mi camino, firmamento 

que estoy viendo y perdiendo... 

Definitiva como un mármol 

entristecerá tu ausencia otras tardes.

"Despedida" Jorge Luis Borges

[elbereth-in-blue]

Llamamos amor a aquello que nos hizo querer que durara eternamente...

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Qué necesidad de atención constante que tenés Starosta, que patético. A quién querés engañar? A vos mismo? A quién querés mostrarle que no te importa nada y que no sentís nada, que sos perfecto?. Que imperativa necesidad tenés de que te alaben y te digan que sos el ser más bello que pisó está tierra, que te vitoreen y te mientan vendiendote algo que no sos pero querés ser, que todo él mundo te siga y te aprecie aún sabiendo el desecho de persona que sos. Te morís por eso. Y como eso no sucede, y con razón, te escudás en que sos una pobre alma incomprendida que solo busca amor y que es el mundo el que está equivocado y no vos. Que es la gente la que no quiere entender tu existir y no sos vos eso que los repugna. Que la gente cree lo que quiere creer, que la gente pisotea los buenos sentimientos y se asusta de las cosas que les hacen bien por falta de costumbre. Cuando sabés perfectamente lo karmatico que es el mundo, y que cada acción tiene su reacción. Que todo pero absolutamente todo lo que sentís y te pasa es culpa tuya y de nadie más. Que vos creas en tu mente todo eso o como mínimo lo provocás. A quién querés engañar Starosta? A quién?

A Starosta el Idiota Carta I

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Decidí desde este momento, que voy a intentar ser feliz.

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Fracasé

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It's so sad to know that you never felt any of the things that you said, and that I was just a whim...

My soul

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I just wanna fucking die

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It's so sad to say that you were the only nice thing in my life right now

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I'm freaking screaming for help

[besitoschris]

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So what did I'm waiting for?

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I feel like I'm in a jewelry box

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It's so painful

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I wish I were strong enough to tell you how I’m feeling…

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Well I did

[emotionalwords]

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And for me

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I feel like everything in my life is a shit.

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In a box

When you have people around you who are gonna freak out if they know how you're really feeling you feel like if you were in a box, you can't cry, you can't talk about it, you can't express that feeling in any way, you can not even put a sad face, all you can do it's keep it to yourself, keep it inside, keep on burning.

Keep that feeling that's killing you, because if you take it out you're gonna hurt so much people, or you're gonna make his life more complicated...

[elbereth-in-blue]

I wish I were strong enough to tell you how I'm feeling...

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Sometimes I think that I feel like that because of him, because I want him and I can't be with him. But sometimes I think that he is just an excuse that my head have to think that I will not feel empty if I'm with him. But next I start thinking about it and, do I really like him for what he is? Or em I just idealism him for what I need, somebody to love who loves me...