Dreamer Elly

Hi guys it's Eleanor! I am a girl of Italian origin, I do not know what will talk on my blog but I promise you that it will be wonderful, FOLLOW ME please

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Perché, in un cielo pieno di stelle, penso di vedere te.

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Ma se ci tieni tanto puoi baciarmi ogni volta che vuoi.

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Everyday Homophobia, Politics Edition

So.

Today I not-so-intelligently told my mom that I kind of leaned Democratic/Liberal, and she lectured me for a solid 30 minutes. Also, my dad prayed for “guidance from God to live our lives for You and to do what pleases You, Lord, without turning to worldly things for fulfillment or happiness, because we know that the only true joy comes from You, Jesus” during the prayer tonight. 

Literally. Just because I said I might be democratic.

And I couldn’t tell my mom that why I was kind of liberal was because of their views on minorities (mainly queers), because she would FLIP. So I said I leaned Democratic because “Democrats want to help people.” So she went on this lecture about how Democrats never give money to churches or shit, and how Republicans give a lot and care about people. 

THEN, she went on to say, “Do you really want to be a part of a political party that murders babies?” And I was sitting there like, not every abortion is bad like in rape cases or where the baby is a stillbirth or when the birth could hurt the mother and the child… But I kept quiet. 

And then came the glorious “Those Obnoxious Flaming Perverted Gays” question. I answered with the textbook quote, “I don’t support gay marriage because the Bible says it is wrong. Also, the Constitution says nothing about the right to marry, so they should stop trying to legalize sin. Also, I don’t hate gays, I just don’t accept their sinful lifestyle. Also, God loves everyone but He doesn’t love their sin. So gays can do whatever they want in their sinful lifestyle, but I won’t condone their sin by being friends with them.”

So…. yeah.

It hurt because although I did act like a little shit towards my mom (I kind of snapped at her a couple of times and looked angry while she was lecturing me), it hurt because I was lying to her AGAIN. And this time, I was forced to basically agree with her views that I am sinning, and that she cannot support me of love me fully or unconditionally. 

I hope that once my parents finally realize I’m gay, that they will look back on how depressed and emotional I’ve been during the past year and realize how fucking hard it was for me, to live a lie and try to keep going when everyone around me kept telling me I wasn’t loved. How they’ll realize that when I snapped at them or got quiet and withdrawn during a lecture, I wasn’t doing that out of hate, but out of fear. 

Out of fear that they would one day abandon me, just because I don’t fit into their perfect Christian straight feminine daughter mold. 

It hurts like hell.

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Please stop and read this.

I’m doing a project on gay rights in today’s society.

So if you believe that same sex couples should be allowed to get married, please reblog this.

This would be a lot of help, thank you.

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She doesn’t trust easily- you can see that in the distance she creates between herself and everyone around her, but she has much love to offer, and you can see it in the kindness that’s in the smiles she gives out to everyone around her. She has millions of chaotic galaxies of thoughts, thousands of tangled up worlds of words and places in her mind, and you can see it in the way her eyes always seem lost, like they are somewhere else. She always wants to be somewhere else, it shows in the way she’s always rushing and moving, the way she’s always restless. Life never went easy on her, and she didn’t go easy on herself either, you can see it in the scars on her wrist, but damn, she is strong, and you can see it in her eyes, you can sense it in her voice. She believes that her body can physically rebuild and heal itself. I think that’s because she knew how to recover by herself after life has broken her. And there’s one more thing you must know about her- she likes to listen to underground songs, and I think that’s because she knows how it’s like to be under-appreciated. So if you can’t see the beauty in her quirks, if you don’t think that maybe she might be a little piece of magic, don’t you dare and say that she is just a girl; because she’s a masterpiece.

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Good tea party !!💌☕️

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Happy first day of sping !! Happyness and recovery for you!💁

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She loved him because he had brought her back to life. She had been like a caterpillar in a cocoon, and he had drawn her out and shown her that she was a butterfly.

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