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A small piece of my heart and mind. No corrections and multiple misspellings but I hope you might find joy or peace from a piece of my soul.

[eliarerr]

To you my lover

To you my lover, my heart is in pain

it took way to late

I hope you are safe

the world has lost its shape

and still I find it to call you my Friend.

A fool I am and a fool I will be

a fool or a friend

As long as I can pretend

then I am content

my epipath sent

says “oh well, he was a very good friend”.

[eliarerr]

That’s it

For one who seek an oath to swear

Is one who’ll turn his ear to the rear

One who’ll listen to the one who’s near

An oath made up so you’ll shed tears

It’s easy now to see and fear

that words ain’t nothing for you to hear

As something believe in

Close your heart and seal your lips

Over the ocean you’ve roamed around on ships

To find your heart won’t heal it rips

Guns been placed right on your hips

Trigger puls back the gunpowders been lit

You really don’t got an answer fit

As darkness pools around your hit

A final thought “this really is it”

“What have I done how could I fall for this shit”

There’s nothing more, nothing more to this story; that’s it.

[eliarerr]

If I had a wish

If only a lantern would give me

A genie that would grant me three

I would toss two aside for the only thing I would want too have

Is the time, that I had with you

For the time we had and the time we have left

Will never be enough for me to tell you

That you are the one, the only one

I want to give and spend all my time with

But no wish is granted no genie appeared

The time we had left has now disappeared

But what will never leave

Is the memory of our time we have had here

Our time, our memory in which I hold dear

[eliarerr]

Four tears

Each night, four tears fall down my face

One for what I am

One for what I am not

One for what I have

And one for what I have not

If these are all the tears I bear

Then where can I fit my tear of joy

What if the tears of mine can not feed on my joy

While it feasts on my sorrow

[eliarerr]

A heart is owned

A heart is owned

A heart it needs

A heart is not a pretty peace

For own a heart I do not now

But mines a thousand miles from me

A thousand miles she holds it tight

Without no knowledge without no fright

I wish to hold her heart just once

[eliarerr]

Walk the stairs

I walk the stairs like long before,

and soon I stand beside your door.

The times I’ve knocked, the times I’ve laughed.

The times we’ve had, I want it back.

But times said I shall be no more

For once I’ve laughed and twice I’ve cried,

I won’t go back to where I’ve died

[eliarerr]

A fading face

A face I once thought to see

down the isle, a memory.

While eyes that follow every step

Every move has sailed ahead

Now inside a liars bed

To me but a fading face

[eliarerr]

The good old empty feeling

Long ago I met my foe

No face or shape along the cove

A sickle reaping all I sow

He leaves a hanging sign behind of longing, hollow feelings inside; all just come along

As my tail he took the sail

Over oceans of emptiness

Over dunes of shells

He took my all but I leapt away

And found a piece of land to have my stay

But far away I see him roam

And soon I think he’ll take my home

[eliarerr]

For the time i spend thinking

Everything is calm, I think I have it all

But then a gust of wind arrives, I see it all as gone.

For the time I spend a’thinking, is when it’s all a’changing.

While in my lonesome bed I lie the wind has passed me by

[eliarerr]

I dropped my heart

I've never been the talking type the one to

say what's on my mind

To say it was choice would be a lie

But this time I thought it'd be a different story different scene

But the story told so differently so light and bright the eye could see

Ended up having the same end

[eliarerr]

Standing alone

My life in turbulence

Conflicts arising

All I can do is watch

It pains me to hear unbearable lies and hurtful attacks; realising I’m standing alone.

I watch as the crowd gathers around my fiend in sorrow with hurtful eyes towards me. I’m asking why, why can’t I just have one person beside me when you have ten.

I feel alone and betrayed, for among the crowd of evil eyes is my friends I’ve once stood right beside. I ask them why, they yell aloud: sure your fine, but the fiend of yours we value more you know for sure.

[eliarerr]

When you stop believing

Do you believe in tomorrow

Or the day after that

For when the day comes when belief is no more

That is the day that you die

[eliarerr]

Left alone

Left alone

I thought I had someone

But when darkness bestows upon me there is nothing I could do to quench my desire to to feel a connection

For everyone I come close drives me away

They come and and give me hope

But they stomp on it

Kill it

Desecrate it

They make me puke

They destroy me

I don’t know how much I can take

All that is left is anger and regret

[eliarerr]

Finnish line

Something I’ve always wanted

Something I thought would make me complete

On the verge of the finish line I stop

Thinking of the distance I’ve ran

And realise it meant nothing at all

[eliarerr]

Dreams

With heavy eyes I drift asleep

Morose in mind can’t feel too deep

But heart it aches in dreams I hear

To dreams I’m headed so I can feel

For how is life or dreams unlike

A world of which the magic sleeps

Or one in which I feel complete

[eliarerr]

Don’t talk to me

Don’t talk to me

Because I’m scared shitless if what you would say

I’m scared the words you articulate will throw me in a pit of despair and agony

Let me live in ignorance

And pretend my life has a fighting chance

[eliarerr]

Bland chips

Sometimes I feel like bland chips you get at grandma’s

You eat them if offered to you but but you’d never go out of your way to buy them

No one really dislikes them but no one loves them either

They’re just bland chips