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The day of Eli and Garrett’s planned meeting played out like any other ordinary day for the playwright, aside from the fact that his daydreams consisted less of his work and more of the pianist. It had been awhile since Eli had crossed his mind right up until, by the grace of sweet fate herself, he stumbled upon the younger man at a bar that turned out to be his workplace. But now ever since that moment, he couldn’t quite stop imagining all the ways this long overdue conversation between them could go.
Many of the scenarios ended with the same sharpness of the tongue and dark emptiness in the eyes that Eli displayed on their not so pleasant previous encounter. A fair share of them were more optimistic though, and those were the ones Garrett held onto for confidence while sauntering into the location Eli shared with him. Not that he needed any extra boost to get him through, his head was big enough on its own to keep him afloat through most situations. He arrived a few minutes prior to 8pm, scoping the place with his ever observant eyes before deciding on a place to settle. Garrett ordered himself a drink that now sat untouched on a square napkin in front of him, condensation collecting on the exterior of the glass as he patiently waited for his company to arrive. Once the older man caught sight of Eli, a face and a presence he could not miss in a bar full of strangers, he swept his hand in a gesture toward the seat across from him. “This seat isn’t taken,” Garrett offered to him pretending as if this wasn’t already prearranged, grinning upward at Eli. “I would’ve ordered you a drink but I didn’t want to offend you by assuming you still pick the same poison.”
Eli had tried his best to not keep his hopes up and his expectations as low as possible, otherwise he was sure he’d gone completely insane by now. Seeing Garrett again was enough to occupy his mind, let alone thinking about all the ways it could go. He tried his best to relax his shoulders and his tensed jaw when he walked into the bar. Knowing Garrett, he was sure that he’d already gone in so his eyes scanned the room while his chest felt like bursting with how fast his heart was racing. He almost froze when his eyes met with a pair of painfully familiar dark orbs and he did his best to force a smile that almost, almost, reached his eyes. A part of him was genuinely excited to see the other man but a bigger part of him felt uneasy, tense and still full of spite.
With a sigh, Eli dragged a shaky hand through his hair, trying to keep things casual before he huffed out a chuckle and slid into the seat across from Garrett. His head was lowered, his eyes barely making contact with Garrett’s while his hands remained in the pockets of his jacket. With a half smile, Eli finally dared to look at him and while his stomach sunk, he also felt a strange sense of familiarity that he wished he didn’t feel. He could deny it all he wanted – they definitely were anything but strangers. In fact, they knew each other inside and out and yet Eli felt distant, which was for the better. Or at least that’s how he felt. “Thanks,” he said, finally settled before his brows raised and he huffed out a humorless laugh at the little poke coming from Garrett. “Wow, you think I’d get offended over an act of consideration and friendliness? You should know better than this because as you can imagine, I need a drink in this very second, no matter what kind,” he half-joked, grinning as he shook his head once more. “Just so you know though…my poison hasn’t changed either. I guess we truly are creatures of habit,” he told the older man with a shrug as he leaned back and tried his best to stay relaxed. “Have you been waiting for long?” He asked, internally cringing but he was currently fighting the urge to run once again and figured that some small talk would still be better than getting angry again.
Getting through the time leading up to their meet-up had left Eli entirely restless. As if Eli didn’t have trouble sleeping already, texting back and forth with Garrett of all people had seemed to do the trick just fine. He felt exhausted waking up the next morning after getting a full two hours of sleep - definitely not enough to brave the day and make it till it was time for them to face each other but as always, Eli somehow managed to pull through enough to function.
Despite thinking about cancelling on several occasions, Eli knew that he should give it a shot for the sake of finding closure, which was what ultimately convinced him to drag himself under the shower so he could at least feel a little more like an actual human being. He even put a little more effort than usual into his appearance, not wanting to feel inferior when facing Garrett again properly for the first time in three years. After sending Garrett the location, Eli made his way to the bar he’d chosen for their heart-to-heart, his hair perfectly styled and dressed in one of his signature looks: a pair of dark washed skinny jeans, combat boots, a black, tucked in dress-shirt and a denim jacket to top it off. His hands were buried in the pockets of his jacket as he walked, his head lowered and eyes focused on the ground rather than what was in front of him. The sinking feeling in his stomach that had set in ever since he’d seen Garrett again was still present and continued to get worse the closer he got to his destination. Sighing, Eli checked the time, trying to stall for a moment while everything inside of him screamed for him to walk the other way but his pride wouldn’t let him - he’d not let Garrett win this time and after all, he’d waited for this moment for a while now.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: If the point of this is to get the chance to talk about things, the whole purpose is kind of moot if you're not listening huh? Hey. I'll be on my best behavior, don't you worry. I have no ulterior motives.
GARRETT: It does, so 8pm it is.
ELI: I will be listening as long as you're going to be listening to me, too. I'll do my best to be at mine as well so we should be okay.
ELI: See you tomorrow around 8pm then.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: Sure, as long as you don't threaten to throw said drink in my face again. That's fine with me. Somewhere quiet enough so you have no choice but to listen to me.
GARRETT: What time tomorrow?
ELI: Is that supposed to make me actually want to do this? Because I'm starting to think it over. But hey, unless you make me wanna do that, you'll be fine. No drinks will get wasted, I can promise you that. I know a place though, I'll send you the location.
ELI: 8 pm? Does that work for you?
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: Tomato, tomahto. You say old, I say matured.
GARRETT: Let me know. We can do it before or after work, if you'd rather not do that, there are six other days of the week to pick from.
GARRETT: Wherever you're comfortable? I can come to you if you'd prefer that.
ELI: Whatever helps you sleep at night.
ELI: Tomorrow should work.
ELI: How about we keep this on more neutral grounds? I feel like that'd be a better option. We could grab a drink somewhere or something like that.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: Never thought you'd turn out to be a bully, I'm a second away from reporting you for elderly abuse.
GARRETT: Tomorrow?
ELI: Did you really just call yourself old? Because that's all I'm going to gather from this.
ELI: I'll have to check back with work...see if they want me to work a shift or not.
ELI: Where?
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: I'm glad you didn't end up tossing it out but I wouldn't have blamed you if you did. I'm not oblivious to the fact that what happened wasn't ideal or pretty. There is so much I could say, but I don't want to talk about it over text like this.
GARRETT: When can I see you?
ELI: I appreciate it that you can admit to that. It was definitely neither of those things. Aw, how come? Is looking at small text for too long too straining for your eyes these days? 😛
ELI: When are you free?
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: The amount of cynicism you dish out is tough to swallow. We're not strangers, Eli, you can pretend we are all you want but I know you. That's why I left my number - I'd be a fool to not realize it was a bad time but I needed you to realize that we need to have this talk. Maybe we become strangers after all is said and done, but we owe it to ourselves. I owe it to you.
GARRETT: I didn't take no for an answer because I wanted you to give me a chance. Thank you for giving me one now.
ELI: I'm gonna take that as a compliment. You sure as hell do owe that to me though, especially after denying me the option for the past few years. As I said, I think that closure is a goal we can both get behind and I may not love the idea but I'll give you that while I was seriously contemplating throwing your number into the next trashcan, I was glad you gave me the option of reaching out after all.
ELI: As you said, we owe it to ourselves so here I am, giving us a shot at it.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: Is that what you think I wanted from you? A storybook reunion after three years without even a word? I'm not foolish, nor was I ever under the guise that we would be rekindling anything. So no, Eli, I didn't think any of that was remotely a possibility. We were apart of each other's lives, forgive me for being human and seeking out that familiarity.
GARRETT: You're right, I'm a little disappointed. I apologize for catching you entirely off guard but in my defense, I didn't know you'd be needing one. Now that you've had time to prepare and agree, I think it would be in our best interest to have a conversation as soon as possible. Better late than never, no?
GARRETT: And it can't possibly be "too late" if we're both still here.
ELI: I'm not foolish either so no, obviously it was not. You really have to learn the difference between me being cynical or genuine. I'm well aware that this is probably the last thing you want from me but either way, I wouldn't say there's any familiarity left, Garrett. You left my life without ever looking back so let's be honest here - we're basically back to being strangers after all this time because the keyword here is "were".
ELI: You walking into a random bar isn't even the issue. You couldn't have known I was working there but did you really have to actually approach me and seek me out? Probably not but you never took no for an answer so I should've known you wouldn't let it go just like that. I'll have to give you that, I guess..."better late than never" is probably the motto to go with after all this time. As to your definition of "too late", let's just say it was a close call.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: You did always have a knack for exaggerating, but harassed you? Eli. I was just trying to have a conversation. I approached you like a civil human being and then I left the bar in fear that the building would actually implode with all the negative energy outpouring from you. It may be hard for you to believe, but I know when I'm not wanted. However - I thought it might be worth something to give it a shot under different, less emotional circumstances. Well to be frank, I thought I'd never see you again.
GARRETT: But when I did see you again, I was happy. Grateful for the chance to at least attempt a redo of that cliffhanger of an ending we had a few years ago. So I suppose that means I'm reaching out for closure too, yours and mine. Contrary to popular belief, I'm not entirely heartless.
ELI: Yeah, well, you had some very bad timing there. Fine, I do admit, I'm exaggerating a little bit but you caught me completely off guard, Garrett. I haven't seen you ever since you walked out of my life and seeing you again was a lot. I wasn't ready. Shit, I'm still not sure I'm ready to face you again but were you surprised by that? Did you expect me to let you back in with open arms as if nothing ever happened? Life isn't a novel. We're not two lovers finally reconciling. You fucked up. I moved on, so there's that. I agree though. I think that we should try again, under better circumstances and in a more neutral setting. That thought was mutual though - which is why my reaction was so intense.
ELI: You won't be so happy to hear that I sure wasn't happy to see you again. I've never wanted to disappear more than I have that night and that's saying something but we gotta take life for what it is, right? You being heartless...I'm not too sure about that. Not after how things went down but closure sounds like a good goal to have in mind for both of us. I'm willing to see you again and I'll do my best to not be so hostile then. Well, at least I'll promise to try.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: Your selfless contribution of knowledge to the old folk community will not go unnoticed, your charitable heart is inspiring.
GARRETT: I was thinking of you. Emotions were taunt, tension high...I thought I'd give you the chance to think more clearly about whether you wanted to talk to me or not. If I may, and God forbid I sound full of myself when I do, you decided to get in touch with me after all and you don't typically fancy creepy things, do you? You never struck me as the type and according to you, I know you better than this.
ELI: Always glad to help. It was my pleasure and I'll continue to contribute while I'm still in my prime.
ELI: Oh? So you noticed that, too? I thought it was just me but hey, good to know you came around to realize that the tension was indeed very high. I did think about it though, more than I'd like to admit. I'll be honest with you, I was about to throw the piece of paper away the moment my co-worker handed it to me but I didn't. As I said though, I did it for me, not for you. You didn't give a damn for years so why would you now, right? All of this is serving a very selfish motive, both yours and mine so texting back a creepy old man who wouldn't leave me alone and harassed me at my workplace the other day seems to be my way to find some sense of closure. Why are you so eager to reach out all of the sudden though? It's been a while.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
GARRETT: I find it interesting that people these days think expressing interest outwardly is "creepy" when you all announce your attraction for each other by swiping up or down. Or is it right and left?
GARRETT: I wasn't sure I would but I have to say I'm pleased to hear from you, Eli. Or is that creepy too?
ELI: Oh please, Garrett. You should know me better than this. I don't swipe, period. Not up, not down, not right or left but to help out our senior residents currently developing a mild case of senility - it /is/ right or left.
ELI: Not gonna lie, it kinda is. Considering I made it more than clear that I was not interested to ever get in touch with you again but clearly that doesn't stop you from going after what you want. Before you get too full of yourself though, I did this on my own terms. I slept on it a few nights and figured I'd humor you. So here I am. Letting you hear from me.
TEXT ✉ Eli & Garrett
ELI: Just in case that leaving your number at random bars without being asked for it is a new creepy habit of yours that I didn't know about yet...this is Eli.