If you reach out your hand, I'll give you mine.

Well hi, I'm glad you've stumbled on to this blog and I hope you find a reason to stay. If you ever want to send me feedback or just want to chat, my door it always open! Have a good day!

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Hello friends

Ask me something. Anything. Tell me something. I want to hear it all, I want you to be heard.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Love grips tightly, leaves bruises, hurts And oh you love me so

JL

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Clear dew falls on window panes A car door opens and the streetlights glint off side mirrors Mirage of shimmering scenes in the night laughter from inside a place you were not invited minutes pass by in seconds till hours have passed restless city

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Heart break, Heart break is easy A thousand words can be used to describe the way love can escape you A million ways to lament with an aching soul   Now love, Love is difficult To write about something words do not touch To write about a star that you've only seen from a billion miles away How do you explain the way a heart grows larger how a body grows lighter I've never been much of a poet I write about loneliness  About nothingness Feeling so full is frightening and I have a hard time embracing it but I am trying

[elizabeth-jaymes]

You were never the problem

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Young girl, belligerently unsure about everything

[elizabeth-jaymes]

I think I am getting worse. My hands are numb and though I feel pressure I feel no warmth from you I tell myself it’s all in my head but that does no good Because in my head is where I live too And I am so tired of sharing this space with thoughts That aim to choke me. Snow falls slowly but Before you know it there is a wall six feet tall In front of your home and you can no longer leave for fear of Laying down and never unthawing. Rain can come in downpours And the earth will be dry in the morning But you spent all night building an ark. I thought the snow was beautiful and was scared of the rain And now I don’t know how to deal with it all Things seem terrible. The next day is beautiful. Things seem fine. I slowly realize I am fading into nothing.

I never did know what snowfall felt like

[elizabeth-jaymes]

I only miss you during monsoon season. Arizona has these crazy violent dust storms that everyone agrees are beautiful. People go out and drive in these things. Knowing full well their visibility will go to zero and their car will shake like it is scared for them. But they are not scared. It’s exhilarating. Get out of the car and let the dirt and rain pummel their body, it is gritty, it’s hard to breath, but it’s a feeling that people chase all summer long. We got stuck in one once. In a parking lot in front of hobby lobby, we counted how many shopping carts rolled by into the abyss. We joked that they would never be seen again, taken by the dust gods as sacrifice. Maybe the dust gods took you too, I see you and I smell rain and dirt and my eyes sting no matter how many times I try to blink the feeling away, and I stay outside as long as I can stand it, but at some point you have to go back inside and change clothes and brush the knots out of your hair and go on with your life. You sure were beautiful though.

Monsoon Season- J.L.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

She asked to be treated as a flower So he picked away at every part of her Wishing Wishing For something good Then looked down at her stem Petals shorn And cast her aside Looking for a new beautiful thing

Be Careful What You Wish For

[elizabeth-jaymes]

I will remember few moments, I am sure, when I am grey. I will not remember today, when I spilt salad dressing on my shirt at lunch, and how I scowled and sighed away my breaths. I will not remember the headache I gave myself from staring at the pages too long, I will perhaps remember the A I earned from  studying though. Maybe though, I will not. I may not remember what show I watched with him this year, but I will remember his touch. I will remember what it was to be young with him, as I hold his wrinkled hand. I am wondering what it will be like, to remember the years I live now. How time will blur together like a dream condensed into one night’s sleep. How freezing rains and beating sunshine will transform me, I do not yet know, but I do know I will live.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

No one’s life is a walk in the park

It’s just how well they tend the flowers

So do not tell me

I have not lived

For my garden is flourishing

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Blanket

I will hold you

Wrap Around you

I will be your friend

I’ll let your tears stain me

I’ll keep you safe from the monsters

Then you’ll wash me

And we’ll begin again

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Look at me with wild eyes that do not blink Throat straining around words that must not be said You asked me once what it meant to be alone and I answered  when you are being held by the one who loves you, and you feel nothing flightless, I stand still waiting to be taken away sinking, I wait to come to rest at the bottom but you will not let go you will not let me be Love grips tightly, leaves bruises, hurts and oh you love me so

Whisper. J.L.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

Say you need me Say you know I am right Say, This time I will listen, say This time I will stay Say anything, anything but I am sorry Say anything but I do not know Say something, something, Something to make me feel you I feel nothing, nothing, nothing but your absence And I have seen you every day this week Where have you gone? I have waited so long to see you but you are transparent and when you hold me I no longer feel your heartbeat I no longer feel what made you mine I didn't know it would go like this I didn't know that it meant this much to me It means, It means everything, And you no longer listen No matter how many times I repeat Repeat myself

J.L.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

And it finally hit me My God, My God you love me And My God, I love you too I want to live in the curve of your smile and Die with my fingers locked around yours And we are not perfect but we are Each others and That will always be enough for me

J.L.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

And just like that, again our flesh became strangers.

J.L.

[elizabeth-jaymes]

You are my addiction The needle and the spoon There were parts of me that loved you But they ran away too soon I am sorry if I hurt you That wasn't my intent I will pack my bags and leave this place So why don't you go back to bed

Ron Pope- Back to Bed

Calling off the Dogs