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Son las 3:37am del 23 de octubre, tengo insomnio otra vez, ya me acostumbre. Volvi a descargar Tumblr por sexta o septima vez, creo que han pasado un año o año y medio que no usaba esto, y he cambiado.

Ya no soy el de antes. Supere algunos miedos y asumi errores y estupideces. Empece de nuevo, de cero, o casi. Misma pieza, misma casa, misma novia. Volvi a estudiar lo que me gusta, en un lugar mejor, me siento mejor ahi.

Engorde unos siete o diez kilos, me deje crecer el pelo, ahora me llega mas abajo de los hombros. Viaje. Comparti, vivi... Arequipa, Lima, Santiago, Valdivia. Hice nuevos amigos, hice compañeros.

En momentos asi me gustaria ser mejor novio. Una mejor persona para ella, que no tenga que preocuparse conmigo y que no me ayude al yo ser inutil en ciertas cosas.

Me gustaria ser mejor amigo, no tan frio, no tan serio, no tan payaso. Mas emocional. Tambien me gustaria saber de aquellos que ya no se, intento hablar pero la conversación no sigue. Supongo que todos cambiamos

Debe ser por esa sensación de inseguirad al saber que estas en toque de queda. Injustificado, innecesario. Todo mi pais, Chile, esta asi en ese momento. Quiza quiero deja un registro de mi, por si me llega a pasar algo. No lo creo, pero nunca esta de más.

No fui a ninguna marcha, a ningun movimiento. Siendo asmatico me autoprohibo cosas para no molestar, ademas de sentido comun. Quisiera luchar, quisiera ser parte. Quiero ser alguien.

Quiza por eso escribo esto durante 15 minutos, ya son las 3:46. Hay un silencio molesto, no hay autos, no hay ruido, nada. Quiza simplemente tengo miedo. Miedo estupido de que una bala pase por la pared. Miedo de que esto no termine. Miedo de no saber que hacer. Miedo. Siempre he tenido miedo.

3:52 am. Y sigo con miedo. No hay ruido, solo silencio. Horrible silencio, solo mi tecleo y mi respiración. Quiero que esto termine, no quierro tener miedo porque un milico esta en calle.

acapellainferno

“DIGNITY”: Chile has had enough

We’re not protesting because of the subway ticket price (”it’s not 30 pesos, it’s 30 years!” as we scream in the streets), that only was the last straw:

We’ve been feeling anger and humiliation for years, and last week, the “pressure cooker” finally exploted thanks to this rise in the price for subway tickets, which made high schoolers around the city say “nah fuck this” and deciding not to pay the subway anymore under the motto “Evade! Do not pay! (it’s) another way to fight!”

Little by little, the university students and adults (even the elderly) joined the cause, to the point the capital stopped working normally, and due to the government’s ineffectiveness in handling the situation, we ended up in this chaos.

This has no political party, this has no leader: This is an act of dignity.

Years of hoping the government will do something for: The education system (you only get good education if you have money), healthcare system (people die waiting for attention everyday in the public hospitals, in some, there is not even enough medicine or doctors), public transport system (expensive, terrible service), the rise in water and electricity bills (yes, they’re private!!!), pensions (old people commit suicide because they have no money to live, or worse, have some, but the pension system (AFPs) won’t give them THEIR OWN MONEY BACK WHEN IN NEED), collusions, corruption (our president is a thief and the rest of the politicians as well… and they want us to pay those expensive tickets without even explaining to us why did they rise it? they can fuck off), the indigenous people being mistreated and even murdered by police, the murder of activists, poverty, drugs, etc… and nothing, in fact, for years it has feel like they’ve been making fun of all of us.

They’re absolutely disconnected from the reality of the rest of the country. It’s as if there were two countries in one.

And now, our president said we “were at war“.

The same thing Pinochet used to said back in the 70s/80s.

The military is on the streets right now, there is a curfew in many parts of the country (which hundreds of people are not respecting, protesting even harder on the streets in those dangerous hours).

All while there is not public transportation, because many of the subway’s station were set on fire (to make it worse, there are serious suspicions (videos) that the fires were made by the police).

This shit is terrifying.

But we won’t stop: “We’re the children of the workers they couldn’t kill”

Please support the people in Chile!

acapellainferno

“DIGNITY”: Chile has had enough

We’re not protesting because of the subway ticket price (”it’s not 30 pesos, it’s 30 years!” as we scream in the streets), that only was the last straw:

We’ve been feeling anger and humiliation for years, and last week, the “pressure cooker” finally exploted thanks to this rise in the price for subway tickets, which made high schoolers around the city say “nah fuck this” and deciding not to pay the subway anymore under the motto “Evade! Do not pay! (it’s) another way to fight!”

Little by little, the university students and adults (even the elderly) joined the cause, to the point the capital stopped working normally, and due to the government’s ineffectiveness in handling the situation, we ended up in this chaos.

This has no political party, this has no leader: This is an act of dignity.

Years of hoping the government will do something for: The education system (you only get good education if you have money), healthcare system (people die waiting for attention everyday in the public hospitals, in some, there is not even enough medicine or doctors), public transport system (expensive, terrible service), the rise in water and electricity bills (yes, they’re private!!!), pensions (old people commit suicide because they have no money to live, or worse, have some, but the pension system (AFPs) won’t give them THEIR OWN MONEY BACK WHEN IN NEED), collusions, corruption (our president is a thief and the rest of the politicians as well… and they want us to pay those expensive tickets without even explaining to us why did they rise it? they can fuck off), the indigenous people being mistreated and even murdered by police, the murder of activists, poverty, drugs, etc… and nothing, in fact, for years it has feel like they’ve been making fun of all of us.

They’re absolutely disconnected from the reality of the rest of the country. It’s as if there were two countries in one.

And now, our president said we “were at war“.

The same thing Pinochet used to said back in the 70s/80s.

The military is on the streets right now, there is a curfew in many parts of the country (which hundreds of people are not respecting, protesting even harder on the streets in those dangerous hours).

All while there is not public transportation, because many of the subway’s station were set on fire (to make it worse, there are serious suspicions (videos) that the fires were made by the police).

This shit is terrifying.

But we won’t stop: “We’re the children of the workers they couldn’t kill”

Please support the people in Chile!

acapellainferno

“DIGNITY”: Chile has had enough

We’re not protesting because of the subway ticket price (”it’s not 30 pesos, it’s 30 years!” as we scream in the streets), that only was the last straw:

We’ve been feeling anger and humiliation for years, and last week, the “pressure cooker” finally exploted thanks to this rise in the price for subway tickets, which made high schoolers around the city say “nah fuck this” and deciding not to pay the subway anymore under the motto “Evade! Do not pay! (it’s) another way to fight!”

Little by little, the university students and adults (even the elderly) joined the cause, to the point the capital stopped working normally, and due to the government’s ineffectiveness in handling the situation, we ended up in this chaos.

This has no political party, this has no leader: This is an act of dignity.

Years of hoping the government will do something for: The education system (you only get good education if you have money), healthcare system (people die waiting for attention everyday in the public hospitals, in some, there is not even enough medicine or doctors), public transport system (expensive, terrible service), the rise in water and electricity bills (yes, they’re private!!!), pensions (old people commit suicide because they have no money to live, or worse, have some, but the pension system (AFPs) won’t give them THEIR OWN MONEY BACK WHEN IN NEED), collusions, corruption (our president is a thief and the rest of the politicians as well… and they want us to pay those expensive tickets without even explaining to us why did they rise it? they can fuck off), the indigenous people being mistreated and even murdered by police, the murder of activists, poverty, drugs, etc… and nothing, in fact, for years it has feel like they’ve been making fun of all of us.

They’re absolutely disconnected from the reality of the rest of the country. It’s as if there were two countries in one.

And now, our president said we “were at war“.

The same thing Pinochet used to said back in the 70s/80s.

The military is on the streets right now, there is a curfew in many parts of the country (which hundreds of people are not respecting, protesting even harder on the streets in those dangerous hours).

All while there is not public transportation, because many of the subway’s station were set on fire (to make it worse, there are serious suspicions (videos) that the fires were made by the police).

This shit is terrifying.

But we won’t stop: “We’re the children of the workers they couldn’t kill”

Please support the people in Chile!