I am so fucking tired

here you can find all of my socially unacceptable hyperfixations and general brain dumps ..... peace out

[cerceos-deactivated20160308]

[guooey]

time spent together is never wasted

[grief-seed]

[elke369]

Some parts in my mind have you frozen in time.

[elke369]

[elke369]

And everyone said im so sorry you feel this way.

But nobody said.. "im sorry i was wrong i should have never told you what to do"

Nobody said "you were right all along"

I dont care that you are sorry... im sorry too, im sorry for listening to people who told me i was dumb who kept second guessing me when my whole being said "dont do this you'll be unhappy for the rest of your life" but i trusted people who told me i was young and stupid... but now im here living someone elses decisions that were made and well i cant sleep at night and nothing feels right and dont remember what i even ever wanted.

[especially]

[elke369]

Oh my god its over im late in life for everything ill never catch up... look at them they have it all figured out im done for i messed up i wasted everything. oh wait i just received too much info that i processed with a wrong side of my brain. Great info. Could use it but ill just dump it coz its causing me anxiety. Wait thats not right... wait im stuck.

[elke369]

Oh... mood crash

[recaption]

[recaption]

[elke369]

And as i feel my heart beat it seems to be the only thing real. Everyone is gone. Nobody was here. And if they were they lied about wanting to be here and nobody can convince me otherwise. Its just me and this stubborn heartbeat

[neckkiss]

via weheartit

[vintage-hoes]

[elke369]

Remember?

when you made me promise not to change?

I havent... i still havent.

No matter what happened

the bad

the ugly

i still havent changed..

you tho... you were never even good...

you just put on a great act...

sometimes i struggle reacting to these cruel acts, but then

i Remember the person i loved and how he told me not to change.

I believed you when you told me

i was everything good in the world

and i stayed everything good

just without you now.

Its been hard

its been so hard...

But i believe in myself the way i believed your words once.

[elke369]

Tomorrow running through my head has ruined every present ive ever had

[minuty]

“Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on.”

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