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a space for random thoughts, rants and self-expression. yup. self-expression.

[elle-hcar]

don’t be emotional, rach. use logic. be objective.

[elle-hcar]

looking through posts almost four years ago. questioning why i put myself through this time after time. why does he not learn?

why do i not learn?

[elle-hcar]

am i going crazy?

[90377]

大雪山/Dasyueshan by cosa2025

[elle-hcar]

i started with a determinedly stout heart, but in spite of my resolutions, it weakened somewhat when darkness fell.

- The Chrysalids // John Wyndham

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[elle-hcar]

maybe it’s time i stop caring

[amargedom]

“The greatest gifts you can give someone is your time, your attention, your love, and your concern.”

— Joel Osteen

[sad-house-of-mortality]

klaudia wegrzyn - be.tween.time.

[quotemadness]

“I wanted to close my eyes and let the silence swallow me whole.”

— Benjamin Alire Sáenz (via quotemadness)

[daydreaming-wildflower]

“Don’t you think it would be wonderful to get rid of everything and everybody and just go some place where you don’t know a soul?”

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

[tackled]

[elle-hcar]

drinking to attract. drinking to avoid. drinking for all the wrong reasons.

[elle-hcar]

“this means we can’t meet on weekdays”

“this means we can’t go out anymore”

“this means we can only spend $20 a month”

why are we always the one you give up on?

[knowing]

[elle-hcar]

it was an unproductive day today.

had five tasks to tackle, but only one item was checked off the list when the work day ended.

it is not the first for me; being unable to complete my to-do-list. yet, today feels extra draining.

sitting here, listening to The Flood by Joshua Hyslop, i realised it is because i spent the day being afraid.

afraid to fail, to lose out, to disappoint.

today, no matter what i do, it will not be enough.

[elle-hcar]

you should have said no

but you caved in

due to lust

due to greed