Elliott Jacobson

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“What else would you describe it as?” He questioned the other before shaking his head, “I’m really not regretting anything, no. It was a good idea to take things forward with the two of us, onward and upwards.” James didn’t want to think about the future, about him growing old and the other staying the same, not looking any older then he did right now. About him dying and the other continuing to live on and move on, those thoughts would cause him to overthink and re-evaluate their whole relationship. “I did not pout you into being my boyfriend, that is a lie.” He accused the other, pointing his finger in his face before prodding him lightly in the chest. “When someone activates something that could kill your boyfriend, you run. Even if you do normally hate to run.”

“You know, you always were a cute drunk.” Elliott mused when he felt the finger prodding at him. There had been many an occasion where the other had gone out drinking and ended up back at his place, wanting him to make him something that would take away the pain the the morning and gushing over certain things when he was drunk or just simply telling about his conquests that night. He was mostly always happy though and it had always amused him. Most drunks he didn’t find half as tolerable. “I’m a survivor James, I always have been. I won’t go down easily but I am very appreciative that your first thought was for my safety.” Elliott let his fingers brush through the others hair.

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jcmescshcroft:

“And yet it’s not going to get me to stop, he knew this when he became my parabatai. He knew what I was like and has known for a long time now, he’s just going to have to get used to it and it’s not like he’s there with us- it’s just a small feeling of being… content, I guess.” A rush of emotion when they had finished, that would be what the other could feel, it’s not that they could feel all their emotions all the time, just when they were strong and even then it was somewhat fleeting. “I’m pretty sure I charmed you into being my boyfriend and I do not whine, I’m very nice to you. I mean, I did run across town from a battle to make sure you were safe, number one boyfriend over here or what.”

“Content hm?” Elliott commented, a little smile on his lips. “So I assume you are not regretting the direction you decided to take our relationship in?” There was always that possibility after all, despite how Elliott hoped that would never be an issue for them. As it was, for him there would be harder hurdles to overcome in the future so he just wanted to enjoy this and relish it on a day to day basis. “I think you pouted me into being your boyfriend.” He corrected, laughing. “Though the run across town was admittedly impressive.”

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“He’s fine, he deals with it really well and hey I give him things he needs. Aka, when we have sex he can kind of - sense it and he’s not getting any, so I feel like we’re doing him a favour.” James shook his head when the other asked if this was him charming him, because it wasn’t. “You should know by now that this isn’t me charming you, if I was charming you- you wouldn’t be able to keep your hands off me.”

Elliott laughed a little at that. “I actually think that’s more mean than it is doing him a favor James.” He pointed out, a smile on his lips. “And I can’t remember the last time you charmed me. Normally you whine until you get sex which isn’t the same thing really.”

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James was already pouting at the other, moving his face close to the others before pressing a kiss to his lips, “Please don’t leave me when I’m hungover, I promise I won’t blame you. I’ll blame Cameron instead, even if he isn’t here.” He told the other, resting his forehead against the others for a moment. “But you’re a downworlder, so technically me being here charming you, counts. Plus I did want to spend time with you.”

Elliott accepted the kiss without complaint, smiling at the others words. “I’ll think about it. Poor Cameron though... He always gets the brunt end of your grumpiness.” Not that the other seemed to ever be bothered about it. Cameron always seemed quite calm and good natured when James got like that. “Is this you charming me? I think it needs a little work babe.” Though he’d spend time with James if that was what he wanted.

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“You wouldn’t leave me in my time of need, you’d want to but I know how to work you. I know all it takes is the big brown puppy dog eyes and the pout and you’re done for. I’m irresistible to you.” Though he knew that Elliott was more than capable of saying no to him, he had on many occasions, normally when it came to James wanting things such as animals. “People shouldn’t be left alone when they’re ill, it’s just mean.” James looked at the other and then used his hands to gesture to his body, “Come on, look at me, why wouldn’t they love me. I’m freaking hot and adorable and a great dancer. Plus I’m very, very charming.”

Elliott rolled his eyes fondly at that because what else could he do. James was very opinionated about things even when he was wrong. Sometimes it was better to let the man just blow out all his hot air since a lot of the time, that was what it was. “Your illness would be self inflicted so I hate to say it but you deserve the outcome lovely.” He told his boyfriend, laughing when the young man listed some of his positive traits. “I think you should go and charm them then. No point wasting your time here.”

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“Ah shit, you know it’s serious when the middle name comes out.” He chuckled, appreciating hearing it every now and again because it had been his grandfathers name and to have it as part as his own was special. “It wasn’t that big of an insult, I mean I’ll probably blame you a lot more tomorrow but that’s because I won’t want to blame myself.” He chuckled, laying his hands on the others shoulders since he could reach them with Elliott sitting down. “Yeah, you are pretty old.” He teased with a playful smile on his face, “I’ll let you in on a little secret.” He told the other, leaning in so he was by the warlocks ear, “I’m a hit with downworlders, they love me.” He spoke in a hushed tone before pulling back with a proud smile on his face. 

“You can blame it on me as much as you want but I’ll leave you to whine in solitude because I’m sure there are far more interesting things for me to do than listen to you complain about things I didn’t do.” He answered back with a smirk. “And we both know how much you hate being left alone when you are feeling unwell.” Because he could still recall the time he had to leave to do some work and James had pouted and refused to speak to him for the rest of the night unless it was to throw out a inappropriate and vulgar name in his direction. When he felt the others hands on his shoulders, the warlock raised an eyebrow calmly, smirking in amusement. “Oh?” He hummed, letting the other whisper in his ear. “A hit hm? Why do they love you?”

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jcmescshcroft:

“Some unfortunate passer by.” James commented, holding onto the other as he tried to steady himself, but it more or less just turned into him faceplanting into the others chest as he moved his hand through his hair. “No, I didn’t think I’d get this drunk this quick, but whatever they’re serving is strong. Then you went and mingled and I was left to my own devices, this is your fault.” He told the other, moving up off him so he could look at him instead, pointing accusingly at him.

“You wound me James Tyler Ashcroft. In the morning you will be dealing with hangover the way all humans and nephilim do... with aspirin and water since you feel it is necessary to insult your boyfriend in this manner tonight.” He teased, chuckling as the other seemed to have to peel himself off his chest. “What can I say; I am old enough to have made many friends. I can’t be rude and just ignore them. Besides, it looks to me like you didn’t need me around to have a good time.”

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“Shit. Fuck. Sorry.” James cursed, feeling himself barrel into the person beside him, “You’d think with all of these runes I’d be more graceful on my feet, apparently that is not the case.” He smirked, though his clumsiness may be due to the alcohol he had consumed. “Thanks for breaking my fall though.”

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“Who else is going to break your fall after all this alcohol hm?” Elliott asked, sounding amused as he straightened his boyfriend out, fingers carding through the others hair gently to tidy it up once more. “Is this why you brought me out with you? To be your safety net for the night?” He teasingly commented as he moved to sit back on the stool.

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“Alright, you keep your jewellery making a secret you warlock weirdo.” James teased, knowing that whatever Elliott gave him he would like, unless it resembled some sort of 90′s bling, then he’d have to politely decline, or put it in a drawer and claim he lost it to a demon. “No, I just think people might ask and I’ll tell them who gave me it and why. And I’m sure that tattoo would be so subtle and just blend right in.” James squirmed as the other started to poke him before nodding, “Yeah, company will be nice. You can clean the blood on my back, I got cut in between my shoulder blades and I can’t quite reach.”

“Warlock weirdo? That’s a charming thing to say to the man you love.” He told him with a smirk, giving James a bit of a push. “I’m sure whatever I give you, people will want to know where you got it. My taste in fashion and jewelry is cutting edge.” Elliott teased, letting an arm drape around the others shoulder. “I’ll take good care of you.” He always did and quite honestly, he enjoyed it.

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Isabelle let out a chuckle, “Is it that obvious?” she mused shaking her head. “It’s…the flu. Contrary to popular belief, Shadowhunters are susceptible to illness.“

“It is.” Perhaps more so to him than to most but then he was fairly old and he knew the signs. “Mhm... The flu.” The words were said with no conviction though. “I am aware they are but I wouldn’t say that it was to the flu.”

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Isabelle felt her hand shake as he tried to focus on her phone in front of her. She was attempting to sweat out the Yin Fen, by focusing on other things and staying in her room, but today was different. “What do you want? I’m busy. Well…I was busy before I got distracted with my phone.” She looked up. “What’s up?”

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“You look distracted but I wouldn’t have said with your phone.” Elliott commented in a direct manner, casting his eyes over the woman. “I don’t want to insult a pretty young woman but you are looking a little bit worse for wear.”

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“Well I wasn’t just going to sit around and do nothing when my family had been training me and my siblings to do this since the day we were able to hold a sword, I feel like not going out and doing my best would be letting them down.” James smiled sadly at his words, because sure he would like to make his family proud but he would rather have his family here with him, even if they were disappointed in them, because at least they were still around. “A necklace would probably be better.” He told the other, because he had runes on his wrists and he felt like a bracelet might get in the way of them when he needed to use them, whereas a necklace would mean there was no restriction. “Ah, so it’s to keep me safe and to let others know that I’ve got a boyfriend, I see how your mind works.” He teased the other before looking down at his clothes and his skin before nodding, “Yeah, a shower would probably be a good idea.”

“A necklace is what it shall be then. And I won’t show you it until it is complete.” Though he already had something in mind for the design. “So you want it to be a signal that you are taken too hm? Maybe I should just get ‘Property of Elliott Jacobson’ tattooed on you instead to add to all your runes.” He teased, poking him lightly. “Do you want company?”

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“Good, because I know I’m a little rusty and for a moment I decided to say fuck it to this whole job, but I’m getting back on the right track. I’m trying to be good, to be better, to be someone my father would be proud of. I want to keep my name alive despite being the last Ashcroft alive and the only way I can do that is through this. Being a Shadowhunter and being good at it.” He told the other, listening to his words and closing his eyes for a moment when the other pressed a small kiss to his forehead. He rose an eyebrow when the other asked if he could do one thing for him, nodding and letting the other continue. “Like a homing beacon?” He joked a little, an amused look on his face, “Sounds like something out of a movie, but yeah-.. yeah I’ll take something like that to use. Make it so I can wear it though, you know what I’m like for leaving things behind.” James shook his head when the other offered to go back to the Institute with him. “No-.. no, I don’t think that would be a good idea tonight. Not after what happened. I’ll stay, I’m sure they’ll be okay without me until tomorrow.”

“I have no doubt that you are a good Shadowhunter James, you have always put all your efforts into it where you could.” He told him with a little smile, brushing his fingers through the others hair. “And I am sure you would have made your family proud.” Of course, he knew that it probably wasn’t much comfort coming from him but he meant it never the less. The description of the device Elliott wanted to make for James made the warlock laugh out loud though and he shook his head. “I wouldn’t exactly describe it as that but if it makes it easier for you to envisage that way then I suppose I don’t have a problem with that. I was going to make it into either a bracelet or a necklace for you. Something practical and functional.” Because it needed to be something he would feel comfortable wearing all the time. “And then you will always have a gift from me you can wear.” He told him honestly. “As for the Institute, if you are not going tonight, let’s just settle in and relax. I think you need it but we do have to get you cleaned up first.”

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“I don’t want that to be the case either, I wouldn’t want that. I’m just- I’m scared and you should know more then anyone why that is, you know I don’t trust easily and that it took me a long time to let people into my life again. You have to know that this is hard for me, that I hate being scared all of the time- but being on the verge of terrified tonight. That’s something I never want to feel again.” He told the other, looking at him because Elliott was someone who knew him better then anyone, knew what he was like, how much guilt he felt, how he was far from confident despite how he acted and how he beat himself up on a daily basis. So he would know what this meant to him, know how he was struggling right now. “You need to know that I’ve got this, that even when I’m in my dark places I wouldn’t just give up. That I’m going to fight and that I’m going to come out winning in the end. You just have to trust that I’ll fight to be with you every day, okay?” James chuckled and shook his head, “I do, but I’m not exactly hungry right now and even though I should really go back-.. I don’t think I could leave you tonight.”

“I do know, of course I do.” He soothed softly, calming a little now that he felt more secure in the others presence. “And you know I never doubt your abilities. I suppose, like you said, despite knowing what we are capable of, we still will always worry about one another and our first thoughts will be with each others safety.” Elliott cupped James’ cheek and pressed his lips to the others forehead, keeping them there for a minute. “But I will trust your abilities. Can I ask one thing of you though James?” He gave the other a moment before continuing. “To put my mind at ease, I would like to make you something that you can use to call on me if the situation gets to that point where I need to come and help.” Elliott knew there was a chance that James might not agree to it but he felt it was a good compromise for the pair of them. “If you want, I could go back with you if you wanted to help out. Perhaps there is something there I can lend my hand to.”

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“I wasn’t born into this, I was made into this. I was trained to be this way and to fight because I am a solider of the Clave’s and even if I don’t agree with everything they say, this is my job.” James let out a frustrated noise as he ran his hands frantically through his hair, “This is why I should never have let myself fall into this with you, I shouldn’t have gotten attached because it leaves me here. It leaves me to be terrified about your well being and your location and your status and it takes away my better judgement. You and Cameron are sure to be my downfall.” And he didn’t meant that in a bad way, he would do anything for them and if he thought that either were in danger, his focus would shift and cost him his life. “It does, just- think before deciding to go to the place where your kind are being killed. Just- take a minute and be logical. Please.” He pleaded, because Elliott had to trust that he and every other Shadowhunter in that Institute had it under control and the minute he found out about the sword being activated, he should have stayed away. “I know that feeling.”

“Unfortunately that is the way that love makes you feel.” Elliott commented, because he’d been here before. At his age it would have been a surprise if he hadn’t. “And you know if you felt like you couldn’t handle this any more I would let you go if it was what you wanted. I don’t want that to be the case though.” Elliott didn’t ever want to let the other man go though. Their path was a difficult one and he knew their roles would cause many conflicts between them but he felt as though their paths were fated to cross from the very beginning. Their lives were entwined and always would be. “I will try to. It’s difficult not to go running when you’ve potentially been hurt though. Your life means more to me than my own.” He let his fingers brush through the others hair in a tender manner. “If you want, I’ll cook for you from scratch tonight. I know you complain about me using my magic far too often...”

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“It’s not your job to fight by my side, it’s not something you have to do and I’d rather you not put yourself in a position where you could get hurt. Especially when someone like Valentine is involved.” Because Elliott wasn’t getting paid for this, he was. Elliott’s job role wasn’t to be a shadowhunter, but his was. He made a choice to do this and he was going to keep doing it because it was the right thing to do. It’s what his family would have wanted from him. “This is different. I don’t wear these for fun-” He told the other pointing to his runes, “I had a choice and I made it and love can’t come in the way of this. It just-.. it can’t.” He spoke, though he knew that it always got in the way of his judgement, with pitted against saving a shadowhunter and Elliott, he would choose the latter every time. “I could have lost you tonight, I don’t think you understand the risk you took. Those downworlders are dead because they were trying to help us, they were helping and all they did was walk into a room to die. You could have been one of them- that’s how easily I could have lost you. Because someone thought it would be a great fucking idea to make a mortal instrument that could wipe out your entire existence- a instrument that is missing by the way. So this- this might not be over. I wasn’t in trouble, I was fine. I’m not weak, despite what others may think.” He told him, feeling the others lips on his own, feeling the desperation there and letting the other take what he needed because he understood. He understood that the other was probably scared but James needed him to understand that this wasn’t fun and games, this was serious and the other needed to think before putting himself into the firing line.

“No, it isn’t but it is my job to stand up for my own kind.” He reminded him. James needed to stop treating him like he was fragile. He was more powerful than the man in front of him knew but there had never been a need to show him that kind of side of him before. So far James had probably only had glimpses. “Being a Shadowhunter is something you are born into James. Just like I was born a warlock. Please don’t try to change the person I am just because you are worried about me. I’ve never tried to stop you being who you are.” Because there were concerns he had that came with the others role but he knew it was a fruitless task attempting to get James to stop being who he was. “But I will try to take more care if it comforts you a little.” That much he could offer the other man. “I know you’re not weak... It doesn’t stop me from worrying about you though. I think that may come with the territory.” 

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“I’m not a downworlder, Elliott. I wasn’t wiped out because some stupid sword was activated. I’m a shadowhunter, it’s my job to do this, to fight, to die in a fight is an honourable way to go for my kind.” He told the other, because it’s what they were taught from a young age and they weren’t supposed to be scared of dying, even if James was- sometimes. “You were an idiot in going there.” He told the other, because he was pissed off and scared and he wanted to hold on to Elliott and not let him go- but he also wanted to push him away because he couldn’t feel that kind of loss again. “I’m fine, I’ve got it.” He told him, flexing his hand and watching as his skin started to heal and the pain started to ebb away. “Better now that I have you in front of me-… I- I could have lost you. I can’t-.. I can’t fucking lose anyone else that I love, if I do… I don’t-.. I wouldn’t be able to do this anymore. I wouldn’t be able to continue through life, I wouldn’t be able to live or breathe and Cameron- he would lose half of himself because I couldn’t handle loss. So think about that next time you try to be a hero.”

“No, but you could have been wiped out because of him. I don’t care how honorable it is for a Shadowhunter to die James. Whilst I am alive, I will never let you fight alone.” Because there was no way he could sit back and allow harm to come to the boy knowing he might have been able to stop it. “To love someone is to care more about their life than your own. If you expect me to accept that from you then you need to get some perspective of your own too.” Hearing James calling him an idiot, Elliott gave a small sad laugh, stepping in close so he could stroke his fingers over the others cheek, just glad he could still do that. “You’re not going to lose me. You don’t get rid of me that easily and I hate to break it to you James but I’d do the same all over again if I heard you were in trouble. I’m not the type to sit around and watch, I never have been and you know that.” He let his lips drift down to capture James’, tasting him and smelling him, taking every part of the other man in. There was an almost desperate nature to the action, as if he needed to prove that this was all real. James wasn’t the only one who had dealt with loss in his life and was scared to go through it again.