i'm epic

i wanted to sleep forever; wake up later, maybe never

[mushfae]

[1o9]

[bichoso-deactivated20210809]

*starts thinking abt my gender for too long* *auaaaughhghh collapses and dies*

[elmekia]

[elmekia]

omg i love when tumblr shows me irl gore <3

[simena]

Valvat Louis

[elmekia]

sad

[elmekia]

have to remember putting needles in my skin on purpose is called self harm <3

[elmekia]

im sad i miss sav i bleed all over fabric every day and it doesnt sell my art doesnt sell no one wants what i have to offer no matter how many years pass ayn probably has tumors that my vet wont do anything about cuz shes old or i wont be able to afford it cuz surgery expensive i miss enjoying hobbies i miss my friends i miss my mommy i want energy to do things i want to enjoy playing piano i want to enjoy sewing i want to enjoy drawing but nothing is worth anything

[elmekia]

idk what to do no one has bought anything i alrerady can barely afford keeping my shop open i won’t be able to much longer i’m sitting here trying to make more things more variety and having trouble and my back and hands hurt and no one wants my shit no one wants my art or anything else i make why am i doomed like this <3

[exocomets]

[elmekia]

everyone in the world is fucking exhausting and insane i only know like 3 normal people 3 sane people i am so frustrated and exhausted i don’t know why i bother coming online when i know it’ll just upset me

[elmekia]

[elmekia]

i hate it here i hate the way i feel about things and the way i’m made to feel about things. bluntness and honesty are taken as attacks but what else am i supposed to do, lie? go back to lying to please people? sweet little lies that build up and put me into situations i don’t want to or have the energy to be in? no thanks! years i’ve been forced to comply with everyone else and discard my own comfort for the sake of being liked by others and now that i’ve stopped taking shit from people i’m a nuisance. well? i don’t care anymore. if my fight for my own comfort bothers you that bad then you just aren’t fit to be my friend because there’s nothing i can do for you. i always try to communicate when i have the words but when i get put down for being annoying then why should i see any point in it. i’m not going back to sucking up to people if someone pushes i’m pushing back and if that makes me a jerk then whatever!

[petersolarz]

Photography by Peter Solarz

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[elmekia]

i hate it here<3

[warmfuzzyphoto]