eloch

21 | she/her | french smoking lesbian (sinister way, not sexy way)

[eloch21]

starting an online theology class to spiral into religious psychosis properly

[eloch21]

pride month’s back, time to whore myself out unpaid to that same old good deeply disturbed and morally corrupted lesbian, as I do everyday of my fucking clown-ish life

[eloch21]

my all consuming yearning for salvation and absolution is surprisingly all consuming

[eloch21]

i think kneeling in a church with a hand on my head could heal me. or getting hit by a bus. or petting an aging , sad eyed dog. ok fine idk what could heal me

[eloch21]

my knees were sore and prayers came to my mind and i felt soiled and i felt holy

[eloch21]

sometimes i want to end it not out of despair but out of contentment. in an ive-seen-enough-beauty-and-misery-for-a-lifetime way. sometimes

[eloch21]

don’t leave me pleasepleaseplease i'll be good i'll be sooo good i swear to fucking god i can be good no wait dont touch me we're not that close wtf

[eloch21]

someone asked me for a movie with hugh dancy at my library, i started to shake and giggle, on the verge of rubbing my hands together. im sick of myself i swear

[eloch21]

while at work, a kid came to me and began reciting the apple store by memory. which stage of capitalism are we in for this scene to occur ? however great talent kiddo

[eloch21]

stunning how you have to display your most horrific traumatic experiences for people to show you some basic human empathy

[maxxie-or-smth]

she can hit me or hurt me or whatever she wants i just want her close to me again

[eloch21]

to be known is to be dragged through the mud

[maxxie-or-smth]

virgin mary giving birth to unrecognizable meat. raw, bloody, fresh; that's the real god

[eloch21]

god is soooo corrupt. embarrassing.

[eloch21]

did you just made a snuff movie with that poor book..? c’mon now, where is even the fucking cover

[eloch21]

THERE ARE BITE MARKS ON THE PAGES WHAT NOW there's fear in my colleague's eyes, she's an old lady, you cannot come here and scare her like that!!

[eloch21]

we cant even get rid of the body right away, we have to wait for the next weeding. things are gettin morbid at your local public library i swear

[eloch21]

did you just made a snuff movie with that poor book..? c’mon now, where is even the fucking cover

[eloch21]

THERE ARE BITE MARKS ON THE PAGES WHAT NOW there's fear in my colleague's eyes, she's an old lady, you cannot come here and scare her like that!!

[eloch21]

did you just made a snuff movie with that poor book..? c’mon now, where is even the fucking cover