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I like being tired and ready to sleep at midnight for once instead of 6am but I feel too anxious and panic when I can feel myself drifting off because I'm worried about breathing.... like I think I'm gonna not remember how to breath in my sleep? My brain is Dumb please STOP BEING LIKE THIS

astrolocherry

The Sun’s favourite place: Leo (ego creativity) and Aries (ego demonstration) Least favourite: Libra (unity) and Aquarius (humanity)

The Moon’s favourite place: Cancer (mother goddess) and Taurus (mother earth) Least favourite: Scorpio (frightening emotion) and Capricorn (invalidates own emotion)

Mercury’s favourite place: Gemini (flexible intellect) Virgo (detailed execution) Least favourite: Pisces (too irrational)

Venus’ favourite place: Taurus (natural artist), Libra (relationship), and Pisces (universal lover) Least favourite: Scorpio (too intense for Aphrodite), Aries (’me’ trying to be ‘we’), and Virgo (difficulty generating self love)

Mars’ favourite place: Aries (vessel of impulse and energy), Scorpio (internalised passion) and Capricorn (focused determination) Least favourite: Libra (lacks assertion) and Cancer (too emotional)

Jupiter’s favourite place: Sagittarius (active philosopher) Pisces (spiritual guru), Cancer (internal pilgrim) Least favourite: Gemini (trouble coalescing the big picture)

Saturn’s favourite place: Capricorn (diligence and resilience) Libra (law and morality) Aquarius (incisive collective responsibility) Least favourite: Cancer (too sensitive for the critical adult) Aries (too childish and reckless)

Uranus’ favourite place: Aquarius (humanitarian utopianism) Least favourite: Leo (ego/self)

Neptune’s favourite place: Pisces (the dreamer of dreams) Least favourite: Virgo (logic and rationale)

Pluto’s favourite: Scorpio (spiritually resourceful) Least favourite: Taurus (attached to material)

-C.

elonmelon

My moon is in Scorpio and my Venus in Aries lol 😡I blame all my problems on my moon being in scorpio . When will my emotions not be too much to deal with

Lying in bed unable to sleep cos I can’t sleep anyway what’s new but also considering turning the light on and hacking away at my hair so I can salvage something of it to make me feel better about myself so I don’t feel like crap for the next two months while it grows back (which I will… It looks bad!)

I look well nice here lol shame I DONT LOOK NICE ANYMORE

Two days in the past week I've got ready to go out and been feelin myself but then didn't go out lol

my whole existence so far has been a mission to make the best impression on everyone and have EVERYONE like me, never do anything that could show signs of emotional vulnerability, and attend all possible fun events so i don’t miss out on making new successful interactions/showing people i’m not as bad as i was last time(which is the case most of the time, because i always think i fucked up somehow), and avoid getting close to people because i don’t want to resent them when i know the bad sides to their personalities. this all takes time, money, energy , emotional strain etc and it’s impossible! each year i’ve have thoughts like ‘once i’m past 18 i’ll be more stable’, ‘once i’ve found a solid group of friends i won’t care anymore’ ‘once i’ve had more experience with relationships i won’t fuck it up all the time’ ‘i don’t feel anxious or embarrassed about what i said last night and am happy so i must be completely over this worry’ ‘i’ve had a happy 3 weeks’........yet i’m here thinking nothings changed and i’m 19 , supposedly starting uni in a matter of weeks, still regretting everything i’ve ever said and done, still avoiding close friendship . still pretty much same old me/a WORSE me because now i don’t have the determination to do well at college that i had (my brain has done nothing academic for a year) which gave me some hope that i’d also be able to work hard at improving other aspects of my life and succeed in them, like i did academically

#doesnt make much sense #hell oagain tumblr #probably goodbye again lol

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elonmelon

I don't think I've ever admitted I'm wrong in my entire life

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yourkinkisnasty

alcohol culture is so wild…people all over fb will be sharing a meme like “i can’t have just one glass of wine, it’s always 2 bottles and 3 people i can never look in the eye again” as if that’s normal? but if a meme like that was going around about cocaine or any other drug, everyone would be like “sounds like a drug problem bruh”

alcoholism is SO normalized and it’s such a toxic environment honestly

protegeofabratzdoll-deactivated

It’s crazy !!!

stardustcrusader

yeah i think a huge issue w alcohol culture is not peer pressure, but peer normalization.

like people just dont realize that binge drinking, or even just having alcohol frequently can constitute as having an alcohol problem bc its viewed as being fun or just part of also party culture when in reality its really not and is super damaging to your body, your relationships, and is a super poor coping mechanism

excelsors

i’m a recovering alcoholic with almost 18 months sober and i’ve just recently gone back to college after dropping out two years ago because of my drinking/drug problem. in the past six weeks, i started keeping count of when i heard classmates and even professors mention binge-drinking and it’s at least three times a week. not just drinking, getting trashed or blacked out. it’s terrifying to know that many people (especially on a college campus) see this as normal, not just for the sake of my sobriety, but for the sake of their health. excessive alcohol use absolutely destroyed my life and the lives of many of my friends and loved ones. i started drinking alcoholically in college and no one even batted an eye. no one said anything because i was in college and that’s what college kids do. no one said anything until i almost died. there’s a difference between having a few drinks and getting trashed every time you drink. it’s a life-threatening difference and the fact that it’s normalized puts a lot of people at risk. alcoholism kills easily and often, don’t normalize a path to death.

#hmmmm #food 4 thought