uncontrolled altitude.

semi-au. literate. more or less sfw. selective.

[elvidercni]

heyahe he he

can’t believe you’ve been gone for over 2 weeks now again. you remind me of the planet girl. should i go disappearing too? is it fun?

[elvidercni]

i hope you're doing okay.

thanks, stranger. i am doing better these days. i hope the same for you too, whoever you are.

[kyungsoomd]

✉ Hyuntae. 

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starter for 'la douleur exquise' // sad, suffering boys thread. go go go

those word stock prompt things: accepting?

what happens when you meet your soul mate at the wrong time? what happens when you meet your soul mate but you aren’t theirs?

a part of him was connected to hers, a part that others never feel. in return, he had seen a part of her soul that she didn’t want to let out the bag. those moments, she was more real than the blood in his own veins, and he felt her like the beating of his own heart. the bond forged was still molten when she pulled away, too nascent to resist her urge to hide once more. he called for her, held out his hands, and let his face become wet with untold manly tears, but she could not return.

this time, the sad suffering boys shared vulnerabilities more readily than yu-gi-oh trading cards, interlocking their hearts as much as their… stories in a very, very heterosexual way. hyuntae wasn’t one for pouring his heart out but lately, he had been shamelessly doing it and excusing it for his three am self talking even if conversations sometimes happened in the middle of the day. which was exactly this moment with jaehyung who he only really knew by association with minho.

in high school, a classmate of hyuntae told him about the big oak tree in his backyard when he was growing up. one day, his older brother climbed way up into its branches and then called for him to come over. happy that his bigger brother wanted to include him in the activity, he ran over as quickly as he could. as he gazed up, his brother peed down on him from above.

hyuntae isn’t a dick but anyone wouldn’t be able to hold in a laughter hearing a story like that. but for him, it wasn’t simply because of his misfortune. instead, the thought of him standing there, wide-eyed, and then realizing he’d been tricked surely reminded hyuntae of a similar incident of his own. experience is a wonderful teacher, and he had learned his own lessons about gullibility. in the years that passed, that classmate became one of his best friends, and he suspects that the story he shared, along with similar ones he told in return,had something to do with it.

telling stories build empathy and also why, when you tell a good one, people act as if they’re watching it unfold before them. maybe the current conversation was similar to that, except it’s two similar heartbreaks taking the same roots in them. “it’s high time we move on.” was easy to say but hyuntae wasn’t one to talk. for him, it’s been three years of grieving her departure and up to this day, he was still hoping she would come back. he laughs at himself, realizing how silly his advice was. “i can’t even do that though, forreal. you do it first, then share you success story to me so i can have it as motivation and follow. how’s it?”

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walwalün

those word stock prompt things: accepting?

in the movies, drowning is always depicted as loud and splashy. someone yells and waves their arms, they dip below the waves and come up in a dramatic fashion while those on shore scramble to their rescue. reality shows you the total opposite. drowning is quiet. movements are subtle and they rarely make any noise at all. one minute their head is bobbing above the water and then it is gone. if you’re not any good at “spot-the-difference” then being a lifeguard? you’d have to let go of the dream. it isn’t the job for you. someone can go in the time it takes you to check a text. 

last summer, two men, young, twenty something, more bravado than sense was lost in an encounter with the sea. of course, hyuntae wasn’t there when lifeguards pulled their lifeless bodies up the sand, water-logged, and blue. naturally he didn’t know, and no one told our guy that there’s nothing macho about drowning. no one instructed him to always tie a float to his leg when he swims out, so it would give him something to hold onto if he gets a cramp.

the first time his head bobbed beneath the waves, he wasn’t worried. he had gone diving before and wasn’t scared of a little water over his head. after only a few more seconds more, an estimate of thirty, he was sinking again, legs tired and struggling to bring him back to the sun-speckled surface. he couldn’t hear the music and chatter from the beach shore anymore. he didn’t even have that much hair but however much he has rose like seaweed upwards, rippling in the currents. with enough force, he broke surface again, gulping at the summer air. but with barely a splash, he goes under. that time he sunk faster and the panic had his heart hammering against his ribs. 

when he could no longer hold his breath, the cold water rushes in. soon the oxygen deprivation takes all illusions of surviving away along with his thoughts. the last of it was ‘the end is nigh’ and the water sputters and bubbles, leaving him close to unconscious. all until a wave of more water sways him, followed by warmth enveloping his body that had gone cold. then there were hands, arms, and if his head wasn’t pounding, if every cell in his body wasn’t screaming for oxygen, he would have recognized that this was his savior instead of thinking this was the thing threatening to swallow him whole. either way, he was as dead as a doornail to fight off of this hold. and good thing he doesn’t, because there wouldn’t have been any other way to come back from the incident.

[elvidercni]

You say #idiots but what you really mean is #lovers

you know i told someone that you really are my husband. are you satisfied?

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wordstuck.co.vu Prompts

Send one (+ a character if you'd like) and I'll write a drabble based on the word, or add 'starter' in and I'll do a starter for our characters based on the word(s).

la douleur exquise: The exquisite pain of wanting the affection of someone you know you can never have.

wanderlust: A strong desire for or impulse to wander or travel and explore the world.

dēsīderium: An ardent desire of longing, particularly for something once had; grief for the absence of loss of something or someone.

pikit mata: 'with eyes closed'; how you accepted the fact of something against your desires must be done.

sigurista: Someone who makes sure that everything goes as planned; the kind of person who will not act unless he totally feels sure that the desired result would be obtained.

velleity: A wish or desire to see something done, but nit enough will to make it happen or actions meant to pursue it.

sehnsucht: 'the inconsolable longing in the human heart for we know not what'; a high degree of intense, recurring, and often painful desire for something, particularly if there's no hope to attain the desired or when its attainment is uncertain, still far away.

koi no yokan: 'premonition of love'; the sense one can get upon first meeting another person that the two of them are going to falling love. This differs from the idea 'love at first sight' in that it does not imply that the feeling of love exists, rather refers to the knowledge that a future love is possible.

meraki: to do something with soul, creativity, or love; to put something of yourself into your work.

mamihlapinatapei: the wordless, yet meaningful look shared by two people who both desire to initiate something but are both reluctant to start.

forelsket: the euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love.

geborgenheit: to feel completely safe, like nothing could ever harm you; security, comfort, trust, satisfaction, acceptance and love from others.

ya’aburnee: 'you bury me'; a declaration of one's hope that they'll die before another person because of how difficult it would be to live without them.

augenblick: 'in the blink of an eye'; a 'decisive moment' in time that is fleeting, yet momentously eventful and incredibly significant.

herzschmerz: heartache; an emotional pain in the heart.

retrouvailles: the happiness of meeting or finding someone again after a long separation.

einfühlungsvermögen: a deep understanding of someone's feelings, thoughts and motives that are easily comprehended by yourself.

serendipity: the luck that takes the form of discovering valuable or pleasant things that are not looked for or while looking for something else.

ichigo ichie: 'one time, one meeting'; and encounter that only happens once in a lifetime, reminding to treasure every moment, for it will never recur.

saudade: a deep, nostalgic, and melancholic longing for something or someone, often accompanied with denied fact that what one longs for will never come back.

cwtch: a warm, affectionate hug, cuddle or snuggle that gives a feeling of a safe place or home.

kilig: the delightful feeling that sends shivers of pleasure down the spine as one encounters something romantic.

liefdesverdriet: the sadness, depression or pain one feels about a love unanswered or love that is gone.

elmosolyodni: to slowly break out into a genuine smile when being overcome with emotions, like love or utter happiness.

pluviphile: a lover of rain; someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days.

kalverliefde: the temporary affection and infatuation usually experienced by two people in love.

torpe: the-quality of, usually a young male, being to shy to pursue amorous desires to someone adored.

mélomanie: an excessive and abnormal love and deep attraction to music and melody.

nyctophilia: love of darkness or night; finding relaxation or comfort in the darkness.

yuánfèn: a relationship brought by fate or destiny; the binding force which eventually links two people together in love.

lǎotóng: 'old same'; a form of eternal friendship between "heart sisters" – two women who are closer than husband and wife.

b'shert: 'destiny'; the seeking if a person who will complement you, and whom you will complement perfectly.

oodal: the sulking or fake anger occurring between couple after a lovers tiff, usually over something inconsequential – a feeling recognized to be a facet of love or affection.

vuslat: a union or reunion after being apart for a long time with one's beloved.

pacalai: 'lovesick pallor'; the pale complexion of a women suffering the loss of or separation from her husband or lover.

redamancy: a love returned in full; the act of loving the one who loves you.

thuong: to love tenderly – a deep and sincere notion of fondness and care between family members, friends, or lovers.

amor vincit omnia: 'love conquers all'

kaiho: a hopeless longing – an involuntary solitude in which one feels incompleteness and yearns for something unattainable or extremely difficult and tedious to attain.

euneirophrenia: a peace of mind that comes from having pleasant dreams.

boketto: to gaze vacantly into the distance without thinking or doing anything.

luchtkasteel: 'air castle'; a wish or dream one hopes to fulfill in the future, yet will never be achieved, as it is so vast, immense and unlikely.

gumusservi: the light of the moon as it shines upon the water.

aamukaste: morning dew.

murr-ma: to walk along in the water searching for something with your feet.

tükörsima: 'as smooth as the-surface of the mirror'; describes a still water which has unbroken surface, neither by wind nor by some object or animal.

aranyhíd: 'golden bridge'; the reflection of the sun as it shines upon the water.

walwalün: the sound that a flowing water makes.

ruska: the phenomenon of leaves turning various shades of red, yellow, purple and brown during the autumn season.

psithurism: the sound of the leaves rustling as the wind blows through the trees.

şafak: the first skylight seen during dawn or just before the sun rise.

yeoubi: 'fox rain'; a sun shower – the event of having a light rain while the sun is still shinning.

madrugada: the moment at dawn when the night greets the day.

[kushandwizdom]

In religion we call it spirits. In science we call it energy. In the streets we call it vibes. All I'm saying is trust it.

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his heartbreak is grief that comes in waves, grueling, stealing appetite and sleep alike. it is a shard in his gut that never leaves. perhaps in time the edges will dull but at this time, it feels like death just the same as bereavement and in quiet moments it chokes the breath from his body and short circuits his mind. this is his best, it is all that is left of once a proud and strong soul - fragments on the floor, scared that the next wind will blow them away.

his mind cycles through emotions faster than a kid flipping through radio channels. he’s gone from level to rocky, fighting a mixture of competing emotions, each of them vying for dominance. after the reboot of sleep, he is calm, the day stretching ahead with possibilities; time to get jobs done, connect with friends, enjoy nature. yet the coping is a thin veil over trauma and even the smallest of setbacks change his emotional landscape. it didn’t help that the father figure that held him in such dark times had also left. 

by evening the sadness wells up, uncertainty rushing to the fore, and he knows it is time to sleep. how the crazy dreams stitch his head back together, he doesn’t have a clue; it's a new miracle every night.

[hyaudace-blog]

Today Yesterday  misshyeona ( aka hynahya aka hyunniah ) has reached one year. One full year, honestly. I can’t recall the last time I spent this much time on a muse without even one hiatus. Hyuna’s been a constant since January 6th 2016 to now and may I say why that is? It’s every single muses out there who’ve come, stayed, drifted, or stuck with her this whole year. I honestly think she wouldn’t have come this far if not for everyone else’s muses. I started her as just a way to get to know the idol herself. I mean let me be honest my bias in 4minute is Jiyoon but all I knew then was that Hyuna was damn adorable and a true menace on stage ( and her instagram is so on point ). I’ve grown with her as a muse from what I could learn from her while learning about the idol. I have also grown to seriously love the real Hyuna so damn much with this. I am thankful, happy and hopeful that this year will bring even more than the last one has. Whether it be unhappy moments, disappointments, discontentment, worry, doubts, happiness, glory, laughter, pride, joy and love, love, lots of love. 

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“overall, november is about you. it's your time of being selfish. the beginning of the month, aquarius is detached and to themselves, aloof, and distant to others. this month you're finding out what really makes you happy, who makes you happy and who doesn't. having enough of something, a situation, a person. middle of the month, a big shift happens. the locks are falling away. the second of the month is good. lots of blessings at the end of november, beginning of december. life is truly changing for the better. possibly getting a good job or a new relationship. expanding or assessing your options. making a decision and change on your own behalf about a relationship that isn't what you want. realizing that you deserve more. withdrawing emotionally before physically withdrawing. having the willpower to move on and leave something behind. focusing on other things. feeling like yourself again and finding yourself again.”

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repost and bold which lines of famous poetry apply to your muse.

i saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked. // tyger tyger, burning bright // i have done it again. // do not go gentle into that good night. // the sea is calm to-night. // let us go then, you and i, // april is the cruelest month. // pretty women wonder where my secret lies. // there is a place where the sidewalk ends. // i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) // two roads diverged in a yellow wood. // whose woods these are i think i know, // let us twain walk aside from the rest. // once upon a midnight dreary, while i pondered, weak and weary, // i taught myself to live simply and wisely. // it so happens i am sick of being a man // i wandered lonely as a cloud // does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? // o my love is like a red, red rose. // o captain! my captain! our fearful trip is done; // out of the night that covers me // it was many and many a year ago // you may write me down in history // do not stand at my grave and weep // some say the world will end in fire // some say in ice. // hope is the thing with feathers // the wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees, // no man is an island, // remember me when i am gone away, // i met a traveler from an antique land // ‘twas brillig, and the slithy toves // this is thy hour o soul, // when we wear the mask that grins and lies, // death be not proud, // and death shall have no dominion. // laugh, and the world laughs with you; // the art of losing isn’t hard to master; // to see a world in a grain of sand // is there anybody there? said the traveller // nobody heard him, the dead man, // that crazed girl improving her music. // come to me in the silence of the night; // where the mind is without fear and the head is held high // when you are old and grey and full of sleep, // in flanders’ fields the poppies blow // i thought of you and how you love this beauty // life, believe, is not a dream // it may be misery not to sing at all, // if starry space no limit knows // come live with me and be my love, // had we but world enough and time, // my heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains my sense // bright star, would i were stedfast as thou art- // thou still unravish’d bride of quietness // how do i love thee? let me count the ways. // heaven is what i cannot reach! // my dear, my dear, i know // in visions of the dark night // shall i compare thee to a summers day? // break, break, break // she walks in beauty, // i had a dream, which was not at all a dream. // he clasps the ring with crooked hands.

thanks for tagging @consilian. tagging all of the followers who wants to do this.

[blytthe]

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anthracinus:

But remember this, Japanese boy… airplanes are not tools for war. They are not for making money. Airplanes are beautiful dreams. Engineers turn dreams into reality.

[jesuisunefemmejesuisperdue]

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Meliodas: Uh... hey, Ban, can I ask you a question?

Ban: Yeah.

Meliodas: Why are we laying on the ground?

Ban: You got knocked out, so I laid down next to you so people would just think we were chilling.

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so it begins, @prkjnny.

“s-u-g-a-r, jump into your racing car. say sugar rush! sugar rush!” laugh all you want, he doesn’t care. he’s going to shimmy along to his own singing and it’s the kind of singing where he emulates his voice into a higher pitch. it’s a female vocal, duh. “you know this song?”

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guilty vs innocent

rules: you can only say guilty or innocent. you are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you or asks you.

repost, don’t reblog!

tagged by: @motsenmi tagging:@marcabre @naysi @boniere @suerotonin @kyungsoomd @sshiruka @seoulvibin @91sjh @consilian @jengjinum

asked someone to marry you? innocent kissed one of your friends? guilty...? danced on a table in a bar/tavern? innocent ever told a lie? guilty had feelings for someone whom you can’t have? guilty ever kissed someone of the same sex? innocent kissed a picture? innocent slept in until 5pm? guilty fallen asleep at work/school? guilty held a snake? innocent been suspended from school? innocent worked at a fast food chain/restaurant? innocent stolen something? innocent been fired from a job? innocent done something you regret? guilty laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose? guilty caught a snowflake on your tongue? innocent kissed in the rain? innocent sat on a roof top? guilty kissed someone you shouldn’t? guilty...? sang in the shower? guilty been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? guilty shaved your head? guilty slept naked? guilty had a boxing membership? innocent made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? innocent been in a band? guilty shot a gun? innocent donated blood? guilty eaten alligator meat? innocent eaten cheesecake? guilty still loved someone you shouldn’t? guilty have/had a tattoo? guilty liked someone, but will never tell who? guilty been too honest? innocent ruined a surprise? innocent ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can’t walk after? guilty erased someone in your friends list? innocent  dressed in women’s clothes? innocent joined a pageant? innocent been told that you’re beautiful by someone who totally meant it? innocent still have communication w/ your ex? innocent cheated on someone? innocent got totally drunk one night and had an important exam next day? guilty a total stranger treated you by paying your fare? innocent got so angry that you cried? innocent tried to stay away from someone for their own good? guilty thoughts about suicide? innocent thoughts about murder? innocent how about mass murder? innocent rode in a stranger’s vehicle? guilty stalked someone? innocent had a girlfriend/boyfriend? innocent gotten totally drunk during a holiday? guilty