He should have gotten over it by now, but here he was after telling work that he couldnât come in tonight all because of this day. After so many years, why couldnât he just move on? In a way, he did. But in his opinion, moving on would be to stop moping on this day even if he had every reason to be.Â
Everything looked the same, yet so different simultaneously as he walked down the very street he remembered running down so many years ago. Now that he was a grown twenty-two year old man, it didnât seem as wide and sparse of a street, but at the time, it had looked completely different.Â
Any place looked big to a twelve year old but this place was the most striking to him. Leo, as he was now called, walked up to the sidewalk of an intersection. As memories he had suppressed again throughout the year resurfaced, he found himself staring into a spot in the road. It was cleaner than it had been that day but everything was so vivid in his mind that he actually felt a bit nauseous.Â
Suddenly weak in his knees, Leo slid down with the support of the light post beside him. He was thankful that there werenât many people on the streets to see him in this state. Bringing his knees into him, he rested his elbows onto them with his hands up to his mouth.Â
He sat there wordlessly, remembering everything that lead to his motherâs death, everything that happened while his mother breathed her last breath. He couldnât, however, remember anything after. It all seemed to be a blur and if anyone was yelling at him, Leo didnât hear what they had said.Â
Like every year, the son would always mutter the same thing as he visited here,Â
 It was late afternoon, a thick, noxious fog hanging over the streets, cold wind blowing, and the city seemed to have lost all its colour.  The sky was grey, looking like it was on the brink of rain, and though the street lights valiantly tried to shine their way through the fog, it seemed like the grayness had swallowed everything whole, leaving behind only desolate looking streets. Â
 Not even the shopping streets were as busy as usual, only the rare, crazed shopper still wandering about, while everyone else was hidden safely inside the warmth of their respective abodes.
 Jae had no fucking clue why he wasnât in his own apartment as well right at that moment in time.
 While the prospect of a walk had still seemed like a good idea two hours ago, when heâd been pretty much dying of boredom and not even a bottle of bourbon to keep him company, he deeply regretted that decision now. Â
 Deciding for himself he would walk into the next place that served some form of alcohol, he turned a corner and his eyes fell onto a lone figure huddled against a wall, as if trying to blend entirely into the grey stone.  It was only when he took a few steps closer that he recognized him -- the timid bartender he'd talked to a few times.  Leo, or something like that.
 (( what is he doing out here? ))
 For a brief moment he wondered if he should pretend he hadn't seen him and move on.  Then he realized that, while he didn't really know him, Jae could use the company and hell, Leo could probably use a drink as much as he did, if not even more.  So instead of walking on, he stopped, cocking his head, studying the sad sack before him.
 It was hard to keep the smirk from his voice as he exhaled the words. Â
 "You look like you could use some alcohol.  Thatâs fortunate, because Iâm in need of it as well.  Buy you a drink?  Or two?  Or five?â