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♡ name’s middy, 22, she / her, perpetually exhausted in every way.

♡ this is a private blog ( mutuals only ) for a canon-divergent, non-warden cousland. there’s a warden / hero of ferelden verse, though. content not suitable for minors will be present and triggering themes may be referenced and potentially explored through writing.

♡ links to... rules / navi.

♡ a quick blurb: this blog is for anastasia cousland, the youngest child of bryce and eleanor. in her main verse, anastasia survives the massacre of castle cousland at the cost of being taken prisoner by howe’s men. she faces abuse of different varieties until she’s one day able to free herself, leaving a trail of blood and corpses in her wake and eventually finding her way in the warden’s party as a companion.

#✧ — ⋆ pinned post .

bloodiedbiotic

i hate that i’m at this point, but i really need help.

i recently switched jobs and i’ve barely gotten one week in before i had car issues and am unable to work until my car is out of service; it’ll be a week tomorrow since i dropped it off, and i’ve yet to hear anything about it. last time i took my car to service, it took two weeks minimum for me to be able to pick it up.

my bills are stacking up and driving my account further and further into the negatives. this isn’t even accurate as i had to make two more payments to other bills, one of which was two days late. i’m guessing i’m going to be around the -$600s once they go through and that’s taking in the paid nsf fees.

my biggest concern is just being able to pay rent next week. it’s thankfully a lower amount than what i’ve been paying prior because my roommate’s sister just moved into the spare room, but i still need to get $450 by the first week of april. i hate asking for help, moreso when it comes to asking for money, but i’m so fucking desperate and keep getting declined for loans.

i don’t know what i’m going to do if i’m asked to leave, i have a cat and no money to store my stuff. anything will help.

paypal

venmo

#signal boost #sharing this here as well #anything will help

when you get your paystub after being tested positive for covid and you’re able to pay all your bills except your upcoming car payment :D

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .#[ and technically i haven't paid all of rent but i sent my roomie an additional $200 ]#[ two weeks to pull together $308 and i can't work for one of said weeks ;; ]

aaaand i’m positive 💀

i am very unwell, pls send good vibes as i pray my test results come back negative 😭 my activity here will probably drop but i should still be active on discord!

working on docs for my inquisitor who i’m gonna try and reboot. my back’s killing me though 😭

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .#[ i finished the rules page tho ]#[ trying to work on the profile page which is so GRUELING ]#[ some of this inFO IS SO OLD ]#[ 5'4''?? nah lets make her 5'10'' ]

@saviornot asked: “ if something happened to you… that would be because of me. and i can’t have that. “

Fluttering lashes frame worried sea blue eyes, delicate hands holding ones adorned in steel gauntlets. A squeeze of the palms, a quivering bottom lip bitten gently. "Eron, please..." Anastasia's voice is a hushed whisper, words meant only for her lover's ears.

"I will never be at ease knowing you're out there without me at your side. I know—" voice cracking, the Cousland gasps to reclaim her breath and fight the tears that prick her eyes, stinging them to a bloodshot red. "—I know I am not the most skilled fighter out of those in your inner circle. But the thought of something happening to you... and being unable to help you... I can't handle it." She blinks and a single tear traces down her cheek, immediately wiped away by her free hand.

"Please, Eron... let me come with you."

#✧ — ⋆ v : trespasser .#✧ — ⋆ inbox .#[ soft girl crying over her lover and the pain he's in ]

i got my inquisitor’s romance with cullen started and that scene always gets me 🥺

especially when jimmy shows up with leliana’s report

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .#✧ — ⋆ middy plays dragon age: inquisition .#[ a tag for anyone to blacklist if desired ]

there’s something so overwhelming about when you first start doing stuff when you get to skyhold; so many places you can / have to explore and not quite knowing where to start

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .

not me feral chanting oVER AELLA HAWKE, MY LOVE

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .#[ the real ogs will remember aella ]#[ she's got some scars and a bit of a busted nose by inquisition ]#[ god i'm so happy to have her in the game ]

tfw i complete just about every area prior to iyhsb... i’m talking shards, landmarks, regions, camps and rifts... of course, not counting areas that are blocked off until later in the story or bc of certain creatures (cough dragons cough)

so i guess it’s time to get skidaddling to skyhold, huh?

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .#[ pray that i don't get the white screen of death glitch skjgns ]

started fallow mire, energized that first beacon and proceeded to hear what gave me ptsd and had me looking around in a panic.

bioware really decided to recycle the banshee scream from mass effect 3 into this game, fhskfjaj.

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .

anyone know how the fuck carrd works?

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .

i’m kinda tempted to work on evelyn’s blog... hmstve...

#✧ — ⋆ well throw me in a fire and call me andraste ; ooc .#[ playing her in dai makes me really wanna roleplay her ]