I usually come onto this blog to expose the deepest, darkest pits of my psyche, say some atrocious shit and leave. Other times I just reblog fandom stuff and leave. No context. No mercy.
I don't really care what you've come here for, what you're trying to find, or even how you found me, and this blog. Regardless of how you've landed here, in this barren wasteland of the internet, I do hope that you have a moderately entertaining time at least. And I'm being genuine, lol.
Also - happy pride ig, this is actually the first time I've ever filled out something like this. Lmaoooo
I'm pretty sure that I see myself as closer to non-binary/agender than most people would expect me to be. I used to go by they/them pronouns exclusively, because I wasn't comfortable with identifying as either he/him or she/her. Also I used to be a lot more interested in both men and women - until I recently found out that I seem to develop romantic feelings exclusively for women. Also I'm just more interested in romantic love than I ever was before, and that's also because I now understand better who I feel such emotions for. Self discovery is definitely interesting. I've learnt a lot about myself over this year and the last.
Not gonna lie, hanging out with Buber eats man is enlightening me to the fact that my friends have always been either too white, or literally just not North American enough (so many of my friends were people from various countries in Africa, straight emigrating to North America/Canada the first time, just like me). Absolutely none of them grew up on the same early 2000's rap culture that I did, and therefore knew absolutely nothing about so much of the pop culture rap beef that was literally just my childhood. To think that the mere existence of somebody that actually knows Queen Latifah, would heal my inner child like this. Bruhhhhhhh
Man I basically grew up on shit like the 50 cent vs Diddy beef, a legitimate respect for Tupac's impact and existence, being aware of that one period in the early 2000's when Kanye was actually cool - and that kind of shit, right? The issue is that for the longest time, literally nobody around me even knew most of these people or events beyond the most basic, surface level understanding of things. I couldn't nerd about my favorite "dumb" rap shit to anybody, cause most people found my hobbies to be kinda stupid. I actually did get picked on quite a bit, for how into rap music I was as a kid. Being able to openly nerd about my interests like this, is legitimately awakening me to the fact that so many of my friends just didn't really understand what I was into, when I was younger. I felt like some kind of outcast for growing up on rap music in the early 2000's and simply liking that culture - and it's made me shut myself off to a lot of people that I was afraid just wouldn't get me.
Finally finding some friends with similar interests as me as an adult, is really helping me feel sorta accepted as a person. If that makes sense. I never knew how much I actually kinda needed somebody to nerd out over rap music with, like this. It's been so much of my life, and such a significant part of who I am at this point - but I've never actually been able to talk about this, to anyone.
To think I'd find someone who actually understands and appreciates what I'm talking about - in bumfuck nowhere Japan, of all places. Insane shit. I cherish my friends so much, dude. I can't express that enough, I think.
Early lunch break, cause the guy I was waiting on for some contract job stuff called in sick to work. Anyways have your daily dose of anti-AI (specifically chatbot type shit) and pro-justuseyourfuckinbrainbro propaganda.
I'm of the mind that AI (so basically Machine Learning tech) can in fact be VERY LEGITIMATELY EXTREMELY HELPFUL in some incredibly pinpoint and specific areas, where it helps humans communicate with each other, as well as detect certain problems or patterns. It can be amazing for things like identifying cancer cells, or recognizing and pointing out patterns among data points that could then be processed via a HUMAN BRAIN to bring about a solution/conclusion to whatever they're looking for. AI technology can in fact be incredibly helpful when it comes to grafting a draft project, or bringing about ideas that could then be polished into something that is ACTUALLY HELPFUL TO HUMANITY.
The issue here is when we present an AI-generated idea or product as something that is "professional", "polished", or even REMOTELY "complete". This goes for any generated ideas, information, translations, or even pattern-based predictions or observations. Things like art and music shouldn't even REMOTELY be in the picture here - because that's a finished project that you're expecting a soulless, literal blackbox machine-generated process to make for you. Without any intervention or human touch, beyond the initial prompt, too. Nothing about AI usage is based on individual ability, and this is EXACTLY WHY it shouldn't be used on that basis.
If anybody somehow believes that they're "informed" or dare I say "gifted" because of their progression in life supported solely by AI usage - I am sorry that I gotta say this, but they're worse than a damn parrot. As a person who's dabbled in data science, the first thing that you learn, is that the algorithms that make up the blackbox environment of what we know as "AI", is INHERENTLY never going to be 100% correct. These things are built on a basis of "if this shit gets the job done somewhat right at least 62% of the time, we're golden".
So are you really going to let a program that's made to get shit wrong almost 40% of the time actually build the foundations of your entire personality, and internal knowledge database? Wouldn't stuff like reading an actual book made by experts, or learning how to actually do life shit at your regular-ass public school, simply be more efficient?
Overconsumption in any format is just lazy. And we're using AI as a very cheap and fast method of overcompensating for our lack of individual ability. If used right, this tech is something that does have the ability to help us humans understand each other better. It's something that we can use to form an initial opinion, or gain an overarching view on things that other humans might have difficulty teaching us. But we've been using this tech like it's some mechanical messiah sent here to solve literally all our problems; regardless if these problems are things we can (and SHOULD) resolve using our own individual perspectives, experiences, and strengths.
That sweet robot lady on your pc isn't actually in the room, with us right now. She's not gonna know how to actually deal with you having a fight with your friend Maximus. But YOU know Maximus. As a person. As a friend. And that's why YOU can find a way to make shit right with him. Even if the solution that you come up with, isn't a thing that's recommended or even remotely brought up by ChatGPT.
Don't give up on yourself, and your own individual capabilities so easily, dude. I know that people use tech like this cause they're afraid to make mistakes. They're afraid to get laughed at, or made fun of for shit that they've failed to do. For the things that they come up with, that seemingly aren't up to par with society's standards. But sometimes the point is to make mistakes. Sometimes it really is just about actively fucking shit up until you one day learn.
I'd rather be somebody that makes a lot of mistakes, but has my own unique perspective on life because I've done some stupid shit. I've been laughed at. I've been made fun of. But at the end of the day, I got stronger because of it. And to me, that's the point. I only got to this point in my life, because I took the leap just to look so fuckin stupid in front of everyone, until the day I finally got shit right.
I'm a failure on my own terms. And that's what makes me infinitely more interesting as a person. Everyone's a cartoon character in their own right. So are you. You're allowed to have your 'villain arcs', and your 'I want to do shit, but I'm too afraid to fully step in' arcs. You're allowed to experiment with technology as you wish, and create your own verdict on how you use it. But the point here is that it's gotta come from you. And imo, outsourcing that freedom of choice for a "safe, societally acceptable option" based on some computer prompt; is some of the lamest shit I'd actively judge a cartoon character for going through with.
