noah mendez

So what if the poems are about you?

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the tip of the tongue, the teeth, the lips

the way you kiss the way

you swing your hips

like a dance

like a song

like a cry for freedom

dragged on too long

on a walk through hell

like a game of poker

and your only tell

is the twitch of your mouth

as you try not to smile

as the pile

of winnings grows ever higher

and when your grin is miles wide

you feel Lady Luck is on your side

and you look at her and realize

all you’ve ever wanted

and needed to say

is just on

the tip of your tongue

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Hey guys! So I finally have a book out which feels great and is awesome! It would be super cool if you could spread the word, buy, review, all that fun stuff!

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I CAN'T BELIEVE I WASN'T FOLLOWING YOU, I THOUGHT WE WERE MUTUALS ALL ALONG OMG I'M SORRY

It’s all good!!! I love your blog!!!!

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supposed to/like the night I am tired of engulfing all that is around me/but I won’t think twice before taking you/you are evil if evil had good intentions and you are good of good was selfish/I used to think you were a savior/but now I think you’re just lost/ and happened to lift me up while you were already trying/to leave your self made hole/trying to leave yourself behind/you’re always trying to escape your body/but you refuse to work to make it better

stop thinking of me. after this, I will stop thinking of you

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I still don’t know you but god do I want to

You with your many selves

The many people who live within us

Is the me I like also the me you like?

Do I want to know?

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hello aaaaa i just started following u bc i saw that you're a poet hehe i want to read more poems here but idk which blogs to follow so can you please give me some suggestions? thank you :-) (also if u have any author recommendations i'd gladly accept them!)

hell yeah ! its cool that ur looking to read more poetry, heres some of my favorite poets on here (most of them aren’t straight poetry blogs btw but they are poets and they do post poetry so!)

@exit152 / @porchbirds / @antigoneblue / @arowanlike / @cgcpoems / @flawedoriginal / @emergincy / @rottenbois / @babymoonpoet / @alexgluewrites / @softheartedpoet / @wildflowerveins / @syrupbrat / @avolitorial / @saintofbees / @julykings / @saintalice / @latenightcornerstore / @trabrahams / @seaurc / @caravcggio / @softstained / @prcserpina / @barfight / @existential-celestial / @illuminosity / @basementblues / @bettersituation / @mortvivantpoem / @daedalians / @7-weeks / @alonesomes / @elefunq / @heartcountry / @mythaelogy / @sometimestuesday / @anexitlike / @7cigars / @heartmagician / @oceanvuong / @boykeats / 

some blogs that only post excerpts of other people’s poetry: @lifeinpoetry / @dailyholzer

my favorite poets right now: Denise Levertov, Frank O’Hara, Jenny Holzer, Li-Young Lee, Anne Carson, Warsan Shire, Louise Glück, Philip Gross, Rumi, Margaret Atwood, Arthur Rimbaud

lastly, in my monthly newsletter i give a new recommendation of poets every edition, as well as poems that I haven’t posted here. to get a copy, donate at least $1 USD to my patreon and i’ll sign you up immediately!

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Mal as always you are too kind

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there are gaps to fall into and gaps to forget and sometimes both and gaps in trains where you trip and the doors close and you cry or where your shoe falls off and the electricity arcs and somewhere a rat screams.

Gaps in teeth when you grow up even though you don’t want to and you gargle salt water and it all comes out red and all you want is for Mom to kiss it better but kissing on the lips is for lovers and you don’t know how to love someone like that.

Gaps in time like where was I last Friday and who did I see and when is a dream actually a memory and I keep leaving knives in the fridge to cool down and eat later if I tasted metal in my throat maybe for once it wouldn’t be blood.

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I wanted to be hardened to be wrapped and cocooned and not come home until ugly was just a feeling a name I’d once heard and not a fact on my face I wanted to be reborn as a god as golden dipped in the water and made protected except for my mouth of course you can’t dip something that won’t stop moving go ahead bruise my lips it’s fun to have a weakness that way there’s always something to be scared of I wanted to be cold as medical steel like a lock without key the crocodile in your moat the bone in your bloody meat you can’t break down walls if you can’t see them and you can’t storm the castle if you don’t have a bridge to burn I wanted to be the dragon and the knight but never the princess I wanted to go down fighting bloody knuckles and full of heartaches I’d kill something just to get away with it and for once the something wouldn’t be me I wanted to be real but all I became was human

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I can only talk about myself for so long before you start to hate me

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the worst part is never knowing where you'll be next

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do you still think of us without the missing part? there was something pure about me with you I want that boy much more than the boy I fell for Remember when the bath water was never pink and my skin never had to open under hot water I grew past your garden and fell in love with the sun never realizing how far the fall actually was

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I will hurt you in the most

gentle way I know how

Let there be

no evidence of my revenge.

I want no one to trust

in your truth

I want you to walk alone

spend those 40 nights in the desert

drinking your own tears to stay alive

I want you to wonder if you

want to stay alive.

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we do this dance where

he touches me yet I never

feel his skin

where he slips his

fingers into my cracks

but never finds any change

perhaps I am an animal

a monster

the thing in the forest

hungry and sharp

but perhaps this is how he made me

perhaps

being soft was the wrong thing to be

if I had sliced at his hands the

way I sliced at my wrists

would I even be me right now?

God I hope so.

God

I hope not.

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None of this has anything to do with you.

I don't think this is the right time to say sorry but I'll say it anyway.

I'm sorry you ruined this and when I say this I mean us.

I'm sorry that you thought I was yours to hold.

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So what if the poems are about you? Maybe you shouldn't have made it so easy to write about.

Noah Mendez, emergincy.tumblr.com

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I bet the things she called you sounded like honey on her lips. And I bet every single one of them has been stuck in your throat ever since: thick and slow and unforgivable

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All that shit they say about tears and crystals is true: fragile, do not touch, pretty, and utterly worthless.

Dont waste your breath on all the ways you could have said sorry, I've done my share of crying and there's no forgiveness left.