Emica the Elf

she/her • 22 • 5'9 • cw 175lbs • gw 130lbs • sw 220lbs • NOT PRO ANYTHING, JUST BEING MEAN TO MYSELF • used to be stopeating-becomepretty in 2016

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I haven't used this account in years yet my ex found it and is using posts off it on different social media? There's a no contact order for a reason, leave me alone 🤗🤗🤗

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Me:

Body Dismorphia: this you?

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I still can't believe I made this.

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After months of binging

I'm baaaaaack

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Everything goes so well then I self sabotage. WTF is wrong with me?

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I had a doctor's appointment today and I did something wild afterwards.

I got gas for my car and shopped at 3 stores ALONE.

AND I WASNT ANXIOUS AT ALL!

I know it doesn't seem like much but this is the first time in 4-5 years I've been able to do things like this.

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I've been working up the courage to start streaming on twitch.

Started posting random videos to my side tiktok to feel more confident.

I'm just to afraid no one will care.

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I've plateaued for the past week.

Better see results this week 💕

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I'm back on my anti-anxiety meds and my brain doesn't even want to look at thinspo anymore.

Then give me the weight loss now pls

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Alli Vera - Color Club

Literally spent hours looking for her because I used to watch her years ago and her body is inspo

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When the hunger goes from pain to comfort, you know you're in it deep

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This will be the year I get skinny

I swear

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When your fat, people don't see it as a disorder, they see it as you getting healthy.

They don't realize I'm dying on the inside

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Weighed 179 today 🖤

Hope to not see 180s again!

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If I lose all this fat and find out I have a wide ribcage and hipbones, imma be throwing

hands

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As I finally get down to the 170s I believe my body is trying to humble me by NOT SHOWING ME ANY OF MY 40LB LOSS PROGRESS

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Me:

Body Dismorphia: this you?

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Reblogging because I thought it got removed

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I'm tired of being tired