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love of my life wants to write a comedy show together so we can gig with it next year. artistic partnerships between lovers are so hot. i’m swooning.

#he hasn't gigged for a while so micf probs isn't on the cards for him #but we will go down the great ocean rd and write together and i will die

highlights of life since i forgot about tumblr:

- boy told me he loved me during a game of 36 questions then immediately took it back

- boy told me he loves me for real

- i did a pottery class and made beautiful wonky pots

- i started an improv class and am learning that i am enough

- i tried to tell a story at the moth but only got to do the opening line at the end but everyone laughed so it was worth almost pooing my pants

- i am a published writer now (short-form creative nonfiction and personal essays – calm ya farm)

- i died my hair platinum blonde and realised guys are grosser towards me as a blonde

- my mum loves my current bf and they make jokes about me together and it stinks but i also love it

- i am learning so much each and every day

- i went vegan and am learning new ways to think about and appreciate food

- i am volunteering more (for oxfam and soon the feminist writer’s festival)

- i think i’ve found the person i want to spend my life with. dumbest shit ever, amirite?

#personal

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Firstnamekate - Body Essay #2

guy i’m dating: i have to tell you about the song that came on in the car after i dropped you off last night

me: ok

guy i'm dating: it was called something like 'i think i'm in love again'

me: aw

guy i'm dating: yeah it went something like "she got that dick in her mouth all day... she got that dick in her mouth all day... she got that dick in her mouth all day... i think i'm in love again"

#the moment i knew it was 4eva

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‘I Am Eating Meat: a Response to Han Kang’s “The Vegetarian”’, by James Butler

After almost ten years of vegetarianism I’ve started eating meat again. I’m doing it slowly: two small lamb chops, a bite of pork floating in ramen, a few slices of cured salami or ham. Although my body seems to crave it I often find the taste terrible, sour and gamey. It turns heavy in my stomach. But I’m eating meat again because if I don’t make drastic changes to my diet and begin to regularly eat protein and carbohydrates, my doctor says that my body will continue to feed on my own lean muscle for nutrition. It will soon eat away at cardiovascular muscle for nourishment, and the irreversible damage I’ve done to my own body will worsen.

I write down everything I eat in a notebook. 11.52am banana. 4.44pm half a pot of non-fat yoghurt. I mark food items that I think are unhealthy with a little asterisk, and I can put a tick next to days I feel I’ve fed myself as I would if I were caring for someone else. I filled the title page – “JAMES BUTLER FOOD DIARY” – with stickers to make the exercise less depressing, small farm animals from a sticker pad. But now when I hand the notebook to my psychologist or dietician I press the title page down, hoping they miss the smiling cows and ducks, and turn straight to the pages littered with little stars. The idea of them seeing the stickers makes me feel childish. Not just because of what they are, but because I am an adult paying professionals to teach me to eat.

PULL QUOTE: The idea of them seeing the stickers makes me feel childish. Not just because of what they are, but because I am an adult paying professionals to teach me to eat.

In Han Kang’s The Vegetarian, Yeong-hye, a young woman “completely unremarkable in every way,” becomes vegetarian after a violent dream. Yeong-hye throws away all the meat in the fridge, enraging her husband and extended family. She becomes erratic and gaunt, consumed by visceral dreams of murder and physical torture. “Why am I changing like this?” she thinks, in a rare disclosure of her interiority. “Why are my edges all sharpening—what am I going to gouge?”

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emmugh

This is a beautifully written piece.

I have been thinking about my own veganism and experiences with disordered eating lately. I never thought I’d be able to go vegan due to my history of ED, but I’ve found it’s slowly changing the way I think about food. Yet even though I’ve been in recovery for 6 years, I still feel as though I walk a fine line some days.

#cw eating disorder #TLB

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People talk about China’s pollution, but isn’t that just our pollution in China? ‘We’ moved the factories over specifically for lax environmental laws and cheap labor. China’s pollution is our pollution.