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Miss you so much.. Waiting for Monday!!

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I can't believe this is happening 🙊

"I love you too." 😍❤️❤️❤️❤️

Haven't posted in ages..but

If you want me then you better do something about it mate.

I am a strong person. But every once in a while I would like someone to hold my hand and tell me things are going to be OK.

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No time for myself

No time at all. I took up two extra things for Ramadan and it seems to clash with my health, my grandma's health, helping mum, guests coming over, medical and other appointments for grandma and the list goes on.. At least I don't have uni now -that helps. Forget about socializing, I just want to expand my knowledge on the deen, contribute to society, etc.. Lol and then people come and talk about guys to me. I don't know how I would be able to fit one in. Some say, you just don't prioritize us or where have you been all this time?? I need a little bit of support. I always say I wish there were three of me - one for mum and dad, one for grandma and one for the education and sleep. But we all know that's unrealistic!

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That moment when we shared our sadnesses and bonded over the fact that we never really forgot about each other, felt so peaceful. I had to suppress everything for so long, I think I became quite numb...I miss you so much more now, sigh.. But you've made me make peace within my own heart, so thank you. Missing you dearest ❤️❤️❤️

Heading for a better lifestyle.

So lately I’ve been feeling so low.. One of the reasons is my self-efficacy -it’s so low which is effecting my self-esteem.

To improve this situation of mine I have the found the right equation to live by: For me to believe completely in the Qadr of Allah (destiny) then that would resonate to high levels of self-efficacy and hence high levels of self-esteem.

Time to improve my belief in the Qadr of Allah swt. :)

You've lost a lot of people but I guess you never thought you'd lose me..

Wow. This is what fighting with one's heart feels like. SubhanAllah..it's quite painful

Nobody understands.. Or even tries to. And even if they do, it's not what you want to hear. I think that's why it's better to cry to God. He understands. Always.

I don't know how long I have to live with this

I feel the distance already. Is it my fault? Is it inevitable?

There is a void in my heart, that I always try to fill. The void, however, seems to be getting bigger. It emits so much pain.

At times I wish you didn't think I was as silly and just believed in me

But then, maybe I am my biggest enemy?

I think some of my friends think I'm emotional or they think I don't understand companionate romantic love. Maybe they are right.. I'm not sure. But I feel like when i see true love it remains as an after effect that you receive after looking at the sun too long. It just stays with me for awhile, and right at the bottom of my heart, I get this funny good kinda feeling and I wonder whether that emotion could ever exist in my life? I never really cried when I would watch a sad movie before, but now..if I ever see someone left heartbroken, my eyes fill with tears. I hear stories from my grandma about her true love for my grandpa. The stories are magical.. In a way, it's my form of escapism when I listen to them for the 100th time. I hope one day, I could have something like that. I don't think it would take much to make me tick....Just love and understanding is all I want.

You make me smile

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