emotionalholic: unapologetically raw

i'm 31 i'm Australian this is my place to vent music & radio are my passion they might come up often... i'm an open book... what's on my playlist... |Alanis Morissette|Foo Fighters| |Powderfinger|City and Colour| |Crowded House|Friends|Get This|

[emotionalholic]

[Insert Name Here]

I want this relationship to work, but I feel like I'm the only one actually doing the work, I’m trying to change and manage new behaviours, I’m the one in therapy, I’m the one getting anti-depressants, I’m the one that has to work less but work more in order to try to be able to spend time with my son, because if I don’t he’s suddenly whisked off 30 minutes away for hours at a time as I’ve proven myself not quick/worthy enough to be permitted time with him. What are you working on? How come you still get to walk all over me and not go to therapy? I tell you how alone I feel and nothing changes on your end, you’re just sorry I feel that way? How are you working on our relationship?

Hey you need to work more to support your family Hey you need to work on your relationship with your son Hey you are abusive Hey you need help Hey you owe me money Hey you need to work on your issues Hey you are the reason you slept on the floor for 6 months Hey you need to reconcile Hey you are the problem, this all stems from you Hey you need to work on your relationship with your friends Hey you can never park in the garage no matter how long we live here Hey you can move down the ladder Hey you can suck it up Hey you can go away Hey you aren’t needed here anymore Hey you are worthless

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STRAWBERRY BALSAMIC SHORTCAKE WITH BASIL

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Two-Tone Tulle Cocktail Dresses

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[emotionalholic]

i built this city piece by piece and i broke it down word by word i watched it crumble before my eyes and still i continued my hateful spite i built this relationship for me and for you i built the conversions we had a state away or two i built the foundation on which we rely and i am the reason i'm watching it die

[emotionalholic]

I love your paintings, don't take your colours away

Gord Downie

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Cougar Town

Abed works at JB Hi Fi? Cool. Cool cool cool.

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source mate85au

[emotionalholic]

Check your emails, x

i did check my emails…which one is yours? 

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cougar town...

an episode with multiple alanis jokes and references! it could not have been more perfect for an alanis nerd such as me, as it had yet to dawn on me that the boys were in the videos! made my night a whole lot better!

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Justin Timberlake - Mirrors (long radio edit) The 20/20 Experience download

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three words? seriously? is it because those three words weren’t directed at you? or because they aren’t THE three words? what do you want me to do? apologise because i’m on the other side of the world? UNapologetically raw… i refuse REFUSE to fight with ANYONE about what i post here. if you don’t like what is written here there is a way to stop from typing it into your address bar. i DO NOT (and i’ll repeat) DO NOT have to explain anything i post here. this is MY place to say what i need to say. and ALL i said was three words and you don’t even know how they are directed. you get to say your peace at 1 in the morning and persist to then take a jab another 5 hours later? here’s what i need to say: thank you for being there for me when no one else or (or when i wasn’t telling anyone else how low i was) i appreciate it but it’s time to let this go now. i will not take part in any friendship/relationship that has me explaining my EVERY single last action from 16,700 kilometres away. i will not feel guilty for living my life. i will not pretend that i don’t have a life here. school is done, that’s why i don’t talk about it… i fucked it, i have no one else to blame for that by myself, much like everything else that is under my thought or action. i am not talking to you “except for the minimum basic civilities of life” because you told me you loved me and i did not return those feelings. that can be a painful event. so, i’ve kept my distance. and rightly so, judging by your words. i have done NOTHING wrong, i’ve continued breathing every single day and thinking about myself. how is it that i have to answer to you? i have bad days i have good days lastly, a line? what fucking line? i’m not a line guy! fuck, i’m not even a “look at him, he’s cute” i’m not even a guy a girl looks at twice how the FUCK is a “line” going to help me? and a pathetic one at that… “fuck, you’re cute” look at all the women jumping into my bed SARCASM “every girl you went after”??? where are ALL these girls i’m chasing? where are they ALL?? you’ve been a friend with harsh but truthful words to me in the past, now it’s time for my friendly harsh truth you need to get over this, i will not put up with shit like this in email or text messages. i understand they are feelings, but this AT ONE IN THE MORNING? who does that? this is all i will be saying on the matter!! i have enough going on in my life that i need to think about without walking on eggshells incase i offend you by putting three little words up on a blog that no one reads anyway time for a break i think… emotionalholic is on hiatus

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fuck...

you're cute

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