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[keybade]

emergency(ish) commissions

i have no money. literally. i have $0 in my paypal and steadily over the months my bank has taken all of my money bc of service charges, leading me to close my account. so i seriously have nothing.

so i’m opening commissions! i have a premade commissions post already on my blog but the art is. a little outdated. but i have an artblog @8okuto that you can check out my most recent work. and a dA which is gemders. also i’m posting this on mobile so i can’t make readily available links.

i can draw furries for the most part. headshots are $5 and fullbody are $8, plus $2 for every extra characters. i’m also willing to create animation memes w your oc/fursona for $20 (mainly bc they take a lot of work for me and i’d need full refs and general backstories. also depending on what animation meme you’d like me to do) and i can do small pmvs w songs. also $20. also $15 for wc scenes, canon or fanon. if anyone is interested, i can create character/wc designs for $10

please PLEASE send me a message if you’re interested!!! i really really need to make money or else i’ll have to get a job and i physically and mentally cannot handle a job at this point in my life. reblogs are also greatly appreciated!!!!

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just to add, since i cancelled my bank account i don’t have anything to be charged and my paypal is in the negative rn bc of some bank refund?? which doesn’t make a lot of sense and gram and i are going to figure out what’s going on but if anyone would at least give me one or two $5 commissions since i’m just $5 over negative (it’s like -$5.87) i’d really really appreciate it bc if i lose my paypal i won’t have anything

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

hi! i'm a new trauma suggestions blog, @traumasuggestions, but it's a side blog so i can't submit asks and that's why i'm submitting on anon! but i was just popping in to say hello and to help have ppl know about the existence of my blog so they can vent and submit suggestions of any traumatic, stressful or unusual situation in their life or seek validation if that's what they want. thank u and sorry for the "self promo", just trying to get in the community & try to help. u have a great blog <3

np problem!! go follow @traumasuggestion

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

kisses make me want to vomit. “i love you” tastes like poison. cuddles feel like barbed wire. you were my first love, why oh why did it have to be you?

[keybade]

emergency(ish) commissions

i have no money. literally. i have $0 in my paypal and steadily over the months my bank has taken all of my money bc of service charges, leading me to close my account. so i seriously have nothing.

so i’m opening commissions! i have a premade commissions post already on my blog but the art is. a little outdated. but i have an artblog @8okuto that you can check out my most recent work. and a dA which is gemders. also i’m posting this on mobile so i can’t make readily available links.

i can draw furries for the most part. headshots are $5 and fullbody are $8, plus $2 for every extra characters. i’m also willing to create animation memes w your oc/fursona for $20 (mainly bc they take a lot of work for me and i’d need full refs and general backstories. also depending on what animation meme you’d like me to do) and i can do small pmvs w songs. also $20. also $15 for wc scenes, canon or fanon. if anyone is interested, i can create character/wc designs for $10

please PLEASE send me a message if you’re interested!!! i really really need to make money or else i’ll have to get a job and i physically and mentally cannot handle a job at this point in my life. reblogs are also greatly appreciated!!!!

[keybade]

i already made a commission post but i was in a rush and it was p sloppy so i’m remaking it!

so yeah i’m taking commissions!! i really need to make some money and having severe anxiety and depression does not make it easy for me to handle a job. 

first of all, i p much only draw furries. and even that i’m limited. dogs and cats i’m good at. i don’t do anything nsfw and i can do gore to an extent. . i can draw ocs, fursonas, or wc characters! i could attempt to draw a scene from the books but that would be a doozy and i’d have to talk about the price and start sketching first.

the prices are as listed: traditional sketch - $4 (colour plus $1) digital sketch - $6 (colour plus $1) digital headshot colour - $8 digital fullbody colour - $10 extra traditional character - $2 per character extra digital character - $5 per character shading - $3 background - $2-3

my email is [email protected] and boy howdy it would mean the world to me if people at least reblogged this and spread the word! i’m very desperately trying to make money for personal reasons so please please message me if you’re interested! either an ask or the messaging system works for me.

[link to my dA]

[keybade]

hello i really desperately need to start making money bc if i don’t i’ll have to get a job and i mentally cannot handle getting a job so even if this is just reblogged and spread that’d be really great

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

Right now, I know what she did was wrong. I know I was just a child and that I didn't do anything to deserve that treatment. But the moment that I'm in the room with her again, and she looks so hurt that I don't visit her anymore, I'll forget all of that. I'll go back to thinking I'm just an overdramatic spoiled brat. And I hate it. I just want it to be done

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

I sometimes have thoughts of doing the same things you have done to me to those I love most. But fuck you I will not become a monster due to what you have done to me. I am not going to hurt them. I know that's what you'd want. Keep me all to yourself. Fuck you.

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

(1/2)I almost lost everything for you. I was willing to settle, because you made me think you were the only person who would ever love me. You threatened suicide if I didn't pay attention to you. You made me feel guilty when I couldn't talk. And when

(2/2) we did talk, it was always about you. You didn't care about me. You broke me so you could feel loved. And I hate you for destroying my innocence, my trust, and my mental health. Fuck you.

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

you want to break me so bad and the only thing keeping me alive half the time is that i don't want to give you the satisfaction of knowing you've finally won.

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

I don't think I would care if you died and the fact that i'm so apathetic to the thought of someone dying, even though it is you, fucking terrifies me.

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

I'm glad we were long distance, so I don't have to see you everyday and now I've blocked you everywhere it feels like you don't really exist anymore.. I'm sorry to all the people who have to see their abusers still

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

Yes, you have left scars on me. But I am starting to heal. I don't cry for you anymore. I've learned to cry for myself, wipe away the tears and move on one bit at a time. You lied, forced me to do things I wasn't comfortable with, used me. I am angry beyond words and it will take time for it to vanquish. But I am getting through this. Because I am not as stupid and weak as you made me out to be. Now watch. Now you get to see how strong I really can be.

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

i wonder if all your relationships started and failed because you suicide baited everyone into dating you, just like you tried to do with me

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

I hate the effects of trauma I literally feel like a zombie, it feels hard to do anything and then I wonder if maybe I'm just lazy, the one person who usually buffers the abusive person and conifers me told me that I should stop being a wimp and it happens so often that I should be used to it, I already have such a difficult time labeling the abuse and comments like that are so invalidating and I really just need some comfort right now

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

Today my mother beat me and yelled at me for hours, I run to you, my only source my comfort and you begin yelling at me. I will never forgive you for stripping away all safety I had left, for making me feel like I was hated anywhere I went. I will never forgive you, no matter how many times you apologize. No matter how much I need you. Never again.

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

sometimes i feel like she didn't actually move and is going to be at school this year and will harass me again im so scared fuck

[emotionallyabusedsuggestion]

I thought we could be friends after everything -- mainly because I still tried to see the good in him. Yet, when I told him I moved on and feel happy with someone new, he tried to make it about himself. He made comments that hit below the belt. He said hurtful jabs like he used to when we were together. He looked so angry and hurt, even though he was the one who hurt, then left me. It just showed me how selfish he truly is. I refuse to let him hurt me any longer. I'm free.