ani

20, diagnosed with depression, PTSD and Ana.

[c4nnib4lc0rpse]

me typing “can e@ting d!s0rders cause ****” into google everytime i experience a new symptom

[halfaperson]

[pink--chaos]

[chudypamietnik]

[recovery-nuovame]

My meme™️

[traumatizeddfox]

picking up disorders like i’m at a grocery store for mental illnesses

[emotionlesswrack]

if only you knew how much I hate myself because of what you did to me...

[worldclassdisaster]

[emotionlesswrack]

i wanted to try it today. but i couldn't. i don't know what stopped me but i ended up in harming myself.

[emotionlesswrack]

lol can't wait to kms

[problemkind1105]

Wollt ihr wissen wie es ist eine PTBS zu haben? Es ist nicht einfach mal was Schlimmes erlebt zu haben und es ist auch kein “Komm doch einfach mal darüber hinweg“. Es ist das Schlimmste, was du je in deinem Leben erlebt hast. Es ist jeden Tag in Angst zu leben, dass es nochmal passiert und alles und jeden zu meiden, der oder das auch nur ansatzweise einen daran erinnert. Es ist jeden Tag angespannt sein, immer bereit zu fliehen, weil man es damals nicht konnte. Es ist das Ganze jeden Tag aufs Neue erleben zu müssen, jeden Tag diese Erinnerungen zu sehen, zu fühlen, zu hören, zu riechen, obwohl man alles dafür geben würde es nicht erleben zu müssen. Es ist sich jeden Tag zu wünschen, dass das alles nie passiert wäre und daran zu verzweifeln.

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[emotionlesswrack]

I'm just so tired. I don't know how long I'll be able to deal with it.

[poetry-by-a-survivor]

I Though You Loved Me

You raped me of my trust

Before you even

Touched my body

You ripped off my armor

And laid with my

Naked soul

Making me believe

You were there to protect me

I fell into your trap

And allowed myself to be

Vulnerable

And you pounced on me

As if I was your prey

You ravaged my body

And broke my soul

But I thought it was love

Because every man who has said

He loved me has done this to me

So I went back

Until every bone was shattered

And every inch of my skin was bruised

And I could no longer stand

On my own two feet

[emotionlesswrack]

i hate you with every inch of my body

[emotionlesswrack]

ptsd can be so stressful, like you want to enjoy a moment and then BOOM flashback mf

[emotionlesswrack]

the past few months have been exhausting for me. I developed a drug addiction but I also managed to be clean for 6 weeks now. I hope I'm not gonna get addicted again.

[emotionlesswrack]

I'm clean for over 1 year now btw!