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I was hungry at first but after awhile I got used to it, I guess. And I liked having the extra time to study and the more I thought about it, well if I don’t need lunch, then maybe I don’t need breakfast or dinner either. And it kind of became a new project for me. To see how long I could go without eating any food.

Emma Chota on how her eating disorder started (via nowitallbegins)

I went to the doctors today to get weighed again. He told me that if I didn't weigh higher than 110, I'd have to be checked in. And that can't happen. Things are just starting to get good for me. I look prettier. My music is good. I'm the smallest I've been. Things are good. So the weights have come back. Shoving them into my underwear to bump up my weight. Drinking gallons of water before my appointment. I weighed 112 and that sufficed for them. But I felt disgusted. Those extra pounds. They made me feel dirty. Made me feel how I did before. When they touched my body even though I was screaming on the inside. When he touched me. I feel like throwing up. Maybe I will.

Holy shit I just really wanna dick TBH