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Driving passed green signs at red lights, Watching time and chances run out. Picking myself up off the floor, Running purely on self doubt.

I'll never make it out, I know it. I'll never find out how to show it. So I'll shine the green light for you and yours, And I'll close my fucking eyes until the day I die.

No more green signs, no more trying, No more showing up, only, slowly, dying. I'll take what I'm given, it's all I deserve. Because reaching is forbidden, and I don't have the nerve.

#batsy writes shit #Zzz zzz

Closed book of consolation, Bleeding dry, a relocation. Turned upside down, shaken, Stirred, disturbed, not yet forsaken.

Seated here, in plain vacuity. No function, no thought, cranium mutiny. Passed over and cast aside. Dangling off the bumpy ride.

Stood at a cliff's edge, without a paddle. No will let to dredge, horse of the apocalypse, Sitting side saddle.

Chances are many, and freely given. But my heart is not long for this world, And so I will keep it hidden.

#batsy writes shit

yesterdaysprint

The Kansas Industrialist, Manhattan, October 18, 1916

I'll keep throwing myself into the firing line. I'll spare you the sob story when I'm shot. I'll be the arbiter of "everything's fine". I'll be here 'till I rot.

Weighted blanket of insecurity. Weighted eyelids of anhedonia. Weighted mind of ambiguity. Weighted legs to drown me in bleach and ammonia.

No time for self preservation. No time for sleep. No time for recuperation. No time to weep.

I've got bills and hell to pay. I don't have the gall to say, Just what's on my mind today. I'm just waiting for the part, Where anything can be okay.

#batsy writes shit

They demand, I give. They pay, I live. They bark, I work. They bite, I daren't go berserk.

I arrive, asleep. I leave, a corpse. Adorned in starch, And cardboard dust.

I scrub away, my every day. I drag myself to far away. A corpse, now clean, to reunite. A walking, crawling, parasite.

So feed my scraps, feed me blood. Let me sleep to fend the flood. Then I'll be good, I swear, I'll be swell. I'll will kill, and I will tell.

#batsy writes shit

theeroyalblu

professor-winter

ᴍᴏᴅᴇʀɴ ɪꜱᴏʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴏʟɪᴛᴜᴅᴇ

becherdireinen

sorry i never responded to your text, i've been busy being paralyzed by my own inability to do basic tasks that are piling up.

neopet-a-day

"The glory I had witnessed, Was just a sleight of hand."

No good deed goes unpunished, No good need goes fulfilled. No good weed is torn from ground, No good grief will keep me still.

"These hearts cannot be salvaged, These bones cannot withstand."

Breaking further, day by day. No poison flowing through my veins. Just working, growing into pains. Choking on the memories, Leaving all the blood to freeze.

"I have either been forgotten, Or I was never seen."

Seen right through, Never looked at. Different hue, Nothing. Nothing but ruin, and walls. Ready to crumble.

"Now I'm in the negative space between."

Stuck in perpetual motion. Balanced haphazardly, Atop a pile of futility. Congratulations, me. You were nothing. You always were, nothing.

#batsy writes shit #W/#Lines from Map Change by Every Time I Die

3:45am 160 Flashing lights of red and blue. Words spat like acid, in darker hue. A warning not to be ignored. Discipline, terror, anxiety restored.

Never again.

#batsy writes shit

The cracks in my ceiling are unmoving. The cracks in my skin are not improving. The cracks in my voice, no longer soothing.

A dance around, An acceptance. I am ready. The immediate fervour, Pandora's box spilling all over us.

But now I am a mess, Covered in the filth of that acceptance, Wretched. Ugly. An open wound. Not worthy of gaze, thought, Nor even worth all I've sought.

#batsy writes shit

How can anyone close to me claim I make them happy, when... None of them are happy? Why am I so terrible at putting a smile on any face?

#Sorry #Brain things