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Grabbed these from the recent event I documented. The sun reminds me so much of of Disney’s Tangled.

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Faded pastel skies. 

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I haven't written a poem since January 19. I can't figure out how to turn this loneliness/aloneness into anything. I'm looking for a sign that this isn't the end.

maybe it doesn’t have to be turned into anything yet. maybe it’s not ready for the metaphors, the lines, the blood. maybe it just needs to be acknowledged for what it is. this is everything but the end. the poems will come, the poems always come.

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follow me on ig (if you want to LOL): maine.jpg

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I just love your simplicity! "A"

Whyyy thank you for that A. Hehe. :)

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Are you guys interested enough to know me better? Kidding. (What kind of question is that, Maine?) Anyway, thank you so much @am-vl​ for tagging me!! I really appreciate the thought of having me considered. I so love answering this kind of posts so thank you, really! :) 

Birthday: June 28, 1998 

Gender: Female

Relationship Status: I am currently in a relationship

Zodiac Sign: Cancer (FUN FACT: When I was a kid, I thought I had cancer hahaha why Maine).

Siblings: I have two older sisters and a younger brother

Favorite Colors: Thank God for letting that word be on its plural form! Anyway, I basically love brown and pink.

Pets: Two dogs! And random cats that consider our area as their home. But we are currently keeping two kittens - namely Bubbles and Panda - here in our house!

Wake up Times: I normally wake up at 8 or 9 a.m., but I always refuse to get off our bed and head back to sleep. So.. I re-wake up again at around 11 to 12 p.m.

Love or Lust: Love, love, love!

Lemonade or Iced Tea: Iced tea

Cats or Dogs: BOTH!

Coke or Pepsi: Coke forever and ever 

Day or Night: BOTH!

Text or Call: Both. It depends on how important a message is (I mean, of course you can tell messages through a talk, right?)

Met a Celebrity: Oh yas!

Light or Dark Hair: Dark

Shorter or Taller: Taller

Chapsticks or Lipsticks: Chapsticks

City or Country: Those are different things, really. I can live a different life in the city. The same goes in country.

Last Song You Listened To: Salut D'Amour by Edward Elgar

Thank you for standing by!! 

Tagging: @scatterbraiin @calloweus @hearethlia @whimsy-clarie @sunfflowerchild @herquiescent @rainberrydrops

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Hey there! I just wanted to let you know your photography is so great I used one of your photos to make my own edit. It's my header now actually. I'll post it later to give you cred but I hope its okay!

Heeeey! Thank you so much for that and for letting me know! I really appreciate your initiative to do so. I guess you don't have to post it to give credit to me. This message is enough. :) Thank you so much again and have a nice day! <3

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I don’t want people to tell me I am beautiful because what I look like agrees with that compliment. I want them to tell me I am beautiful with their eyes closed, and tell me I am beautiful because I am -- just the way I am..

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Before I give way to an incoming birthday-story-telling-post, I want to give an overview of what’s up on my life lately (yeah, like, what’s up?). I haven’t really been that busy, I am not using that as an excuse. It just happens that blogging about my life just made its way down on the list of my priorities. Perhaps from now on, I’ll post only a few of the significant things that happen in my life. Not that I prefer more privacy, but, what’s been happening in my life just can’t seem to turn into a piece of entry. So without further ado, let’s get the typing started!! (Bear with this looooong post anyway).

I finally got enrolled just last week! Sadly, I still don’t belong to a block where the most partition of Communication Arts students belong to. I don’t know. We have a small population in our school. I guess that is still a factor why such things are happening. I am partly sad and happy about this, but I already began to ponder over this matter. It’s like the same situation I got in way back in high school. I’ve always wanted to change my section, but God didn’t seem to make it happen. But I eventually realize there were reasons why I remained on that place. And so beautiful things happened, in His time. That’s why I refuse to get this thing on my way, and just trust Him for His plans for me on my second year of college. I am so excited! Two major subjects finally appeared among the 26 units: Intro to Communication and Intro to Film. Gaaaah! Aren’t those exciting? My classes are getting more and more relevant and of course.. harder. Haha.

I’ve been really active at church since the dance ministry held a free dance workshop. The ministry head assigned me to cover the whole event. I also managed to join and danced my heart out for the first time since I stopped dancing. Oh glob, I honestly missed dancing! Thank God for that opportunity. For three consecutive days, I would wake up early in the morning; go home at night; edit the videos I took the whole day that served as the documentation; upload pictures on the page to give people an update; and rest. That was how I went on on those three days, and I certainly loved it. It was really the most productive part of my most productive summer ever.

To continue the activity and productivity, I am so, so excited for the upcoming event at Elevate. It is called UNITE. It is the most awaited thing ever!! While waiting for it to come, each ministry is preparing surprises. I actually got confused. Being a member of both music and media ministry, our media ministry head assigned me and another member to be the official photographers of the event. I didn’t confirm ahead of time because it’s a commitment, so I gave myself much time to decide. And then one night, as I scanned the messages in my messenger, a group chat named “UNITE Worship Leaders” popped in my inbox. Opening the group chat I realized I got chosen to be one of the worship leaders. Oh.. I was utterly overwhelmed. I immediately thought to myself, “Really Lord? You are choosing me? What did I do to deserve this? It’s like I just started.” And so it was reality. But then I suddenly realized that I kind of committed half of myself to the media team (could that really come in half? Haha I don’t really know). So yeah, I got into a total confusion whether to do both. Or not? But then I just made a decision last night. I choose to photograph. Besides, it’s where I started and I would love to see everyone on photos rather than myself. And that’s where I would want to maximize myself in, and how I would worship God on that day. May He prepare and condition my heart for that service.

Last and definitely not the least! I am still happy for what happened last Saturday and yesterday. We started shooting the introduction video for UNITE, and I was assigned to be the videographer. I had so much fun!! Also, I got the chance again to document a special event (Father’s Day Special) on the main services in CCF. It was indeed another great experience! I spent my whole day at church, and it’s starting to be a home to me. Not the place, but the people, are starting to feel like home to me. And I’m grateful for that. Thanks be to God!!

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it’s such a struggle when you want to perform on stage, but at the same time take pictures of those who are on stage. 

can i just take selfies while singing/dancing/acting.

lol

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You never write to me that way.. You never tell me those words.. All you give me is silence.. And pieces.. Puzzles I hardly put together.. What if my hands start to ache?

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One sunset; two different times

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I’ve been having a hard time trying to accept things that aren’t in the way they used to be.. I just want to breakdown and cry my heart out until I no longer have to feel all these subtle emotions that I cannot contain any longer inside this heavy chest of mine. While people have started writing their new stories with new people, here I am, stuck between a chapter I cannot get over from.. Stuck between lines and words - clinging onto every single letter.. I am stuck between spaces.. I am stuck.

I suck.