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[enmedicus]

            an extremely private , independent original character blog . muse is a doctor and adapted to fit different universes as interactions grow . a morally grey character weaving her own ‘ right and wrong ’ and prioritizing survival under the guise of infinite goodness . nsfw and adult material will be present on this blog as i am above the age of twenty-five . if you are under the age of twenty-one i ask that you refrain from following me for your comfort and for my own . follow at your own discretion .

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[dearmasdaily]

ANA DE ARMAS as Iz in WAR DOGS (2016) dir. Todd Phillips

[enmedicus]

         blinking , she stares at frame in doorway . she’d only requested assistance moments before . there should have been no way the woman staring back at her was here right now . “ you told me you were going into john’s territory . ” a quiet shake to her voice , she had in fact waited to call for assistance , assuming the deputy had stepped away . “ how did you .. are you okay ? ”

         @deputys   ...   eve

[enmedicus]

         a sigh , one of the loudest she’s dropped in a week . there is never enough time and always more people . she’s front row seat to watching him get worse . “ you know , why don’t you make a bet on something ? make it a challenge . ” words leave lips slowly as she tightens the last of bandages , avoiding eye contact . “ at least this way , you’ve a reason to invest yourself in something -- even if you don’t have hope . ” a grimace dances across her face and then it’s gone , hope seems a joke when you live here now . she lifts her head , accidental eye contact and she’s sucked back into him again . “ find another reason to fight i suppose . ”

            @deputys   ...   adam . 

[milfsource]

ANA DE ARMAS in Deep Water | 2022

[mikaeled]

Ana de Armas in Overdrive (2017)

[ohisms]

𝑺𝑬𝑨𝑳𝑬𝑫 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 𝑨 𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑫 𝑲𝑰𝑺𝑺 .    (   sentence  starters  originating  from  season  one  of  syfy’s  ‘ wynonna earp ’  .   adjust  pronouns  as  necessary ,  heavy  warning  for  mature  themes !   )

❛  don’t  go  out  there .  ❜ ❛  pretty  AND  smart .  we’re  gonna  get  along  just  fine .  ❜ ❛  if  you  hurt  her  i’ll  kill  you !  ❜ ❛  what  are  you  doing  here ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  late .  as  usual .  ❜ ❛  you’re  in  this  with  me  now ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  no  one  else  is  gonna  save  you .  ❜ ❛  why  don’t  you  slip  into  something  more  comfy ,  huh ?  like  a  COMA !  ❜ ❛  i’m  gonna  put  you  in  the  ground  like  it’s  my  job .  ❜ ❛  you’re  following  me ?  ❜ ❛  i  noticed  you  already  ‘ borrowed ’  all of my whiskey .  ❜ ❛  you’re  supposed  to  be  normal  -  you’re  supposed  to  be  SAFE !  ❜ ❛  of  all  the  things  i’ve  ever  wanted  to  call  you ?  you’re  such  a  coward .  ❜ ❛  wanna  know  how  batshit  i  am ?  nobody  shoots  my  family  but  me .  ❜ ❛  you  stupid ,  crazy  bitch .  ❜ ❛  you’re  really  staying ,  this  time ,  aren’t  you ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  BLACKMAIL ,  you  dick !  ❜ ❛  how  dare  you !  ❜ ❛  you  owe  me  dinner .  i’ll  settle  for  tacos !    ❜ ❛  it  seems  i  have  settled  among  a  commune  of  artists .  ❜ ❛  how  about  smiling ,  huh ?  you  ever  do  that ?  ❜ ❛  well ,  i  like  attention .  i  always  have .  ❜ ❛  you  ain’t  one  of  us . ❜ ❛  i’ve  been  meaning  to  introduce  myself ,  i’m  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  when  i  see  something  i  like ,  i  don’t  wanna  wait . ❜ ❛  good  thing  you’re  not  some  guy ,  right ,  or  this  would  be  really ,  really  awkward  …  ❜ ❛  you  don’t  have  to  be  nice  to  everybody . ❜ ❛  i  would  remember  a  face  like  yours . ❜ ❛  i’m  an  excellent  judge  of  character .  ❜ ❛  you’re  so  not  my  type .  ❜ ❛  darlin’ ,  i’m  everybody’s  type . ❜ ❛  the  dead  don’t  get  a  vote . ❜ ❛  pfft ,  rookie  mistake .  ❜ ❛  god ,  that’s  super  weird  -  what’s  going  on ?  ❜ ❛  you  need  to  hide .  ❜ ❛  run !  i’ll  hold  them  off . ❜ ❛  i  am  sorry ,  [ name ] ,  but  it’s  you  or  me . ❜ ❛  you’re  a  good  man !  you’ve  got  a  code ! ❜ ❛  you  don’t  wanna  do  this !  ❜ ❛  you  have  no  idea  what  i  want .  ❜ ❛  buy  me  a  round ,  [ name ] ?  ❜ ❛  seems  like  you’re  just  my  type .  ❜ ❛  we  can’t  all  settle  down  with  our  high-school  sweethearts .  ❜ ❛  welcome  to  team  ‘ shut  up  and  do  what  he  says ’ .  sometimes ,  we  get  donuts . ❜ ❛  you  should  be  doing  this .  you  were  meant  to .  ❜ ❛  deal  with  that  …  or i will .  ❜ ❛  we  didn’t  trust  each  other  …  and  now  look  what  i’ve  done .  ❜ ❛  you  do  not  know  what  i  am .  ❜ ❛  you’re  supposed  to  be  a  hero .  ❜ ❛  pull  your  head  out  of  the  past .  ❜ ❛  the  hell  took  you  so  long ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  what  our  victories  might  have  to  look  like .  ❜ ❛  with  all  the  shit  i’ve  done  in  my  life  …  working  with  you ?  i  don’t  think  i  can  look  in  the  mirror .  ❜ ❛  look ,  if  you’re  about  to  propose  a  threesome ,  i’m  tired  &  i  haven’t  shaved  my  legs .  ❜ ❛  this  just  doesn’t  make  sense  to  me .  ❜ ❛  goddamn ,  it’s  you .  ❜ ❛  the  problem  with  this  criminal  thing ,  is  it’s  kinda  fun .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  live  like  this ,  not  anymore .  ❜ ❛  don’t  get  your  hopes  up ,  we  don’t  know  what  we’re  gonna  find .  ❜ ❛  it  wasn’t  my  idea  to  do  this .  ❜ ❛  this  is  the  only  way  to  sanctuary .  ❜ ❛  you  just  could  never  help  yourself .  ❜ ❛  vengeance  is  hollow ,  [ name ] .  it  isn’t  worth  a  thing .  ❜ ❛  you’re  not  a  monster .  ❜ ❛  i  need  rules .  a  code .  otherwise  i’ll  end  up  just  like  you .  ❜ ❛  stop  kidding  yourself ,  [ name ] ,  you  are  exactly  like  me .  ❜ ❛  i  sympathize  with  your  predicament .  ❜ ❛  leave  if  you  want .   go  get  …  dead .  ❜ ❛  only  one  death  scares  me ,  &  it  didn’t  take .  ❜ ❛  ugh ,  ever  heard  of  manscaping ?  ❜ ❛  come  on ,  he  is  just  …  so  beneath  you .  ❜ ❛  what’s  up ,  [ name ] ?  i  never  see  you .  ❜ ❛  i’m  the  one  with  the  vendetta ,  why  are  you  gunning  so  hard ?  ❜ ❛  we ?  there’s  no  ‘ we ’ .  ❜ ❛  why  should  i  help  you ?  ❜ ❛  you  think  an  $8  bottle  of  pinot  will  make  me  listen ?  ❜ ❛  i  never  liked  you ,  you  know ?  ❜ ❛  am  i  in  danger ?  ❜ ❛  back  then ,  you  lived  &  died  by  what  the  seasons  gave  you .  ❜ ❛  shut  up  and  help  me .  ❜ ❛  can’t  we  just  enjoy  the  moment  for  once ?  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  now  is  not  a  good  time .  ❜ ❛  happiness  is  a  myth .  ❜ ❛  would  you  like  some  company ?  ❜ ❛  it’s  gonna  be  a  long  night ,   might  as  well  make  it  fun .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  done  your  worst .  ❜ ❛  how  many  tiny  pillows  does  one  girl  need ?  ❜ ❛  hold  on  a  second ,  i  want  to  record  this  so  i  can  replay  it  to  you  when  you’re  being  a  dick .  ❜ ❛  you  being  here  is  definitely  not  selling  ‘normal’ .  ❜ ❛  there’s  been  a  change  of  plans ,  i  need  to  go  away  for  awhile .  ❜ ❛  this  is  supremely  cryptic ,  even  for  you .  ❜ ❛  say  ‘pomegranate’  if  someone’s  got  a  gun  on  you .  ❜ ❛  this  doesn’t  seem  healthy ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  really  care  where  we  are ,  as  long  as  we’re  all  together .  ❜ ❛  are  you  sure  you’re  okay ?  ❜ ❛  don’t  be  cross ,  i’ve  got  wood .  ❜ ❛  your  ass  is  like  …  top  shelf .  ❜ ❛  dude ,  you’re  like  a  walking  bumper  sticker .  ❜ ❛  is  this  strip  poker ?  i’m  not  shy …  ❜ ❛  this  kind  of  wound  won’t  heal ,  i’m  dead  already .  ❜ ❛  you  save  your  vendetta  for  another  night .  ❜ ❛  you  suck  at  your  job .  ❜ ❛  don’t  shoot  me ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  honestly ,  [ name ] ,  you’ve  gotten  so  weird .  ❜ ❛  that  is  NOT  sexy !  ❜ ❛  nobody  keeps  booze  in  here ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  i  think  somebody’s  trying  to  scare  you  …  toy  with  you .  why ?!  ❜ ❛  you  of  all  people  should  know  better  than  to  try  and  make  me  question  my  sanity .  ❜ ❛  what  do  you  MEAN  you  killed  a  stripper ?  ❜ ❛  in  my  experience ,  dynamite  solves  all  manner  of  problems .  ❜ ❛  haven’t  you  read  a  romance  novel  lately ?  heroes  always  win .  ❜ ❛  oh ,  you  want  to  be  a  hero ?  ❜ ❛  wanna  tell  me  what  that  was  about ?  ❜ ❛  that  was  really  brave .  stupid ,  but  brave .  ❜ ❛  i  have  something  i  need  to  say .  ❜ ❛  i’m  starting  to  think  sanity’s  overrated .  ❜ ❛  i  understand  if  you  hate  me .  ❜ ❛  you’re  always ,  ALWAYS  lying .  ❜ ❛  we  should  get  some  breakfast ,  i  could  murder  a  stack  of  pancakes .  ❜ ❛  you  should  know  by  now ,  i’m  not  most  people .  ❜ ❛  well ,  you  learn  something  new  every  day .  ❜ ❛  hey ,  no ,  you’re  okay .  lay  back .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  i  need  you  to  listen  to  me .  ❜ ❛  okay ,  [ name ] ,  we’re  in  serious  shit  here .  ❜ ❛  park  your  daddy  issues .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  like  you ,  [ name ] .  i’m  not  brave .  ❜ ❛  what  was  the  last  thing  you  saw ?  ❜ ❛  close  your  eyes ,  take  a  deep  breath  in .  ❜ ❛  look  at  who  the  cat  dragged  in .  ❜ ❛  cut  the  bullshit .  i  know  who  you  are .  ❜ ❛  you  use  humor  as  a  form  of  self - defense .  ❜ ❛  answer  my  questions  without  any  more  guff .  ❜ ❛  what  is  it  with  psycho’s  and  talking  in  the  third  person ?  ❜ ❛  you’re  not  really  in  the  position  to  do  any  bargaining ,  are  you ?  ❜ ❛  you  do  look  like  you  can  handle  yourself .  ❜ ❛  you  want  my  help ?  you  need  to  earn  it .  ❜ ❛  i  guess  [ name ]  wants  you  alive  for  something .  ❜ ❛  we  should  make  it  look  real .  ❜ ❛  you  know  how  to  make  someone  show  you  where  something  precious  is  hidden ?  set  fire  to  their  house .  it’s  the  first  thing  they  go  for .  ❜ ❛  don’t  be  irrational ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  served  your  purpose ,  and  now  you  are  released .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  had  a  lot  of  names ,  but  you  can  call  me  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  weren’t  leaving  without  me ,  were  you ?  ❜ ❛  never  touch  my  stuff .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  sickest  puppy  in  the  litter .  ❜ ❛  you  were  dead  …  and  now  you  are  not .  ❜ ❛  oh ,  aren’t  you  the  master  of  deception ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  not  kid  ourselves ,  you’re  not  going  to  survive  this .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  i  always  hoped  that  i  would  have  this  pleasure .  ❜ ❛  if  you  stand  for  nothing ,  you  are  sure  to  fall .  ❜ ❛  you  do  what  you  do  best ,  [ name ] ,  you  fight .  ❜ ❛  you’re  just  like  me .  you’re  broken .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  lonesome ,  i  just  prefer  to  hunt  alone .  ❜ ❛  you  have  to  let  go  sometime ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  you  continue  to  disappoint  me .  ❜ ❛  let  me  make  it  up  to  you .  ❜ ❛  i  thought  i’d  feel  different .  i  thought  i’d  look  different .  ❜ ❛  you  release  the  rage ,  you  might  find  there’s  nothing  left .  ❜ ❛  woah ,  wow ,  this  is  not  what  i  expected  the  cat  to  drag  in .  ❜ ❛  for  the  first  time  in  ages ,  i  woke  up  and  knew  exactly  what  i  needed  to  do .  ❜ ❛  you  can  try ,  but  i  dare  you  to  cockblock  the  drive  i  woke  up  with  this  morning .  ❜ ❛  i’ll  sleep  when  i’m  dead .  ❜ ❛  you’re  not  alone ,   [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  just  once  i  want  you  to  say  it .  that  you  care  about  me .  ❜ ❛  someone  woke  up  on  the  wrong  side  of  the  bed .  ❜ ❛  why  do  i  even  get  out  of  bed ?  ❜ ❛  i  lost  you  once ,  i  won’t  let  that  happen  again .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  you  are  shakin’  like  a  leaf .  ❜ ❛  jesus ,  listen  to  me .  maybe  i  am  crazy .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  sure  this  is  the  best  idea .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  one  who  told  me  i  should  blow  off  steam .  ❜ ❛  i’m  not  crazy ,  right ?  there’s  something  going  on  here .  ❜ ❛  you’re  making  fun  of  me  …  ❜ ❛  get  in  the  car .  ❜ ❛  could  everybody  just  stand  still  for  one  freakin’  minute ?!  ❜ ❛  it’s  gonna  be  okay .  ❜ ❛  i  just  screamed  at  you ,  you  shouldn’t  be  nice  to  me .  ❜ ❛  we’re  not  dating .  ❜ ❛  i  would  never  ask  you  to  be  someone  you’re  not .  ❜ ❛  yeah ,  sure ,  [ name ] ,  whatever  you  want .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  what  kind  of  a  mess  have  you  got  yourself  into  now ?  ❜ ❛  if  you  shoot ,  this  all  goes  to  shit .  ❜ ❛  your  poker  face  is  pitiful .  ❜ ❛  sorry ,  no  speak  evil .  ❜ ❛  who  won’t  you  make  a  deal  with ,  huh ?  ❜ ❛  you  can  judge  me  all  you  want .  what  do  i  care  for  some  broken  woman’s  opinion  of  my  character ?  ❜ ❛  you  can  talk  all  you  want .  they’ll  be  your  last  words ,  anyways .  ❜ ❛  this  whole  time  you’ve  thought  this  was  personal .  ❜ ❛  you  shut  your  lying  mouth .  ❜ ❛  what  happened  to  being  friends ?  ❜ ❛  it’s  not  so  easy  to  be  brazen  when  the  thing  that  you  want ,  that  scares  you  to  death ,  is  sitting  right  in  front  of  you .  ❜ ❛  i  scare  you ?  ❜ ❛  when  i  think  about  what  i  wanna  do  most  in  this  world ,  it’s  you .  ❜ ❛  jump  in  anytime ,  [ name ] ,  because  i  really  don’t  know  how  to  do  this .  ❜ ❛  maybe  you  should  make  me .  ❜ ❛  i  owe  you  a  heap  of  thanks .  and  my  life .  ❜ ❛  can  i  at  least  buy  you  a  drink ?  ❜ ❛  aw ,  [ name ] ,  you  really  do  care .  ❜ ❛  it’s  worth  dying  to  see  the  look  on  your  face .  ❜ ❛  men  are  all  the  same .  even  the  demonic  ones .  ❜ ❛  [ name ] ,  calm  your  tits .  have  a  drink .  ❜ ❛  do  me  a  goddamn  favor  and  refrain  from  mentioning  that  name .  ❜ ❛  i  think  you  would  be  very  pretty  in  blue .  ❜ ❛  everybody  knows .  about  us .  the  sex .  ❜ ❛  you  tracked  me ?  ❜ ❛  what  are  you  doing  here ,  [ name ] ?  ❜ ❛  if  you’re  keeping  things  from  me ,  IMPORTANT  things  …  ❜ ❛  don’t  get  all  hard  &  forget  that  you’re  human .  ❜ ❛  sun’s  starting  to  go  down ,  we  should  head  back .  ❜ ❛  i  feel  a  real  connection  with  you ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  i  do  hate  goodbyes .  ❜ ❛  look ,  we  need  you ,  okay ?  ❜ ❛  can’t  you  at  least  try ?  ❜ ❛  we  can’t  tell  anyone .  not  until  we  know  for  sure .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  want  to  be  rude ,  but  i  don’t  know  any  of  you  …  or  what’s  happening .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  drink .  ❜ ❛  what  kind  of  people  give  a  kid  a  switchblade ?  ❜ ❛  this  is  your  home ,  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  how  can  you  think  this  is  funny ?  ❜ ❛  i’ve  been  crazy ,  didn’t  care  for  it .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  been  told  i  have  character .  ❜ ❛  are  you  scared  of  me ?  ❜ ❛  i  need  to  start  drinking  less  …  or  much ,  much  more .  ❜ ❛  how  in  the  hell  did  you  get  this ?  ❜ ❛  i  lost  control .  i  was  angry  at  everything  …  at  everyone .  ❜ ❛  you  promised  to  never  tell  anyone  that .  ❜ ❛  it’s  always  been  you  and  i .  ❜ ❛  it  can  be  like  it  always  was  …  and  different ,  too .  in  all  the  right  ways .  ❜ ❛  you’re  not  alone  anymore .  ❜ ❛  i  think  i  got  a  little  bit  shot  …  ❜ ❛  i  need  you  to  tell  me  everything  you  know  about  [ name ] .  ❜ ❛  i  thought  i  was  doing  what  you  asked !  ❜ ❛  whatever  you’ve  got  planned ,  i’m  game .  ❜ ❛  now  there’s  a  sight  for  sore  eyes .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  wanna  hurt  you .  ❜ ❛  why  aren’t  you  more  freaked  out ?  ❜ ❛  if  there’s  one  thing  i’ve  learned  this  year ,  it’s  that  ‘good’  is  a  moving  target .  ❜ ❛  what  are  you  gonna  do  about  it ?  tell  on  me ?  ❜ ❛  who  the  hell  are  you ?  ❜ ❛  you  took  it  from  me ?  ❜ ❛  nobody’s  getting  hurt  on  my  watch .  ❜ ❛  when  are  you  gonna  take  responsibility  for  all  that  you’ve  done ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  running  out  of  goddamn  time .  ❜ ❛  this  isn’t  over .  i’m  coming  for  you .  ❜ ❛  now  you  know  how  it  feels  when  people  take  your  things .  ❜ ❛  i  know  that  you’re  scared ,  so  am  i .  ❜ ❛  are  you  sure  you’re  up  for  this ?  ❜ ❛  you  might  want  to  stand  back .  ❜ ❛  you  went  wrong .  ❜ ❛  this  one’s  gonna  hurt .  ❜ ❛  i’m  ready  for  anything .  ❜

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[enmedicus]

THE  MUSE  AS  THE  ZODIAC  SIGNS.

bold what applies to your muse. italicize what applies sometimes. strike what is never applicable.

ARIES: bonfires, competitiveness, hand veins, loud laughs, messy hair, sneaking out at 2am, abandoned beaches, stray dogs, candle lights, body language, creaking floorboards, ouija boards, having no regrets, karaoke nights out

TAURUS: house plants, oversized sweaters, soft hands, fuzzy socks, visiting big cities, snoozing your alarm clock, the colour yellow, vanilla scented candles, aloe vera, fruit smoothies, baking cookies, the mom friend, loves the ukulele

GEMINI: femme fatale movies, in love with female villains, sharp eyeliner, quick-witted, does things out of spite, do no harm but take no shit, in love with dogs, probably cries during sad movies but won’t admit it, easily excited, ripped jeans

CANCER: mermaids, easily infatuated by love, smelling flowers, picnics in open fields, gets sad when thinking about the past, impressed easily, daydreaming in class, plucking fresh fruit, loves skirts and fashion, would die for their friends

LEO: confident in what they do, kill them with kindness, high ponytails, probably wants to visit paris once, not afraid to tell the truth, in love with cute animals, the one to lift others up, good at teamwork, the warm feeling of summer, dragons

VIRGO: pastel markers, the smell of lavender, has an welcoming vibe around them, actually organized, scrunchies, neat notes, loves going to museums, probably into photography, neutral colours, handwritten letters, stardust

LIBRA: soft blankets, cuddling the ones you love, always standing up for your friends, hopeless romantic, can be very distant, can be a little dramatic, pretty hair, dresses nicely, tries to be popular on social media, optimistic, humorous

SCORPIO: cottages in the woods, in love with greek mythology, vintage t-shirts, really emotional but doesn’t want anyone to know, determined, moonlight, pretty handwriting, into the retro aesthetic, rainy days, doesn’t judge people, cats

SAGITTARIUS: always ready for an adventure, street smart, wants to travel the world someday, doesn’t easily trust people, alcohol, paintbrushes, can’t sit still, untied shoelaces, tangled up earphones, blasting music at midnight, eye-gazing

CAPRICORN: cold aura, coffee is what keeps them going, probably haven’t slept in two days, actually a big softie, high-waisted jeans, cute pet videos, small apartments, has too many notebooks, often goes to the library, writing essays

AQUARIUS: loves to paint and do any kind of art, wants to live at the seaside, knows a lot of random facts, shares food, messy notes, bullshits an entire essay, graffiti, has their own distinct style, wants to live their life like they want to

PISCES: old teddy bears, unsent love letters, mom-jeans, loves to sing, feels at home by the ocean, writes poetry, hard-workers, always up for deep conversations, probably did the stupid thing, open curtains, a soft breeze

[enmedicus]

                  024. — Step on my muse’s fingers.                @sacrifought​   :   prompt

      the edge of the counter meets her hip in the most unpleasant way . the sound of papers fluttering replaces the second time she’s attempted to explain to him why she couldn’t share the information on documentation in her hand . she doesn’t know him well enough yet to know that her luck ran it’s coarse ; no is not an acceptable answer and certainly not the third time .

   “   fuck   .   ” she mutters in pained breath , knees meeting hardwood and reaching for papers in front of her . three gathered , the fourth and the one in question lies between them . no sooner had stilettoed nails met paper and curled , that pressure meets her hand . 

   she ignore the action at first , hand moves under his boot only a fraction before movement is denied to her completely . pressure turns to faint pain , it’s not enough to injure her at least not yet . eyes fly up to meet him , a look she hadn’t seen before on his lips . there’s a smile there , sinister in every last drop and his eyes seem to tempt to her deny him again . 

   “   jacob you know   --   ” a hiss interrupts denial , a hint of pain turns to needles , she can feel it radiating to her wrist , down her fingers , but she knows he’s controlling himself in calculated extent . he doesn’t let off even when he kneels down in front of her , as if he knows exactly how much she can take before he damages her ability to work . the needles turn to tingle now , coming from both sides as hand pushes into the floor . 

   three more seconds she meets his eyes before hand uncurls to relieve the ache , setting the document free of her grasp . it’s relent and resignation as she’s allowed to pull her hand back , not an utterance of resistance on her tongue . her eyes admit defeat , she had no intention of denying him again when his smile so clearly warns her against anymore more words not in his favor . 

   he could have broken her hand if he wanted and she saw it in his eyes . the flash of reminder that jacob had let her keep it ; despite her refusal . the throbbing would be a reminder the next few days that it had been by his own grace and his allowance that she could continue to work .

[enmedicus]

headcanon : nicknames

   in regards to her.   katarina is a sucker for a good nickname . she’s always been the one to find excessive flattery in it ; even when there was none . she loves when people call her kat , kitty kat , or any variation of the ‘ cat ’ pet name that you could think of . 

   in regards to others.   though she’d never admit it out loud , she hardly ever considers anyone by their real name when thinking about them , as she assigns nicknames by prominent characteristics to everyone she meets and gets to know on a personal level ( patient only or majority interactions excluded ) . that’s not to say that the nicknames would necessarily be accurate . she is one of those people that will assign the grumpiest person she knows the name ‘ sunshine ’ in her brain but will never utter that out loud in front of them or everyone . the assignment of nicknames helps her remember facts and bits of information associated with those people and those people alone , being able to recall just about anything important about ‘ sunshine ’ should the need arise . 

   despite her memory being quite stunningly brilliant , katarina is terrible at retaining names to faces and if nicknames are not assigned , she typically doesn’t recall what someone’s face looks like .  

[enmedicus]

               ❛  are  you  okay ?  ❜                @himncskur​   :   prompt

      eyes attempting to focus , she knows the symptoms of head colliding with something before she can focus on anything else . despite trauma , brain begins it’s diagnosis and treatment in the best example of second nature . 

   she registers the feeling slick feeling on right side of her face ; blood . the pounding comes from multiple points however . a deep breath that allows her focus , the front hurts more . she must have hit her head on the ground too . where was she ?     “   are you okay   ?   ”

   familiarity as surroundings take hold . dizziness isn’t nausea inducing ; not hard enough for a concussion but she’d be feeling it for days . hand rises to open wound and she flexes her fingers . motor function seemed to be fine , just a shock to the system ; she’ll be alright . 

   eyes blink multiple times ; pink flashes in a tested scan and then slits return . “   sera   ?   ” her ears ring , she blinks again . how did she get here ? “   yeah yeah   ,   i’m okay   .   gonna be a killer headache later though   ;   what are you doing here   ?   ” full system scan initiates , four points of corruption ; virus playing in codes she could isolate now but she’d lose function in at least one arm . “   any chance you know where we’re at   ?   ” she laughs as if unlocking a new daily occurrence .

[kxboom]

“you called me beautiful knowing how ugly my heart was.”

—

[b-witched]

[enmedicus]

      GIVE , BUT GIVE UNTIL IT   H U R T S   .        ©

[rbhvleo]

it eats me alive.

[eurodynamic]

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