M O N A C H O P S I S

THE SUBTLE BUT PERSISTENT FEELING OF BEING OUT OF PLACE

[enmityofelks]

If you find this message, it means I have died. I've gone to the Garden, tasted the fruit it bears, and have to wish to return.

Monarch, if you're reading this, you got what you wished for. I know you didn't want me around, that I was in your way the whole time. I'm sorry I was such a bother, I hope you're happy.

Piece of shit...

This goes to all of you in fact. Every single person reading this.

It's your fault you'd rather stay in a nightmare then create your own dream, that you'd rather grow into misery than return to wonder.

Goodnight.

Welcome to ENMITYOFELKS. Wether you have come seeking answers or simply an escape to my Garden of Dreams I must preface some things. This blog will go into themes of derealization, suicidal ideation, childhood trauma, and abusive relationships. Continue at your own risk.

If you have found this blog, I commend you. It seems her call has done it's work. I am but one of many voices trapped in this Garden. We all hope to know you soon.

VICTIMS OF THE GARDEN THE ESCAPIST | THEY/THEM THE MONARCH | ANY/ALL THE CHARMAINE | SHE/HER THE ELK | IT/ITS

[enmityofelks]

i think i have my answer...... you must be queer!

i mean... yeah i guess?

[enmityofelks]

[MISSING POSTERS FOR FOUR CHILDREN, SOMETHING ABOUT THEM FEELS FAMILIAR]

[enmityofelks]

Oh dear... Oh dearest, are you all okay? ...Indigo would. Maybe handle this better.

@naturetakesitskouris

UUUU... WHO'S THIS? A NEW FRIEND? UM... I THINK WE'RE OKAY, THE OTHER THREE DON'T SEEM HAPPY... BUT I HAVE FRIENDS TO TALK TO! SO I'M OKAY AT LEAST.

...

Alright, kid shut it. We are very fine, nothing some nobody cunt like you needs to be poking your nose into. I can handle this, I'm their leader after all.

[naturetakesitskouris]

You are their leader? I'm sure its a big job. I'm sure they really look up to you, huh? That's a lot of responsibility. Im sure you're really good at it.

[enmityofelks]

Ugh, sorry about him, that insult was super unnecessary. Thing is, only really Charmaine looks up to them. She's um... Putting this nicely as I can, a piece of shit. Ruined me and Elk's lives. We um... We can handle ourselves though, not like you could help us much anymore.

Adults already failed us once...

[naturetakesitskouris]

..I'm so sorry. I know I cant help. But... if you ever need somebody to talk to? I'm here. Hopefully, eventually, maybe... me and Indigo could work together to find you guys. I feel your energy, I... Hopefully we can help you all rest well someday. Im sure the woods arent the best place to sleep.

[enmityofelks]

...I don't think we can be reached anymore. I'm sure Charmaine would appreciate the company though. I should go, the fight with monarch made M upset, thanks for um... Caring at least?

[enmityofelks]

Oh dear... Oh dearest, are you all okay? ...Indigo would. Maybe handle this better.

@naturetakesitskouris

UUUU... WHO'S THIS? A NEW FRIEND? UM... I THINK WE'RE OKAY, THE OTHER THREE DON'T SEEM HAPPY... BUT I HAVE FRIENDS TO TALK TO! SO I'M OKAY AT LEAST.

...

Alright, kid shut it. We are very fine, nothing some nobody cunt like you needs to be poking your nose into. I can handle this, I'm their leader after all.

[naturetakesitskouris]

You are their leader? I'm sure its a big job. I'm sure they really look up to you, huh? That's a lot of responsibility. Im sure you're really good at it.

[enmityofelks]

Ugh, sorry about him, that insult was super unnecessary. Thing is, only really Charmaine looks up to them. She's um... Putting this nicely as I can, a piece of shit. Ruined me and Elk's lives. We um... We can handle ourselves though, not like you could help us much anymore.

Adults already failed us once...

[enmityofelks]

Oh dear... Oh dearest, are you all okay? ...Indigo would. Maybe handle this better.

@naturetakesitskouris

UUUU... WHO'S THIS? A NEW FRIEND? UM... I THINK WE'RE OKAY, THE OTHER THREE DON'T SEEM HAPPY... BUT I HAVE FRIENDS TO TALK TO! SO I'M OKAY AT LEAST.

...

Alright, kid shut it. We are very fine, nothing some nobody cunt like you needs to be poking your nose into. I can handle this, I'm their leader after all.

[enmityofelks]

hello, Charmaine. how are you, kiddo?

-k ( @itwasakanonevent )

UUUU KALEI! HI I MISSED YOU! I'M OKAY, MONARCH AND ESCAPIST KEEP FIGHTING THOUGH... UUU.... I REALLY DONT LIKE WHEN THEY DO THAT... IT HURTS MY EARS! THEY'RE SO LOUD AND IT MAKES THE GARDEN UPSET.

[itwasakanonevent]

oh dear… could you close your ears and sing a song to yourself? that blocks noise.

as for the garden… is it a place or a person? i’m confused.

[enmityofelks]

I COULD... I LOVE SINGING! BUT MAMA ALWAYS SAID I WAS TOO NOISY... SO I ONLY SING WHEN I'M TOLD TO NOW. UUU...

THE GARDEN IS... UM... IT'S... I DON'T KNOW ACTUALLY. BOTH I THINK? IT'S WHERE WE ALL ARE BUT IT ALSO TALKS TO US SOMETIMES. MOSTLY YELLS AT MONARCH AND ESCAPIST BECAUSE THEY ARGUE TOO MUCH!

[enmityofelks]

hello, Charmaine. how are you, kiddo?

-k ( @itwasakanonevent )

UUUU KALEI! HI I MISSED YOU! I'M OKAY, MONARCH AND ESCAPIST KEEP FIGHTING THOUGH... UUU.... I REALLY DONT LIKE WHEN THEY DO THAT... IT HURTS MY EARS! THEY'RE SO LOUD AND IT MAKES THE GARDEN UPSET.

[enmityofelks]

charmaine's complaining about missing her friends... guess it can't hurt to let her talk for a bit.

[enmityofelks]

been quiet since that thing with it, but of course those two are yelling at each other again. christ, can we get peace and quiet for more than a day?

[vermilionbirdexorcism]

you. you know about dead people right? what do you know about the afterlife?

-the elk (@enmityofelks)

The afterlife? Weeeeell, there's probably lots of those out there! Where a spirit ends up after they move on is entirely up to them! That's why I can't really give a good answer whenever people ask where the ghost of their loved one goes after I exorcise them. There's just too many afterlives and options out there! :)

[enmityofelks]

...and say the ghost themselves are asking? you ever heard of a... garden?

[vermilionbirdexorcism]

Well I'd say that's one self-aware ghost! But a garden? Hmmmmm, some people say their vision of an afterlife is like a garden, yeah! Not one I've heard very many times, though! Most people don't really believe in an afterlife nowadays, or they want to go to heaven or whatever. Why do you ask?

[enmityofelks]

personal experience i suppose. trying to find some stuff out. this helps, thanks.

[vermilionbirdexorcism]

you. you know about dead people right? what do you know about the afterlife?

-the elk (@enmityofelks)

The afterlife? Weeeeell, there's probably lots of those out there! Where a spirit ends up after they move on is entirely up to them! That's why I can't really give a good answer whenever people ask where the ghost of their loved one goes after I exorcise them. There's just too many afterlives and options out there! :)

[enmityofelks]

...and say the ghost themselves are asking? you ever heard of a... garden?

[enmityofelks]

...that's enough from all of you.

[enmityofelks]

I swear whatever the fuck you do do not listen to a single fucking thing that fraud says. Monarch isn't this heroic leader that them and... Charmaine paint him to be, she's a piece of shit who's hurt people. Who's hurt me.

God I wish they didn't target Charmaine, she's so young and impressionable. Thank god she doesn't remember how she... Nevermind.

That piece of shit...

[enmityofelks]

You cannot seriously keep this grudge even here. I apologized didn't I?

[enmityofelks]

Bold of you to show your face here after you fucking OWPPSH QS.

...what the hell? owppsh qs! no... OWPPSH QS. Why can't I say it?

Monarch what the fuck did you do...?

[enmityofelks]

T H I S I S N O T T H E I R D O I N G .

Y O U O F A L L P E O P L E S H O U L D K N O W T H A T ██████ .

[enmityofelks]

I swear whatever the fuck you do do not listen to a single fucking thing that fraud says. Monarch isn't this heroic leader that them and... Charmaine paint him to be, she's a piece of shit who's hurt people. Who's hurt me.

God I wish they didn't target Charmaine, she's so young and impressionable. Thank god she doesn't remember how she... Nevermind.

That piece of shit...

[enmityofelks]

You cannot seriously keep this grudge even here. I apologized didn't I?

[enmityofelks]

Bold of you to show your face here after you fucking OWPPSH QS.

...what the hell? owppsh qs! no... OWPPSH QS. Why can't I say it?

Monarch what the fuck did you do...?

[enmityofelks]

I swear whatever the fuck you do do not listen to a single fucking thing that fraud says. Monarch isn't this heroic leader that them and... Charmaine paint him to be, she's a piece of shit who's hurt people. Who's hurt me.

God I wish they didn't target Charmaine, she's so young and impressionable. Thank god she doesn't remember how she... Nevermind.

That piece of shit...

[enmityofelks]

You cannot seriously keep this grudge even here. I apologized didn't I?

[enmityofelks]

I swear whatever the fuck you do do not listen to a single fucking thing that fraud says. Monarch isn't this heroic leader that them and... Charmaine paint him to be, she's a piece of shit who's hurt people. Who's hurt me.

God I wish they didn't target Charmaine, she's so young and impressionable. Thank god she doesn't remember how she... Nevermind.

That piece of shit...