at this moment she’s running on the fuel that is her anger , her anger at how once more a loved one had been ripped away from her —- first her mother , then lincoln and now indra ? indra had been all she had left ! and azgeda wanted her to comply with their orders , to go with them and no doubt be locked up —– it was like being back on the ark , back to being the girl under the floor , back to being a prisoner . NO ! she wouldn’t do that , she wouldn’t bow down to azgeda , she refused . she’d come too far to go back now . it’s what causes octavia to use every single ounce of strength in her body to fight , to strike at echo with such ferocity and to do anything and everything to subdue her —- it was hard to stay focused when she could distantly hear her brother calling and begging for it all to stop . emeralds flicker to his hues as she’s spinning and swinging her sword at echo’s . ‘ i will NOT give into their commands bellamy —– this has to happen , or they’ll never STOP ! we tried it their way and it got people killed . have some faith in me ! ’ words are uttered through clenched teeth as she tries to calm the chaos that’s residing and ricocheting off her rib cage . but she’s failing , her fighting though trained is sloppier because of this , throwing punches when her sword is swiped from her and narrowly dodging the oppositions blade —- but she’s giving as good as she gets . that is until she ends up on the floor .
she’s scrambling as she turns onto her stomach , reaching for her sword inches away from her —- ignoring echo’s words that are pleading . I SAID I WANTED YOU ALIVE ! she’s scoffing to herself , because how long would they be alive with azgeda ? she’d seen the littered bodies of fallen trikru warriors in polis and she was not going to let that happen again . or give them the upper hand ! her arm aches as she reaches for the blade , fingertips not close enough —– narrowly missing it and she’s spitting blood that trickles from her nose into her mouth . she can hear her brothers desperation as he calls for her and her heart lurches but she still can’t back down . backing down is weakness —- one of indra’s first lessons . a true warrior fights with all that they have . it’s then that she hears him give into azgeda and it’s what causes her to push herself harder . using the little strength she had in her knees to press into the ground , scramble forward and finally grip the blade . ‘ bellamy don’t ! ’ she warns , before she pulls herself up and turns , rushing forward with a battle cry and raising her sword high to attack . but she’s stopped , and it’s then that she feels the hot white fury at her abdomen and a breath she lets out gets caught in her throat . coming out gurgled almost . emeralds scan down in shock as they lock on the sword that’s gone right through her and she begins to feel the agony that starts to spread . her gaze scans back up to echo’s , as the weapon is pulled out and a sigh from the pain leaves her . eyes are clouded over with tears from both being dumbfounded by what happened and the pain . her hand moves to grip at the wound before her eyes meet his , her big brothers —- holding both complete and utter apology as well as immense love that she holds for him . ‘ —– bell —– bellamy —– ’ word comes out choked as she begins to stumble back , body failing her as legs begin to buckle . her eyes are locked on his as her body falls backward , right at the edge of the cliff and she hurtles to her death . almost like her eyes give him the silent goodbye that her throat deceived her and didn’t give as the words had died on her .
bellamy drags in quick breaths , adrenaline thrumming in his veins , his eyes wide , and trained desperately on the pair . he inches forwards instinctively as octavia struggles to regain her weapon . every cell in his body ACHES to help her . his feet move of their own accord , his muscles aching as they drag along the grounder’s full weight . each step feels like he’s walking through quick - sand , but he doesn’t care ; doesn’t even pay it any attention . all he can think about is saving his baby sister . and echo’s advancing , closing the distance between them , ready to deliver a final blow . ‘ come on , o . ’ it’s murmured , it will never carry to her , but it’s not for her , it’s for him . she asked him to have faith in her , and he DOES , but ------------ ‘ octavia , look out ! ’ bellamy’s heart stops . his breath gets lost in his chest . his stomach drops . ‘ no . no . ’ he can’t breathe , can’t summon enough air to make his words any more than a whisper . he can’t look away , can’t even blink as he attempts to process what he’s seeing , even as tears begin to cloud his vision . as she meets his gaze , his head shakes infinitesimally , his eyebrows knitted together in concern .
‘ bell ------ bellamy ----------- ’
the world begins to tilt around him . sound distorts , his knees buckle , his fingers fall limp upon the chains . he can’t form words , can’t fully process what is about to happen , until she’s falling backwards . he stumbles forward immediately , his instinct to run to her , but he doesn’t make it more than a step before his legs give out , and he falls to his knees in the mud . ‘ NO ! ’ the strangled cry tears from his throat louder than he ever thought possible . the sight of her disappears over the cliff - side , and his eyes screw shut , but the image doesn’t leave him . he drags in a rough , shuddering breath , before immediately letting it back out in a pained wail . ‘ OCTAVIA ! ’ he sobs desperately , struggling to catch his breath between each cry let from his lips . his entire body convulses , hands shake and his shoulders tremble from the weight of the grief . another anguished bellow released into the air , though no words can be found within it . his chest feels as though it’s concaving , both from the lack of oxygen , and from the very physical pain thriving there . he can F E E L his heart shatter in his chest . if his cries weren’t so loud , he swears he could hear it . the broken shards are laying somewhere low in his ribcage . he falls forward , now on his hands and knees, his fingers fisting in the grass as he mourns his loss . ‘ NO ! ’ he has no idea where echo is or what she’s doing , and frankly , he doesn’t care at all . he failed her . he failed octavia . he failed at his ONE job . her death would forever weigh on his shoulders . another hiccuping breath is drawn into desperate lungs . ‘ NO ! ’ his cries dissolve into a mess of unintelligible sobs , his shoulders wracking with each one . the sound is childlike , like a little boy who has lost his mother . only , this little boy just lost E V E R Y T H I N G .
