She Is a Witch

don't reblog my personal posts.

[equinoxoverture]

y’all, listen

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tumblr says I have two instant messages but I don’t what the fuck lol

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whoa nearly a year! it felt like longer tbpfh

damn

anyway suh’

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I might re-enter this pit of despair

remember me lolz

so much has happened

jesus christ when was the last time I was online let me check and then come back

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So

I haven’rt been active in a really fucking long time. I may never properly come back to tumblr. It got to a point where it was just so unhealthy and I surrounded myself with bad discourse and read so much cruelty and got exhausted by the pessimism and the pushback and the fighting-fire-with-fire mentality. And it’s not about disagreeing or agreeing with that -- it’s just that it’s that overwhelming amount of negativity that is too much on me. It was wearing down my friends too. I think it’s related to why some of my friendships with people didn’t last.

But I’m making this post, wishing I could tag people but not wanting to get anyone upset or anxious, to tell my friends and former friends and ex-friends that I am utterly, totally thankful that they were in my life. I have a specific few people in mind, to whom I wish only the best. Each conflict was different, but I think it was related a lot to where these two people were, during that time, in their life. So I harbor no hatred, hard feelings, or spite. I learned very, very valuable lessons and have grown as an individual as a result.

I’m in a very committed relationship and there is confident discussion about next steps. I’m going to university. I’m starting my own business. I’m more confident in my sexuality and gender identity, and surrounding myself with people who accept me. Things are going very well for me. Things will never be perfect or fair and there will be hills and mountains to climb for the rest of my life. But I’m willing to work, and I’m willing to fight. 

I’m so goddamn thankful that I was able to learn from heartbreak and trauma, instead of becoming consumed. I’m thankful that those who hurt me on purpose were unable to keep me down, and those who hurt me without wanting or meaning to were not cruel-hearted. I’m thankful that those who tricked, deceived or misled me were able to open my eyes to how to protect myself. I’m thankful to those that threatened my life because they helped me to see the value in it. I’m thankful to those who ghosted because I was able to appreciate those who stuck around, and, after a very long time, was able to realize the ghosting had nothing to do with me as an individual (or if it did, there was nothing to be done, since I couldn’t force the other party to communicate).

I could go on but this post is long enough already and I honestly doubt anyone will read this. A part of me wants those specific parties to read it, but that is pretty impossible. Either way, I’m just happy. I’ve gotten to this point with my own sweat and blood and tears. I kept trying, kept putting that effort despite anxiety and depression and paranoia. And I was rewarded. My life is moving forward and I’m hopeful and I’m preparing. I want to thank everyone who helped me, I wish I could thank everyone, but I can’t so I’ll just make this vague post lol.

[terefah]

examine your intentions. don’t move, why are you here? is your anger self righteous or misdirected? are you holding yourself accountable? what are the consequences of your actions? are your feelings facts, are they a tool for you to win an argument? are your actions consistent with the love you say you have for another? what does love mean to you? is your language mindful of another’s illnesses and traumas? do you respect another’s autonomy and critical thinking skills? are your emotions enriching this conversation or damaging it?

[wet-monsoon]

it’s kind of incredible how much pixar has backpedaled over the last couple of years, from the standpoint of character design 

these were the kind of characters designs they had when they did their first movie with humans as their main cast 

despite being cg all of the characters are visually distinct from each other and they look like 2d figures translated into a 3d environment

now it’s just???

all their human characters kind of lack that visual distinction and they’re all just? cute? 

[eclipsebykimlipmp3-deactivated2]

theyre really not even that cute they have fucking giant bug eyes and like weirdly disconnected teeth

[micdotcom]

Watch: Fox News sent a reporter to Princeton to make fun of “sensitive” college students

[yourbigsisnissi]

they have so little respect for the intelligence of this generation

[prissypixipea-deactivated201704]

Disgusting

[nerdgasrnz]

Fox reporter: What do you think of this blatantly offensive thing? College students: I don’t appreciate the light-hearted dehumanization of fellow human beings Fox reporter: lmao listen to this sjw bullshit #lol #kek #triggered

[geminibrujo]

wow…so they went to an Ivy League school with some of the brightest and hardworking young minds in the country and attempted to shame them for being intellectually sound and thoughtful of race in America? this shows you how disgustingly warped conservatives see the world and how they cater to the lowest common denominator, because this was supposed to make academics seem bourgeois. 

Please take a seat, Fox News. Your thinly veiled racism is starting to be much less veiled….

[celestialmoonchild]

Conservatives on just annoying pieces of shit

[whyarceuswhy]

I hate this shit so much. Is there a name for this? You know,the thing where someone is being a douchebag,they get called on their behavior,and then it gets turned around and blamed on you because you’re “sensitive”?

[cooltrainerzero]

Abuse?

[protagonistfinn-deactivated2018]

if you think you’re “enlightened” or “modern” for mocking religious people for believing in god/gods, the afterlife, reincarnation, prayer, etc., then i hate to break it to you but you’re actually just an asshole

[equinoxoverture]

I’m just so fucking tired of trying so hard to accept the bare minimum of respect in order to exist with other humans 

and then a fucking millionaire who jokes about how not gay he is has the balls to say his Nazi (or if you want to get so fucking pedantic, anti-Semite) “bestie” (i.e. the guy who is richer than him and therefore I guess someone he wants to stay on the good side of) says and does some awful shit and gets rightly punished for it deserves respect he apparently isn’t getting

from who? there are legions of fans ready to metaphorically and literally fellate him

the amount of people rightfully angry are unfortunately a minority here

like

I’m not getting more into it (right now anyway) even though I want to, because it’s so fucking mind-numbingly exhausting to have to deal with this from all sides

[gluskin-moved]

I don’t get these comics made by cis people depicting trans individuals as loud and extremely rude when it comes to correcting people on their pronouns? Every single trans person i knew (and i mean every. single. one) was either too scared for their own safety to correct someone, or would kindly correct their mistake and try to almost curl in on themselves so as to not cause a fight. 

If anything, the cis people who are being corrected are the ones who react so violently. It’s kind of ironic, but i guess cis people want to come off as being innocent people being harassed by the Evil Trans Cult.

[mioxenoblade]

“are you really going to tear a friendship apart over different opinions??”

listen, I got tons of friends who like pineapple on their pizza, but once you reach that “you, your community, or other marginalized communities don’t deserve basic human rights or even perhaps the right to live” level, you should just accept that it’s your fault no one wants to be your friend. 

[rosycheeks]

[transfemininomenon]

literally the most BASIC holocaust/sociology class will teach you that jokes targeted at a specific group of people are one of the base steps of oppression and eventual genocide because it dehumanizes a group and once a group is seen less than human it’s easier for people not to care as things get worse and worse for them so please fuck off with that “this person’s antisemitism was just a JOKE !!” bullshit

[equinoxoverture]

man, yikes

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im tired of calling out for help and being ignored

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new rule: no one is ever fucking allowed to say “you are not alone” when making a generalized feel-good message

because I am lmao otherwise I wouldn’t be in this mess