(* &&. group chat ;; hell raisers )
Shae: ...Okay. I believe you.
Shae: Lewis. Okay. Damn. Um. Okay.
Shae: I've always been bigger than you. Since we met in the second grade, I was always way bigger than you. You were always so small, and you were mouthy, and you were/are physically incapable of being wrong. It made you such an easy target, and I remember swearing to myself that I would never let anyone hurt you.
Shae: And sometimes I failed, and you got really hurt, because I failed so bad. But you always told me that it wasn't my fault, and that I would save you the next time, and you moved on with life. And I don't know, maybe that's what made me fall for you? The fact that you had this unwavering faith in me, and that I didn't mind being there. We were this dynamic duo, and we always have been. You were the first person I ever really liked, and somehow, you terrified me.
Shae: You're the brains to the operation, and you're small, and it's so easy for you to get hurt, but you never stop fighting. We never stopped fighting. It's what makes us so great, you know?
Shae: Then I ran away to Lima, and you stopped talking to me. And at first, I thought that it was because you found out how I felt. And even if I'm dating three people, I've never stopped feeling what I feel for you. And I was fucking terrified that you knew that.
Shae: But it wasn't that. You have this heart condition that's taking you away from me. It's the one thing that I can't fight for you. And you don't know if you'll survive it, and that terrifies the hell out of me. More than anything in this world, the fact that this could kill you is what keeps me up at night.
Shae: I love you. I have always loved you, and I always will. And I'm always fighting for you, so I need you to fight for me, too, okay? Always. You have too much life to live for us to lose you so young. I know you don't think there's a point in fighting anymore, and I know you don't care if you die, But I care. We all do. You have us. Okay?
Shae: You always say that you don't have anyone, but that's not true. You have me. And you have Erica. And Cassie, and Josh, and everyone else, too. You're not alone in this. You have people to live for, and I need you to remember that. Because I might actually fall apart if I lose you.
Lewis: The fact is that I'm going to die. A lot sooner than I'd like. But that's okay. And I'm not saying that I'm just going to lie down and let it happen. I don't want to die, and I refuse to just let myself die. But I don't want you to be sad when it happens. I want you to be okay.
Lewis: I want all of you to be okay with it.
Lewis: It's not the only thing left of me, guys. My heart isn't the only thing that defines me. I'm still alive, and I'm okay. And I'm happy. So be happy for me. And worry about me dying when I'm dead.
Lewis: I love you, too. I love all of you. And I want you guys to promise me that no matter what happens, you're going to be okay. Not just with what happens to me; with life, in general. Promise that we'll be okay.
Erica: Of course we'll be okay. We have to be okay. Just as long as we stick together.
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