limbo waits for no one

Elliot fictive

[essenceofspectre]

Hello, my name is Essence or Elliot. I use she/they/he pronouns, though they are fluid slightly. I see my age as 17-23 though I'm typically 21, the body is a minor.

I'm a fictive of Elliot from forsaken, and am relatively source connected, though I do understand I'm not really Elliot and my memories aren't real, I prefer to act as if they are.

This is not a roleplay blog. Do not treat it like one. /Vsrs

Headmate blogs:

TwoTime - @twotimestillworships

Taph - @subspaced-out

Spectres DNI. /Lh

Otherwise i have no strict dni, I couldn't care less who interacts, if I do I'll block you, simple /lh

I still feel as though a part of me is taken by them, or that he still holds onto me. Its um. Disturbing. Even after being out of there I still feel it. Anyways. I will rant about this often probably....!

I identify heavily with angels and rabbits.. I'm not a rabbit but I do see myself as an angel/angel like being, ethereal I guess..? Something something spectre related...

I plan to use this to rant about source memories and my identity, and existence as I have... Interesting! Relationships with those.

Like I said I see myself as a ethereal being, in headspace I have 2 looks, one as shown in my profile picture, and one that has white skin, pale hair, angel wings, just. Angel like. I don't have much control over which of these I look like.

Dating my chance headmate!!<3 im polyam and a arospec hopeless romantic (most of our system is)

I have delusions/paranoia around the spectre so please do not try and egg me on with them. (Example: feeling I'm being watched/monitored still)

I have very fluid empathy abilities, depending on how strongly I feel connected to the spectre, sorry if I seem cold, distant, or uncaring /gen

That's all I can think of right now, I'll add more if I think of anything.

Transids (as of June 10th, verrry new to the community):

Transethereal, transstolensoul

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Transids/radqueers seem cool, actually

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"Anti recovery" shit be pmo like just let people live their life if their happy. I don't care.

"oh but they purposely split to make new headmates!!" Okay? Are they happier with this headmate around? Are they better? Can they function? If yes, then let them do it

"oh but they say their an "irl" and that's feeding into delusion!" Okay? Are they happy? Do they have other delusions or is this the main one? Does it effect them negatively?

If their happy and this is their main delusion then fuck I'd rather them think their a fictional character than have worse delusions!

Just let them live. Let others live their life.