Eternal Night Owl

She/her | A mess of fandoms, memes, and (sometimes) writing | My fanfiction and ao3 accounts are both under the same username 

[ask-louvely]

Fluttershy is not okay 🙃

[liebelesbe]

attaching something to an email is so scary. what if i accidentally put hard-core porn in there. i don't think i have any downloaded but what if i do and i attached it to the email. what then.

[teaboot]

Unfortunate truth: There are times at which, silent walker who occasionally delights in accidentally spooking people, you must be very careful to NOT move like a gentle summer breeze along the rooftops

These scenarios may include:

Moving around folks who are already spooked or easily-startled

Approaching people who you absolutely do not want to alarm, such as people with poor spatial awareness, people experiencing paranoia or a panic attack, folks who are very focused on a different thing, people handling dangerous chemicals or machinery

When you very urgently need to get somewhere and there are people in your way

Any other time when you require others to be aware of your presence and location

Sincerely,

-Quiet walker who wears big stompy boots on purpose

[bioluminescent-fungus]

affirmations when opening a stuck jar:

I am stronger than the jar

⁠⁠I know what left and right are

⁠⁠smashing the jar will make a mess

⁠⁠I have strong and dextrous hands

⁠⁠I have opened jars before and I will open jars again

[munchiemooz]

“Maddy, you should post more art.”

Now introducing this monstrosity. Arin Kaufmo… Aaufmo… Karin….

[bugmuscle]

beautiful, sexy, powerful and smart women named SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WARNING are attempting to contact me

[infertilityidol]

[charlesoberonn]

The first recorded use of "I feel like a million bucks" was in 1902.

Adjusted for inflation, in order to feel as good as a person in 1902 who felt like a million bucks, a person in 2026 would need to feel like 38,831,628 dollars.

[headspace-hotel]

I wonder WHY breathing exercises have always been such a dogshit "coping skill" for me.

It just feels so incredibly wrong to try to force my breaths to be a certain length. Usually, when I've tried them, it gives me the sense that I'm not getting enough air or I'm starting to suffocate, which slowly increases the longer I do the breathing exercises, and it's a very stressful feeling.

Last time I tried doing breathing exercises to relax, my back and torso became slowly more and more and more tense and locked up and tight until my back was very painful. It was like I was clenching down with all the muscles of my body to try to make the breaths start and end when they were supposed to.

It sucks because therapists usually think "breathing exercises" are the gold standard for anxiety coping skills, and I had one therapist tell me that it was impossible that they didn't work because scientifically, you Cannot have a fear/stress response if you're doing breathing exercises. Lady, if it was that easy no one would need therapy. Also I guess I'm some kind of alien or something.

In yoga class, I think I finally "got" some of the benefits of what breathing exercises were supposed to do from paying attention to breathing in different poses and feeling how that biological cycle affects the parts of the body that are holding the pose. That isn't trying to control the breathing though.

Also, it's engaging the whole body: trying to focus on my breathing while not doing anything else I think causes that tension to build in my muscles.

I'm just thinking like. I notice that my breaths become faster and shallower when I'm stressed or afraid, but when I try to force myself to breathe slowly, it's like my body is wrestling against me.

I think it's much easier and less pain- and panic-inducing to do breathing exercises when I'm already calm?

I kept trying to do breathing exercises for years after I knew they didn't work for me. I think I had the idea from therapy that coping skills weren't necessarily supposed to feel good or different or helpful at all, and that I had to keep doing them to "get better" which was something independent from "feeling better."

[podcastwizard]

every day i walk into work and my manager says “here is the rule you must enforce” and i go “got it bossman” and i spend a couple days enforcing the rule and then my manager comes up to me and says “why are you enforcing the rule? we changed the rule yesterday and didn’t tell you” and i go “ok bossman new rule it is” and then a customer comes in asking to break the new rule and i say “sorry you can’t it’s the rule” and they say “but you don’t understand the rule doesn’t apply to me” and then my manager comes out and says “they’re right the rule doesn’t apply to them” and i ask why and my manager says “it just doesn’t.” and then the next day we get rid of the rule entirely and no one remembered it existed in the first place.

anyway this sounds like a metaphor for neurodivergence or something but it’s not this is just my fucking life

[byelacey]

yearning is a science 🌌

[segamascott]

[teaboot]

I haven't had a major depressive episode in a good while (thank god/knock on wood) and while I KNOW everybody's experience is different, it's always kinda annoyed me that a lot of people who DON'T have depression try and describe it to each other like "Have you ever lost someone you loved? It's like that but all the time forever"

Because I've definitely heard that analogy more than once from more than one person and again- maybe just MY experience here- but for me, it's less "nail through the heart agony and hopelessness" and more "waking up one day and finding out that loved one never existed in the first place, and in fact you HAVE no loved ones, and nobody loves you, either, nor will they ever"

But hell, maybe that IS just my personal pan hell, because the one and only time I ever actually said that to a psych specialist they said that their analogy made more sense and they themselves had "gone through a period of depression once" so of course they would know

[mutantrenegade]

You know Jones soda cap, as a tumblr user i can actually say i think I have.

[log6]

you think so much. You could think about a door for a hundred years and it would stay closed.

[flowerbleedme]

touches U in a very weird but non sexual way

[flowerbleedme]

[ch0co-c0rn3t-lov3]

DO NOT DOWNLOAD TUMBLR it will install a virus on your device called tumblr