I lost control

People are born, they grow old & then they die. That`s the world we live in. There`s no magic, no mysticism, no immortality. It`s not possible. I`m not a believer. I can`t be. But how can I  d e n y what`s right in front of me? || Indie tvd rp || [ please read first ] Elena Ethan Gilbert. 18. vampire.

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     ”Obviously no one has ever taught you to respect your elders.”

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❝ You should be in History books. Sorry if I forgot how to respect a villian. ❞

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       ❝ Math isn’t so bad. Don’t talk to me about biology. ❞

           [   A small laugh erupts from her lips before she listened to him                      say she should be happy. But she isn’t happy.                           How can she be happy when things have turned                                         out like this? How can she possibly                                                       be okay? ]

              ❝ I am happy. I’m here and we’re going to college.                             It’s the next step in our lives. Well we haven’t                        had any normal problems in a while. So it’s fine. ❞

       [    She’s pretty sure finals is almost similar to death sentence                     because all it did was cause stress and less sleep.             It’s like school wanted them to go through this torture.  ]

                        ❝ Then let’s go out for a drink after. ❞

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❝ At least we're happy. ❞

[  That's all that mattered to Ethan, everyone else's happiness    before his own. They were best friends, they could tell each other                         pretty much everything, right?  

   A sigh left the vampire's mouth. He was going to tell her he slipped.  ]

               ❝ I may have done something horrible, today. ❞

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THERE'S ONLY THIS.

I had an amazing day. Watched Teen Wolf & ready to tackle some replies !!

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'Think about it. It's so obvious. Go back far enough, there's one person who brought us to this, who ruined our lives.' 

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     ”It really is a wonder I haven’t killed you yet, Ethan.”

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❝ I think I vividly remember telling you to go to Hell.              I could repeat it if you want. ❞

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"I’m not going to give up on you. I never will."

"She has."

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     ”I do expect you to buy me a drink if you continue to oogle at me.”

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❝ I'm just wondering why you're still here. Go buy your own drink. ❞

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THERE'S ONLY THIS.

---- so many people !! I honestly don't know how you guys do it.

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( That — was a very good question. Damon usually just got drunk    then fed from college people. Then again his vampire ways were    learned either from Katherine or others.

           Ethan wasn’t like that. — The Gilbert wasn’t sporadic about feeding    which made answering the question hard for Damon. )

"Hey, I try my best okay? Give me an A for effort here.      Also, that question is probably best answered by my brother.            Because I’m going to give you the wrong advice.”

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[  Ethan knew how to read Damon almost like a book.    As the words left his boyfriend's lips, Ethan couldn't help but feel sad.

         Damon was really trying, wasn't he?  ] 

❝ For someone that masks away their true self, you sure suck at it.         I wasn't looking for advice but more so of your past. ❞

[  They were a couple & couples knew each other's pasts.     Yet, Ethan knew nothing of Damon's past from his words.

          He always had to learn it through Stefan or others.  ] 

❝ I just-- I really wished you wouldn't be so vague about yourself.            Or put yourself down so much. You're far better than that. ❞

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[  He was spending time at the Lockwood mansion,    the Victorian interior of the Salvatore residence was driving him insane.

   Ethan laid sprawled across one of the couches, eyes closed as    he let his mind go off thinking. Which brought him to the question...  ] 

          ❝ Do you ever have the urge to turn into a wolf?              Or are you glad you never have to anymore? ❞

[  These were very serious questions, indeed.  ]

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[ The sun was bright, what a great day for a walk, even if she had no proper destination. Though, ending up at the college was not something she was expecting.

               Whitemore.   The memories flooding but Anna ignored them as she heard that familiar voice in her keen ears of the boy she kidnapped and tried to kill a few years ago, a smirk crossed her. ]

              “Well, I’m not going to object to that one.”

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[   Ethan's hands and mouth were covered in the crimson liquid.               He was a bit reckless but he couldn't help it. 

     The sound of a familiar voice rang in his ears. Anna. The vampire      that somehow made her way to Jeremy's heart. Ethan still didn't know      just exactly how to feel of the situation. Especially now.   ] 

                  ❝ This isn't exactly a good time, Anna. ❞

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         [   Bonnie observed as Ethan jumped from her mere                    voice. She wasn’t entirely sure she could believe it                             was finals. Yet, she didn’t exactly want to push it.   Lately, they hadn’t exactly talked about their                                     problems. Whether it was with each other or not. ]

                ❝ Are you sure you don’t need any help studying? ❞

    [   She took a moment to think about what else to say to him.   ]

     ❝ If it’s something else you can always talk to me about it.❞

             [    Enough to give him at least the benefit of the doubt that                         she sort of believed him.  ]

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❝ Yeah -- you know how Math is always my worst subject. ❞

[  Lieslieslies. All lies. He wants to tell her, really he does.  ] 

             ❝ I know. I rather just have you be happy instead of                 worrying about my stupid problems like -- finals -- ❞

[  Finals was another topic. Blood & finals, the bane of everything.           A grumble left his lips as ponder over numerous things.  ]  

                         ❝ I could really go for a drink or fifty. ❞

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      [   Bonnie had found herself stuck in vampire mess,               and she wondered if today would be the same or                  it would be a regular day. She wasn’t quite sure. ]

                             ❝Something wrong? You seem on edge today.❞

                [  A hint of concern was on Bonnie’s face. ]

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[  Ethan jumped slightly, of course he was on edge.    Though, he didn't want his best friend knowing that --    after everything she's been through lately?

        The last thing he wanted was to tell her he slipped up.  ]

❝ Hm? Oh yeah. I'm totally fine, just stressing out over finals. ❞

[  He shouldn't be used to lying. Not to Bonnie.        More things to feel bad later on.  ]