My InuYasha Psychoness

Kat, 38, she/her II My Fanfic Masterlist || InuYasha Discord || Buy me a coffee! || Donate to my PayPal! || All things InuYasha sideblog, though it's really become my main. Might throw in a smidge of other fandoms too upon occasion. My "main" is a cosplay blog under eternalnight8806. I'm InuYasha crazy. A huge InuKag shipper. They are the only OTP. I'm on AO3 and fanfiction.net as eternalnight8806 if you would like to follow me. If you don't like what I post, then don't follow me.

[avatrashh]

It’d be a missed opportunity if I ignored the date

[avatrashh]

It’s back

I have had this queued for a year

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

omfg

[avatrashh]

It’d be a missed opportunity if I ignored the date

[avatrashh]

It’s back

I have had this queued for a year

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

omfg

[eternalnight8806-3]

I wish I had just one friend. Just one. I need a shoulder to cry on. Someone to bounce things off of. Someone who will listen to me when I'm screaming into the ether. I have my boyfriend, and he does what he can. But it's not fair to put all of that on just him.

I miss having someone. I miss talking about everything, and nothing. I miss having a neutral pair of eyes and ears. I miss having a support system bigger than just my man.

Why am I never the right kind of friend? Why am I never enough? Why can't anyone accept me the way I am instead of the person they expect or want me to be? That's my story, I guess. Never being enough, not even for my parents.

[eternalnight8806-3]

Fuck Everything

It's 7:30 in the morning and I've been awake since 10 a.m. yesterday. I can't sleep. I'm too stressed about literally everything in my life. I'm permanently disabled. Arthritis in my spine made sure of that. I'm in constant agonizing pain. Some days are better than others, but most days it's a chore to sit on the couch. I can no longer shower without someone there to help me. Fifteen minutes for hygiene and my energy is completely sapped. I've applied for SSDI but the likelihood of my getting approved is basically zero, even if I go through the appeal process after they deny me. My boyfriend is working full time but it's simply not enough to survive on. I can't make my bankruptcy payments. I can't qualify for SNAP unless I'm working 20 hours/week or unless I get classified as disabled. My roof needs an $11,000 repair. My car is barely hanging on by a thread. I've had to go no contact with my parents which has taken basically everyone in my community away from me.

I have literally zero friends. That's not an exaggeration. The people from here and Discord that I thought were my friends never truly were. They've all blocked me, abandoned me or just simply stopped talking to me. My IRL friends were never my friends, either. I was always there for them, but they were never there for me. Why am I always the one giving and giving until I have nothing left to give, but no one else is willing to give me anything? Not even a tiny speck. I've been drowning for years, barely able to snag a 1/4 of a breath before my head gets pulled underwater again, and they all just stand by, watch, and laugh. I'm never worthy enough of anyone's time or energy, let alone their love.

I truly, deeply wonder if life is worth the effort. If all I ever get to experience is pain on top of more pain, why do I have to suffer through this? Because "someone will miss me." Who? My parents that favor my sister, never approved of any decision I ever made and refuse to acknowledge any of the trauma I endured at their hands? Maybe, but I truly don't fucking care. Again, I have zero friends, so they wouldn't miss me. I don't have a job, but even if I did all they would miss is a body to do the work. My boyfriend would probably miss me for a minute, but he's so good looking that he'd have a new woman before my body was cold if he wanted.

Everyone is replaceable. Everyone. No one is special. No one is unique. We're all just fleshbags filled with mostly water floating on a rock hurdling around the sun at thousands of miles per hour. Every idea you have has been thought of. Every style choice. Every sentence you speak. Nothing is unique, no matter how much we try to convince ourselves that we're somehow infallible, god-like beings with such incredible creativity.

I'm just so fucking tired of the world constantly fighting against me. Just once I want to know what it's like to be happy for more than just a single moment in time.

Oh, and today is my birthday. Not that anyone cares. Happy fucking birthday to me.

[clearwillow]

Trick or treat! A fun Halloween patron reward! 🎃

[chupicabri]

Good morning! ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

[eternalnight8806-3]

Please Help or Share

Well, here I am again. Doing exactly what I hoped I would never have to do again. I'm not in any current danger of losing my home. I was able to sort that out at the end of last year. However, I am now unable to work. I have a cyst on my spine causing me a great deal of sciatic pain from my lower back to my toes in my left foot. There are days I can't even walk unassisted. The cyst is not removable, therefore I will likely be like this for the rest of my life.

My partner works full time, but unfortunately it's just not enough. We have a plan to earn extra money, but it's going to take a few months to get it off the ground. So, here I am, begging my followers, my mutuals, my friends, to help me. Anything you can send to help us get through the next few months would be greatly appreciated. Even just a share of this post to help spread the word would be very much appreciated and I would be forever grateful. Thank you in advance.

Just please, try not to judge me too harshly. You could be in my situation someday, through no fault of your own. We are all much, much closer to being homeless than to being a millionaire (let alone a billionaire.) Have some compassion instead of judgment.

[eternalnight8806-3]

Please Help or Share

Well, here I am again. Doing exactly what I hoped I would never have to do again. I'm not in any current danger of losing my home. I was able to sort that out at the end of last year. However, I am now unable to work. I have a cyst on my spine causing me a great deal of sciatic pain from my lower back to my toes in my left foot. There are days I can't even walk unassisted. The cyst is not removable, therefore I will likely be like this for the rest of my life.

My partner works full time, but unfortunately it's just not enough. We have a plan to earn extra money, but it's going to take a few months to get it off the ground. So, here I am, begging my followers, my mutuals, my friends, to help me. Anything you can send to help us get through the next few months would be greatly appreciated. Even just a share of this post to help spread the word would be very much appreciated and I would be forever grateful. Thank you in advance.

Just please, try not to judge me too harshly. You could be in my situation someday, through no fault of your own. We are all much, much closer to being homeless than to being a millionaire (let alone a billionaire.) Have some compassion instead of judgment.

[huntedreader]

Kagome is really out here insulting one of the most powerful demons out there. She just goes around insulting enemies when they piss her off or hurt Inuyasha and it's so hilarious. Remember when she was literally IN THE PALM of Tokajin (the peach man) and she was yelling at him about Inuyasha's safety?

Also lowkey love that Sesshomaru tried to actually kill her a few times and then like, started to tolerate her as soon as Rin came into his life? Kills me too

We have another instance of Kagome "don't touch my husband" Higurashi , everyone. I should start keeping count at this point just to see how many times it happens

[clearwillow]

I've been updating some posts on patreon and holy god I didn't realize how many art pieces I've done since I created the page in 2020. There's at least 60 that haven't seen the light of day outside of the post.

[clearwillow]

Still digging through the trenches and I think out of those 60+ posts, only 4 or 5 were completely finished. It got me thinking "you know you should probably finish these" but given some are a few years old now, the art makes me cringe.

But also...dumbass you can fix it. You don't have to leave it as it is.

I swear I'm smart, this heat is frying my brain.

[algumas-aquarelas]

[eternalnight8806-3]

Please Help or Share

Well, here I am again. Doing exactly what I hoped I would never have to do again. I'm not in any current danger of losing my home. I was able to sort that out at the end of last year. However, I am now unable to work. I have a cyst on my spine causing me a great deal of sciatic pain from my lower back to my toes in my left foot. There are days I can't even walk unassisted. The cyst is not removable, therefore I will likely be like this for the rest of my life.

My partner works full time, but unfortunately it's just not enough. We have a plan to earn extra money, but it's going to take a few months to get it off the ground. So, here I am, begging my followers, my mutuals, my friends, to help me. Anything you can send to help us get through the next few months would be greatly appreciated. Even just a share of this post to help spread the word would be very much appreciated and I would be forever grateful. Thank you in advance.

Just please, try not to judge me too harshly. You could be in my situation someday, through no fault of your own. We are all much, much closer to being homeless than to being a millionaire (let alone a billionaire.) Have some compassion instead of judgment.

[keichanz]

i beg your finest pardon

[eternalnight8806-3]

McScuse me, WHAT? 👀👀👀

[clearwillow]

Inuyasha's not keen on being shrunk down smaller than a toadstool, but he likes it even less when he sees his reflection and has a full head of white hair (and other nonhuman things that used to be human). He's got a long list of work and the boss man isn't going to be happy that he's slacking. Kagome is a fairy who doesn't have a good hold on her powers all the time. When she sees the dark-haired human getting ready to cut down a tree, she tries to tell him that there's life in those branches. Irritated with being swatted away, she decides to give him a new perspective - but she didn't mean to turn him into a member of her kind. Now she has to convince him that his "work" is ruining the lives of all sorts of creatures she calls friends, and it may take him seeing the monster his people have created to make some changes.

Ferngully AU InuKag to celebrate @mamabearcat's birthday today! Happy Birthday! 💜

[feudalconnection]

Hello fellow Inuyasha fans! With the conclusion of another award trimester, along with the joy and praise comes some unfortunate news. These awards have always been a way to give recognition to the creators for the fandom, spread awareness to lesser known authors & artists, and come together for celebration of a series we all love! However, some people have seen this as an opportunity to win above all else. The awards remain anonymous to the general fandom, but as moderators we take precautions to do our best to keep it fair. With that in mind, it has come to our attention that a few people have tried to increase votes for specific works by voting from multiple accounts. We removed the duplicate votes so those recognized can receive the acknowledgement they deserve. Let this be a reminder that we do what we can to keep the checks and balances in place, and at the end of the day, these awards are for fun - not a popularity contest. Nobody should feel the need to win by cheating. The true reward of FeudalConnection is being nominated, to have your work be recognized by the fandom, and open it up to a larger audience. Unfortunately, we have now put together penalties for those who are breaking the nomination or voting rules.

First offense, the offender will receive a written warning from the moderator team.

Second offense, the offender will be under a one term ban, meaning they may not participate in nominating or voting, and their works will not be eligible to be nominated.

Third offense, the offender will be permanently banned from participating in FeudalConnection.

In addition, pressuring others to nominate or vote for them is prohibited. If anyone is experiencing that, please reach out to a moderator. The offender will be subject to the penalties as dictated above. If, for whatever reason, you don't want your fics to be nominated, you can always reach out to us to have your username added to the "Do Not Nominate List". Thank you everyone for another fun and, mostly, successful term. The purpose of FC has always been to foster our diverse community, recognize all creators, and to have fun! We will see you in a few months! -FeudalConnection

[avatrashh]

It’d be a missed opportunity if I ignored the date

[avatrashh]

It’s back

I have had this queued for a year

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

omfg

[clearwillow]

It doesn't matter to Miroku what kinds of marks Sango carries, she's still his warrior goddess.

Happy birthday, @eliza-faust-diary ❤