Ethel Cain

Fan blog. Ethel Cain & Other project names that she has used in the past.

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Rosary ATLAS

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Plague Ethel Cain

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Mondays (ft. Chloe Hotline) Ethel Cain

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Knuckle Velvet (ft. YAH WAV) Ethel Cain

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Head in the Wall Ethel Cain

Sometimes you make me wanna put my fucking head through the wall Sometimes I wonder if I even know you at all Fall asleep to the sound of your old rotating fan I cut the fuck out of myself and soaked the bed sheets with blood again

I hold my head underwater just to drown out the noise It's always my fault, girls will be bitches, and boys will be boys I know I don't need you, but I'm terrified of letting you go Even after all the times you fucked the shit out of me while I was crying, "No"

And how am I supposed to feel good about myself when everything I do is wrong? When I'm just an ugly bitch, a fucking freak, and I don't wanna go on? And I don't wanna leave my house, 'cause I know everybody's staring at me now "Why the hell am I alive?" is what they think, they wanna take me down (Down)

And I can't get out, can't run away, and-oh (Run away) There's no escaping you now (And-oh) (There's no escaping you now) I'm gonna die all alone next to you in this piece of shit town And oh, and we've been cursed since the start, Jesus didn't want us, no And you take all of your sins out on my body like everyone else does And oh, shooting up our old school when we get bored of shooting up And fuck the cops, and fuck God, and fuck this town for ruining us And they'll put holes in all we own and in our heads, pumped full of lead You always told me I could only leave you once we're both dead, dead Sometimes you make me wanna put my fucking head through the wall Sometimes I wonder if I ever even knew you at all

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Homecoming Ethel Cain

Stolen gardenia, makeshift lapel It's bad behavior but I'll never tell if you don't And you won't (Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah) Your breath on my neck through my homecoming dress I'm more patient now than I ever have been Placated by a cold flask on your hip And we're dancing (Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah-ah) Can I tell you a secret? (Ooh) I'm desperate for you

My love is my love, it's big love for you 'Til it's your love, then it's your love And it's your problem too Here, just inches away from you Four left feet in a room Always all over you You know and I know it's just how it goes We both get too close 'til we fucking explode And I hope they bury me right next to you

Ah, aah, aah Ah, aah, aah Brought a knife to the gunfight But they shoot blanks and I'm feeling crazy tonight (Ah) But I'm secretly still scared That you'll see underneath and you'll leave me here I'll cry till my hair all falls out (Nah-ah-ah-ah) Is it just me or is this room way too loud? Don't look now, but everyone's staring at us weird And is it just me, or is there no air in here?

My love is my love and bleeds like a wound You pretend not to notice something I like about you Young and sweet, only seventeen I'm the real pig blood soaked fucking homecoming queen Fire in my eyes, I just stand here and bleed Crying in your arms, baby, can't we just leave? Everyone's watching us and I can't breathe They're all gonna laugh at me

They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh at me They're all gonna laugh

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Gold Cross Ethel Cain

Last night I blew you a kiss, I hope that you got it Underneath you I told you a lie, I hope that you bought it Strangers touch me in my dreams if I go to bed sober When the edge of the curtains turn white I'll know that it's over

And you see things for what they are And I see what they'll never be And God can make mistakes like he made an example of me And who could really love someone who's that fucking ugly?

Leaving his cum in the upholstery, always picking it out like a bad memory They all say that it's fine 'cause they don't know the cycle like I do You don't know what it's like tryna love while you heal and you don't get to preach if you don't know how it feels to have every last inch of your body invaded like I do Woke up a saint, fell asleep a martyr Would you do the same things to your own daughter? Still I tried saying "I love you" through a mouthful of dirt Keep parts of dead things in the freezer outside wondering if they suffered when they were alive Does God make delicate things just to watch them get hurt?

And you see things for what they are And I see what they'll never be God can make mistakes like he made an example of me And who could really love someone who's that fucking ugly?

That gold cross swings only for me In Jesus's name it kills me slowly That gold cross swings only for me In Jesus's name it kills me slowly

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Doe Hunting Ethel Cain

Oh, ah No, ah, I No, ah, I No, ah, I No, ah, I No, ah, I No, ah, I No, ah, I (Ooh)

Come around here and you talk too loud (Hey, ooh) I'm the one you think about all late at night (I don't wanna fight, but you want me to) I could really love you, you could say that you wanted me to And you know I do (You've come so far, and you thought you knew I did) And you know I do (And I try to stop it, but it just didn't work) It's not hard when I'm coming around and bow (And it's okay here, and it's alright) And I like it, and I wanna know what you're about And nothing hurts me here, you can know that now And I'm so fine here Yeah, I'm so fine here I don't know what they've been telling your ass about (Aah) If they lie to you (If they lie to you) And they lie to you (No, no) 'Cause I'm fine here (Yeah, I don't know what they've been talking 'bout around here) I know Know, know (The window's open, and you're coming back now)

Look at me, everything you know, we could talk about (Even in hardest memories, I'll be turbulent) And you are fine You are fine (I don't know) You are fine, aah (I don't know) And I'll be home soon I'll be home soon I'll be home soon I'll be home soon I'll be home soon I'll be home

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Away From You (ft. White Silas) Little Triste

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Child of Cain Ethel Cain

Paint my Sistine Chapel white On my couch all night (On my couch all night) Show me love in whatever way it comes to you As long as you hold me tight

I know your father hurt you You say that's why God gave you me You say I make it a little better You say I make you happy You say it with your fingers clenched Wrapped tight around my neck ’Cause that's what love means to you And I asked for it, I guess

Oh, oh Beautiful, sweet child of Cain All you know is how to feel and how to deal Out pain

I take my mother's scissors Carve your name into my chest ’Cause I think you're so amazing 'Cause I think that you're the best And the way you hurt me softly Brings back such sweet mеmories Of how the angels in my room and I Would play when I was three And if I try hard as I can I think that I can make believe That what we have is really love 'Cause what else could it even be? It'd be impossible to live Without you here with me And it doesn't even matter That with or without you I can't breathe Oh, oh Beautiful, sweet child of Cain (Ah, oh) All you know is how to feel and how to deal (How to feel and how to deal) Out pain (O-O-Out pain, aah)

And oh, you know I love you But you’re all that I want to be It goes numb, baby, I can’t love you And, oh, oh Beautiful, sweet child of Cain And all you know is how to feel Is how to deal Out pain, no

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Churchyard Ethel Cain

Every time I lay in my bed I go to sleep hoping I'll wind up dead I tried to pray you away Even though I know praying for you's a waste Can you hear the church bells ringing, baby?

You ate the heart right out of me And when you kiss me, all I taste is myself and how I reek Like a red wine staining all my virgin sheets Will you bury me behind the chapel where you first met me?

It's a coffin of sorts where we lay And you hide the nails in all the love that we make You suffocate me, baby, and I can't bear the weight Are you gonna make me dig my own grave?

You ate the heart right out of me And when you kiss me, all I taste is myself and how I reek Like a red wine staining all my virgin sheets Will you bury me behind the chapel where you first met me?

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Cold Food White Silas

You work yourself to death You beat yourself up 'til you forget how it felt Your blood inside your gloves Stains everything you touch, and everything that you forgot that you love

And you breathe and you sleep at that table Until you learned to sew up your mouth And you won't cry when I leave 'cause the smell is just too much Now who's gonna pull you out?

I showed my grandmother my music yesterday and she said she loved it, but she said I sound really sad, and that made her sad Sorry, Grandma

Your food is getting cold You told me you're not hungry, but you're starving and I know you know I know But still, you never eat You stay locked inside that room, and why I wait for you Is a mystery to me

And you breathe and you sleep at that table Until you learned to sew up your mouth And you won't cry when I leave 'cause the smell is just too much

Now who's gonna pull you out?

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August Underground (acapella) Ethel Cain

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Born to Die (cover) Ethel Cain

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Bambi Ethel Cain

Open-mouthed, she bit you "You can't hurt me if I never loved you" I was wrong when I met you About who I thought would save who Chose to be alone And walk the whole way home Soaked to the bone Hid your face Said, "I don't wanna play" But you were born game