I Will Be Thin

🇮🇹italian🇮🇹 ⭐️|1,75m-5’8|⭐️ 💫SW:78,8kg-173lbs💫 ✨CW:67kg-147lbs✨ 💟UGW:55kg-121lbs💟

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21-05-19

I’m back

It’s been 3 months of non-stop binging

I gained 4 kgs

My self esteem is completely gone

I feel fat

I’m a failure

I have to restart everything

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25-02-2019

It’s my birthday🥰

Is it okay if I’m binging?

[inlovin]

imagine if you loved yourself in the same way you loved another person; not caring about the flaws in the body or inside the mind, seeing the virtues even bigger, supporting, taking care. that would be a new level of self-esteem and another way to be  indestructible

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Having a crush has made me forget about eating

LMFAO

[disabilityuserboxes]

this user has an eating disorder

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My ED summed up:

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I sent a Valentine’s Day card to my crush

I don’t know why I did this to myself, but guys

PLOT TWIST

HE LIKES ME BACK APPARENTLY

[sadskinnyandcoffee]

This is your reminder

To eat plenty of veggies

Get plenty of sleep

Clean yourself and your surroundings

Love your family

And drink water

xoxo

[skinnyfinlly]

💖⚜️💖

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12-02-19

I realized how ugly I am

I should stay forever in my home, how can I go out and make people look at this?... I understand why no one wants to be my friend, and I’m ok with that

I’m disgusting, I shouldn’t even try to improve something.. there’s nothing I can do

Every inch of me is just ugly

I’m the incarnation of all of the possible ugly features imaginable

I hate my body.. it’s horrible for me to even talk about it, I feel like I’m about to vomit

I should just die

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Oh my god

I binged sooo bad

I can’t believe I did this

Oh my god I ate literally everything in the kitchen

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😻Guys😻

I found the most effective method to not eat:

✨✨✨Watching pimple popping videos✨✨✨

[l0v3lyth1ngs]

Even at my skinniest (9th grade, 120 lbs) I still thought I was fat.

I remember telling my best friend I had thunder thighs. And her laughing, trying to tell me I was nowhere near fat.

Reblog if you have NEVER seen yourself as skinny even if you actually were/are. I hope this doesn’t get too many notes, but if it does, hey at least we’re in the same boat?…

[anti-pro-destruction]

not eating means no energy and no energy means not being able to play with small doggies bc ur too weak so please look after your bodies ok do it for the doggies who want to play with u

[dietcoke-and-razorblades]

me after a binge: I will get skinny I will never eat again I’m gonna be so thin this time next month

me after not eating for five (5) hours: ok but how bad do I really wanna b skinny tho

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this shit right here is what makes me feel like my ed isn’t real

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I’m so ugly oh my fucking god

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It’s been the first day of gym today

I feel disgusting and ugly...

And

The coach said I don’t need to lose, but I should gain 2 kgs of muscular mass..

I want to lose weight, I don’t want a muscular body.... oh my god I’m panicking

I heard that when you’re in a calorie deficit you’ll not gain muscles and I HOPE IT’S TRUE

And he’s also the brother of my therapist and it’s fucking weird

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I self-harmed

I feel guilty

My mom, knows about it.. she said:“every time you cut yourself you’re doing it on my skin”

And I’m so sorry mom

I was angry

I don’t know what to do

I’m crying